Angel

Well, the day after that party at Tony and Rose's it the day of our baby check up appointment. We were giving terrible news at that appointment. The baby not kicking was the first sign that she died during the night. My little Amy Marie never got to meet us, she died in the womb. Yeah, of course we were both devastated but can't let something keep you down. We can always try again, it's not the end of the world. We still haven't gotten married, we had a few problems during this time but I don't wanna lose her so we never broke up and just never got married but we are still engaged.

I looked at my beautiful fiancée, she was packing for tour and looked so frail and weak which made me frown a little. "Love, I am making you a big meal, you are going to eat it and you're going to let me make you look healthy again. Then I will show you how much I love you and want things to be back to how they were." I said wrapping my arms around her small waist, I hated that I could feel and see practically every bone in her body.

"Do I have a say in any of this?" She asked quietly and sighing some.

"Only in how much you let me love you." I said kissing her cheek then heading to the kitchen I got out two big steaks and walked outside.

*Tris's P.O.V*
I was packing and watching astonished as Jaime walked away. I knew how unhealthy I was and I definitely looked it. After losing my baby, I just shut down. First I just reacted by drinking any alcoholic beverage I could get my hands on at any time. After Jaime made that stop by keeping me in the house and keeping alcohol out, I stopped eating and all day I'd just sleep and shower just wishing that I'd wake up to find this was all just a horrible dream.

That of course never happened, I stopped talking to every single person in my life...even Jaime. I completely pushed Jaime away and I almost left him but I decided I shouldn't do that because it's not his fault. So I stayed with him, nothing intimate though. He got me to slowly start eating but when I didn't want to eat I made sure I quickly vomited. I know that shows I have an eating disorder but I just kept telling myself that I was fine and nothing was wrong. Jaime ended up figuring out about the eating disorder and said that he can handle me not eating every now and then but but he doesn't want me vomiting after every meal.

He started watching me closely then and that was only a week ago, he watches me as and after I eat it's kind of awkward. I finished packed just as Jaime walked in and picked me up. "Food's done and you're going to hate me but love it." He said smiling and carrying me downstairs and putting me down beside the table. He made steak knowing it's my favorite. As a side he made mashed potatoes and gravy, he sat me down and we both started to eat. I knew I needed to eat I just didn't want to even if I loved steak. When we were done, Jaime sat me on the counter and washed our dishes.

"Will you let me kiss you?" He asked, we hadn't kissed in a year and a half. When I stopped drinking that's when I started pushing everyone away, that's also when I stopped being intimate with Jaime. It was time to try to get back to normal, so without saying anything I quickly leaned forward and crashed my lips against his. I don't know how I went so long without kissing him, once the kiss was over I got off the counter and wrapped my arms around his neck staring into his eyes smiling.

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