The pregnancy story

"ima miss you so much." Chris says as he squeezes me.
"im going to miss your ugly face too." I say trying to lighten the mood. everyone sad saying goodbye to there friends and family. Chris and his band are leaving today. its really bitter sweet, I want him to live his dreams but I don't want to be going threw this demon birthing alone. which he doesn't know about. no one does, except Austin. I cant tell Vic, he's got a girlfriend. cant tell Alan, don't want to drag him down with me. cant tell Chris, he'll never leave plus he would hate me for ruining his one shot. I've been planning out this whole situation in my head. maybe I could tell oli's its his but he'll probably want me to abort it. which im not quite sure if I want to or not. I don't know if I could forgive myself if I did but I don't want to get fate and I definitely don't want to face school with a baby doing Olympic laps in my stomach.
"Lana." Ricky snaps me out of my thoguhts. I hug him.
"don't get to trashed on this tour." I nudge his arm.
"ill try." he smiles a devilish smile and winks at me. I don't like this kinda of stuff. saying goodbye. I've done it too many times. I don't like showing my emotions, that's why I don't say anything to sappy. I hug every member in the band and wish them luck. they pile into a white van, like one of those pedo vans, that's all they could afford. watching them get in looks like a goth clown car. I smile at the site of them.
"ima miss him" Abigale says to me crying.
"save your crocodile tears for someone who cares." I say in a pissy tone and push past her.
"im serious, I really love him." she says but I cant tell if its fake or not.
"if you loved him your wouldn't have cheated on him." I walk away ending the conversation at that. I get into my car and drive to oli's. im staying there for a month tell Chris gets back. I stopped throwing up but now I have major cramps. like period cramps but worse cause it isn't my aunt flow making me cramp.
"stupid baby." I whisper down to my stomach as another round of cramps start up. I get to oli's deciding to take the stairs. better burn off as much calories as i can so i don't explode as bad. he lives on the third floor. 3 flights of stairs later and im out of breath. clutching my stomach as more flairs of cramps come.
"fuck" i slide down the wall and wait for the cramps to stop. i put my head between my legs and take deep breaths.
"are you okay?" lee ask worried as he bends down next to me.
"yeah, my stomach hurts, that's all." i say with a forced smile. he believes me.
"okay, well let me help you up." he gets up and hands me his hand. i take it and he pulls me up. he walks me to olis door and knocks. oli opens the door and i run past him and throw up in the toilet from my cramps being so bad.
"let me help you." oli says as he pulls my hair from my face and i spill out whats left of my breakfast. he kisses my head. he can be so sweet.
"now brush your teeth. you stink." and he ruins it. i flush the toilet and clean myself up. i lift my shirt up, not showing yet, but i will by the time chris gets back. should i tell anybody im pregnant except for chris and stay home tell i birth it. or do i want vic in my life helping me out and maybe being a real family. should i tell olis it his? will he hurt it as much as he hurts me? or will he love her or him. maybe he will change. should i do the easiest thing and just go kill it? im not ready for a baby. i would ruin chris, oli's and vics life if i told any of them. im so stupid. i didn't even know vic enough to have sex with him or raise a baby with him. that's why i should tell oli's it his. hes has a stable job, a apartment. is he my best bet? or will he dump me on the side of the road. how will i hide a baby bump from him? bagger shirts. i mentally write myself a note. i sit down on the toilet and call vic. he answers on the third ring.
"hello?" he says with a raspy voice since it is 8 in the morning on a Saturday. it so hot.
"hey. its me."
"what do you want?" he says annoyed.
"i need to talk to you about something important. can i come over?" i say as i billed up some confidence to tell him.
"cant. taking Caitlin out today."
"oh. well someother time than. it can wait."
"okay" he hangs up. i feel myself start to cry. i hope that's the hormones and not my feelings. i open the door to find oli on the other side listening.
"who was that?" he asks as he folds his arms on his chest. i say alans name because oli think he's gay.
"good. no one important then." he pulls me into his arms. "lets go have fun!" he says like a five year old in a candy shop. does having sex hurt the baby?
"i don't really want to. my stomach hurts." i say with a puppy dog face.
"im letting you stay here! for free! you owe me. now get on your knees."

Notes

okay you guys can hate me now for not updating in 6 months. soooo sorry!!
title credit: jenny: nothing more