How can i love myself when my heart goes out to you? (kellic)

Oh my god! Jaime and Mike are together, Jaime, Kasey and Tony are officially moved to America, im with Kellin! So much has happened in these past two weeks. My life was finally looking up. I told Kellin about what i used to do, what i tried to do and he said he understands and if i ever feel like that again to go to him not my razor blade. He is honestly the love of my life. How he didnt already have a boyfriend before he moved to my school is beyond me and i will protect him with my heart and with my life. He is amazing. He is so chilled about everything. God knows how i ended up with him but i hope it stays like this forever. Me and Kells have been staying at each others that often that i cant sleep without him now, he comforts me. Mike moved into the house with Jaime, Tony and Kasey and me and Kells are thinking about moving in together. You know since there is less than 50m from my house to his. We were thinking he could move in with me and my family. My life was awesome now, to be honest i dont think that anything could stop me from being happy apart from if i lost Kellin and that aint happening anytime soon. Kellins song writing made me think. What if i wrote a few songs? I didnt have a reason not to so i tried writing a song and i called it king for a day. I wrote it so me and Kells could sing it together though. I always used to dream of being in a band. It would be my perfect life. Me in a band with my best friends and having Kellin as a boyfriend. Anyone would be stupid to turn a life like that down. I still dont believe that anyone could hurt my Kellin. Why? Your own son. It just wasnt right, his dad should be arrested and i hate thinking about it. My Kellin being hit by his own father. I look up to my father so much but if he hit me i dont have an idea of what i would do. Im just glad for Kellin that he doesnt have to live with a monster anymore. His mum seems happy too. I was just laid in Kellins bed after spending the night with my baby thinking about the past few weeks.
"Morning sleeping beauty" Kellin smiled jumping on the bed next to me. He leaned down and kissed me then jumped back up exitedly. He was really hyper today, in face he has been for the past couple of days.
"How are you Kellybear?" I smiled.
"I am very good how about you?" He smiled.
"Im cool" I laughed.
"My mum made us poptarts!" He yelled pulling the sheets off me.
"Ahh the light! It burns" I laughed.
"Wait, what flavour poptarts?" I asked.
"Cupcake" Kellin smiled.
"Why didnt you say?" I laughed standing up and kissing Kellin before racing him downstairs.
"Morning sleepy head" Kellins mum laughed.
"Morning" I laughed. She gave us our poptarts and we dug in. Everything i thought of last night was true. I had the best life ever. After you have had really bad depression and recovered life just seems to good to waste. Kellin pulled me out of my depression and to him i owed everything.
"So Vic" Kellins mum started.
"Yeah?" I asked finishing my poptart.
"Would you like to move in here with Kellin?" She asked. Kellin sat next to me obviously nervous for an answer.
"Yes! You dont mind do you?" I asked.
"No not at all" She smiled. Kellin jumped up.
"Lets go tell your mum and you can get your clothes and stuff" Kellin smiled. I laughed and stood up getting dragged out the front door in my pj's. Kellin knocked on the door and waited for my mum to open it.
"Hey boys" She smiled opening the door.
"Hello, can Vic move in with me? Pleaseeeeeeeeeee" Kellin said quickily. My mama laughed and nodded her head.
"Ill only be next door" I smiled. I ran upstairs and threw all my clothes into a small suit case then grabbed my guitar and laptop. Today was the best day of my life, yet.

Notes

You know what? Screw boys theyre assholes, not boys in bands just boys at school. I love this chapter, it took me a while to write but it is basically just all of Vics feelings crushed into one chapter. Just explaining about his past and how awesome life is now :D thankyou if you are still reading xD