Tony~

"Are you Ashleys family?" The doctor said looking at all of us.
"Yes!" Mike yelled from next to me..
"Im her boyfriend"
"Where is her mother?" The doctor said looking at me.
"I called her, she on a plane over here now" Vic said.
"Ill just wait till her mother gets here" The doctor said putting his clipboard closer to his chest.
"oh no.." Vic said from behind me.
"Why do i have to wait to see my girlfriend!" I yelled getting closer to the doctor.
He looked down and then looked back up at us. "Im sorry to say this but Ashley passed away moments ago"
"NO! LET ME SEE MY FUCKING GIRLFRIEND!" I was trying to walk passed the doctor but i was being held back.
"Sir please calm down"
"You want to fucking calm down when you wont fucking let me see her!" I was trying to get out of their hold.
"We got the bullet out and she was doing fine, but then she just stopped breathing-"
"FUCK YOU!" I yelled not letting him finish, i got out of their hold and punched the wall.
I snatched the keys Vic had in his hand and I ran down the hallway.
"TONY!" I heard yelling from behind me. I didnt care i couldnt be here. I ran out of the hospital and saw our tour managers truck parked right there. I got in and took off back to the buses. She cant be died, NO! Tears were just falling down my cheeks as i drove. I parked the car and ran to my bus, avoiding anyone who was still hanging around. I got on my bus, i grabbed the Whiskey that was on the counter and went into the bathroom and locked the door. I slid down the door and sat on the floor, i opened the bottle and took a drink.

Vic~
"TONY!" I yelled.
He just keep running down the hall and then disappeared. I ran my hand through my hair trying to process what the doctor said. No way shes dead. Tears running down my cheeks as i thought of her.
"I NEED TO LEAVE!" Mike was making his way down the hall.
I looked at everyone, all with tears running down their faces. We all walked down the hallway and out the hospital not saying a word. What could we say? I was hurt, im pretty sure everyone else was. I was really worried about Tony, he left a whole in the wall. Who know what hes going to do. We all squeezed in Breathless tour managers car and we head back to the buses. Hopefully Tony was there. When we got there, i saw the truck, Tony was here. Jake, Roger, and Jay all got of the car and headed to their bus. Mike got out and ran to our bus, so it was just me and Jaime walked back to the bus. I looked at Jaime, hes eyes were red and tears were still going down his face.
"Hows my girl?" Austin said with Alan next to him, they had stopped us.
Jaime didnt seem to want to talk and keep walking, leaving me there to tell them the bad news. Just thinking about it made my tears water up.
"No shes not"
Alan shook his head, i could tell he wanted to cry. He already knew what i was gonna say next. But Austin, it looked like he was trying not to think that way.
"are they still operating or something" Austin has so much hope in his eyes.
That killed me, i started crying. "No man, shes gone"
He looked at me and then to the floor. When he looked back up he had tears coming down his face. He ran his hand through his hair and then ran off to his bus. Alan looked me.
"Wheres Tony?"
"I think his on the bus" I was so hoping he was on here.
"Tell me im sorry for his loss, it hurts me so much man, i was just talking to her yesterday-" he shook his head and then headed to his bus.
I wiped the tears off my face and proceed on ward to my bus. But Kellin stopped me in my tracks.
"Good, you guys havent left let, I wanna go see Ashley"
Ugh, i hate giving out the bad news, i didnt wanna see how kellin was gonna react to this. He was close to Ashley.
"We just came from the hospital"
"Oh, how is she? is the guys still with her?" Just like Austin, Kellin had alot of hope in his eyes.
"um no, shes gone man"
He looked at me and shook his head in disbelief. "But.." He had tears coming down his face.
"I know, i cant believe it either man"
"Hows Tony taking it?"
"Not good"
Kellin looked down, "Ill be back, i gotta go tell the guys, theyre worried sicked. Its gonna kill them"
I nodded and he walked away. I got to my bus and went in. Jaime was sitting on the couch with his face buried in his hands. As i walked passed the bunks, i saw Mike in his with his pillow of her head. I went to the bathroom and the door was locked. Tony was in here.
"Tony?" I knocked on the door.
"GO THE FUCK AWAY!" He yelled from behind the door.
"Lets talk about this?" even though i had no idea what id say.
"I DONT WANNA TALK ABOUT IT"
I headed back to lounge area and leaned against the wall and slid down to floor. I started remembering everything me and Ashley did.

"Come Vic" Ashley said from the top of the tree.
"How the hell did you get up there?" I said from the bottom.
"Magic" She winked at me with a huge smile on her face.

I shook the memory away as tears keeping going down my face. I couldnt stop thinking about her, the person i considered a sister.

She sat on the floor of my living room with her acoustic guitar in her hands.
"Vic could you sing please" she did puppy eyes at me.
"No, i wanna hear you sing"
She laughed and started playing her guitar. "This ones for you" and she started to sing.

I don't really know just where to start
It's harder when we're standing miles apart
If I could dream I'd paint a scene
But there is too much noise
When I can't sleep I need to hear your voice

Would you sing to me
Would you sing to me
‘cause I can feel a part of me starting to break
And when you are away from me it's harder to breathe

I don't really know just where you are
It's harder when I'm here and I'm all alone
If I could sleep, it's you and me
This distance keeps me up
Come set me free I need to feel your touch

Would you sing to me
Would you sing to me
‘cause I can feel a part of me starting to break
And when you are away from me it's harder to breathe

Don't wake me up (when I can't sleep)
I really can't get enough (I need to hear your voice)

Would you sing to me
Would you sing to me
‘cause I can feel a part of me starting to break
And when you are away from me it's harder to breathe

She had such a beautiful voice, i could hear it now. Then someone walked on to the bus snapping me out of my memory.
I looked up to see Alex and Jack standing there.
"Hey did you guys go see Ashley yet?" Alex said.
"How is she?" Jack said.
I completely forgot about how close Ashley was to alot of people, especially them. Fuck! I didnt want to tell them. But just as i was going to say something Jaime spoke.
"She gone" Its like he knew i didnt wanna tell them.
"What do you mean?" Alex said with his eyes started to tear up.
"Shes dead, gone, never coming back" Jaime said not once looking up at them.
Jack keep his eyes to the floor as he took a seat next to Jaime. Alex leaned his head against the wall and then slammed his hand on it. He took a seat across from Jaime and buried his face in his hands.
"Hows my bestfriend? Did you guys go see her?" Ben said as he walked in.
Mike slipped out of his bunk, his eyes were really red and his hair was a mess.
"Our bestfriend is gone"
"No, dont fuckin joke around with me like that" Ben said.
"WHY THE FUCK WOULD I JOKE ABOUT IT! I JUST LOST MY BEST FRIEND, IM SO DONE" Mike yelled and started punching the wall.
Ben kicked the wall next to him. "I didnt even get to tell her-" he didnt finish his sentence. "IF I FIND OUT WHO KILLED HER IM GOING TO KILL THEM" He yelled before storming off the bus.
Mike leaned against the wall and stood looking at the floor. I hated seeing everyone like this.
"Please tell me this isnt true"
I turned to see Jenna standing there, her eyes tearing up.
"Its true" Alex said not looking at her.
She sat between Jack and Jaime and starting crying on Jaimes shoulder. He put his arm around her and she cried into his chest. I put my knees against my chest and leaned my head against them as tears rolled down my face.

Tony~
I could hear a people on the other side of the door. I couldnt make out what they were saying. And honestly i didnt care. I got up from the floor and looked into the mirror. My shirt and arms were covered in Ashleys blood.

"Well your not gonna lose me, i promise. I love you too much to go anywhere"

"i dont know, have a bad feeling about today" she said to me.
I moved her hair out of her face, "Everythings gonna be okay, i promise"

I shook my head. We both didnt keep our promises. I punched the mirror and watched as the glass fell into the sink. I opened the cabinet and saw Mikes pills there. It was half full, i opened it and poured them all in my hand. Im nothing without her, i need her, so why not join her. I throw the empty bottle on the floor and started at the pills in my hand. Then my phone started to ring.

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