You said it would be alright

"Swinging in the backyard, pull up in your fast ca-" I turn off my phone and just lay in bed and think about what will happen today.My name is Lucinda Fuentes I just turned 17 years old, it's May 1st 2011 and I'm now an orphan.Yes an orphan.How could it even come to this, I knew my mom would eventually pass away some day but I never thought this soon.

Before I could even get up I start crying.Great, now I have a wet spot on my bed.I hate how weak I am.Why couldn't I just hate her, it would make this a whole lot easier.I get up and take a shower and get a fresh pair of clothes.When I'm going through my underwear drawer I feel my hands over a little wood box and stay there for a while, debating rather if I take it in the bathroom with me.I quickly grab it and sit on the floor of my bathroom.No this is such a bad idea, I shouldn't even be doing this.I pull the towel away from my legs.i graze the cuts from the past 3 years with my fingers and open the little box.I didn't even realize I was crying until I started to feel the water rushing down my face.I shakily grab the razor and drag it across my upper thigh.After that I immediately regret even doing it, it helps but I've been clean for a little over one month now, and I just threw that all away.

I mess up things so easily.I remember people always used to say I was just a mistake, I tried to not think about it but I do have it carved along my thigh, so it must be real.I'm just a mistake, a burden to the world.

Before I could continue I hear my aunt calling me from downstairs.I quickly wipe my cuts and put on my clothes and walk downstairs.I see her sitting down on the couch and she gestures for me to sit down.I sit down and look at her weirdly because 1. She has her suitcases set out 2. I don't like my aunty 3. We weren't leaving until next week.

"Luce, I know you were supposed to live with me until you were old enough to move out, but plans changed, I can't look after 7 kids-" I cut her off before she can say anything else "Who's going to look after me then" I say wanting to know "your-" before she can say anything the door flys open, great the two golden boys."Hey Luce!" Mike says coming to hug me, Vic says hey and hugs me."Wait you never told me Vic and Mike were taking me in" I say turning toward my aunt but she's already putting on her shoes."I'm sorry Luce, it was last minute" she says walking out the door.Rude much, she didn't even say goodbye, not that I'm complaining.

I jump on the couch, I'm gonna miss this couch.I think rolling around on it."Weirdo" I hear Mike say behind me.I fake a smile as best as I can and just lay there.I haven't seen them since the funeral.I wonder if Mike is still the retard I remember him as."Well Me and Vic decided we would leave as soon as possible from here" Mike says looking around."I guess" I say "So you guys still makin' music" I say turning around facing them."Well duh" Vic says and I just smile back at him, and I don't mean a fake smile, a real genuine smile.
(Seven hours later)
That was such a workout.I finish packing up my xbox and games and then go to my guitar.I got this a while back, it's a Les Paul.In fact this was my very first electric guitar.I put it in its case and put it by the amp."You done yet?" Mike comes in my room."Just finished" I say looking up at him."Okay because we want to get out of here soon" he says grabbing some of my bags and walking downstairs.Wow, I wonder if they just don't like this house.I probably would of finished packing way sooner but I refused their help.I mean like, what if they found a blade I forgot was there?
After all my stuff is out in the trunk of their van I Mike comes and stands beside me."So, who's van?" I say looking at Mike "Vic's why?" He says looking at me "shotgun!" I say and me and Mike start running towards the passenger side."Aha!" I say holding on to the handle of the door.Vic finally comes out and unlocks the car and I jump in.Im guessing the new owners already have the key for the house?
I pull out my phone and put on some music and slowly drift off to sleep.

Notes

Hey so this is my first story.I hope whoever is reading this liked it.If I make any mistakes please correct me in the comments below.I should update some time this week.