Angel

After leaving Mitch at the hospital and got my stuff, we headed to the next show in San Antonio, Texas. I was laying in one of the bunks asleep when Tony woke me up. "Rose, how long has it been since you last had food? Are you hungry at all?"
"Ummm...." I thought about it for a minute and realized I hadn't had anything to eat since Thursday, and it's Sunday. "Not too long, I'm not hungry at all" I finally said and my stomach growled in protest contradicting me, Tony didn't look convinced at all.
"Your stomach is growling, we're stopping because you need to eat even if you say you aren't hungry but i know you are." His voice was stern with me and it caused me to flinch, when Mitch's voice would get stern with me he'd hit me afterwards but he would actually only get stern with me if i ate every day. I don't know how many people would say i was actually living while i was with him but he considered it living even by calling me fat so much to keep me from eating much.
"Fine, just help me get out of this bunk" I paused not wanting the pain to rise up again, "Please." I added to sound nicer than i felt. Tony softly grabbed my arm closest to him and put it around his shoulder then picked me up like a groom would with his bride. He walked to the couch in the lounge of the bus, instead of putting me down like i thought, he sat down with me in his lap.
"You know, you're really beautiful, you shouldn't mess with your body the way you are." Tony said staring in my eyes and i looked away getting upset.
"It's the only way I've been able to live! Do you know how hard it is to stay strong, eat and just be happy when all guys want with you is your body? When you're beaten and brought down everyday by the people who are supposed to lift you up and help you be happy, and being called emo, stupid and a whore all day everyday? It hurts, it could be worse but it still hurts!" I don't know what ticked me off but I was trying to keep my voice low.
"Darling, you'll be okay." Vic said walking to where me and Tony were, he obviously heard me bitching at Tony. "I struggled with self-harm, but darling guess what? I overcame it, instead of turning to cutting, I turned to music, then i found out my brother, Mike, he looked up to me and I needed to change for him. Snap rubber bands on your wrist, scream, start writing, hell i don't care what just don't cut. You need to eat, sleep and stop beating yourself up about things" Vic was explaining to me and by his last word I was crying.
"I'll help you, but first you need food." Jaime said walking up and standing next to Vic.
"I think what Jaime means, is we ALL will help you, after all you are going to be staying with us for a long time." Mike said walking in standing on the other side of Vic, Tony had been trying to wipe away my tears the whole time but I got up and walked to the bathroom. Looking in the mirror, I didn't see much that resembled me, this girl in the mirror had my long hair how i wanted to dye it. Natural blonde on top and dyed black underneath. She had my blue eyes but she was happy, no acne, not even wearing make up. Lifting up my wrists in the mirror there were barely shown scars on my wrists.
Someone knocked on the bathroom door, that's when I knew someone was trying to show me something. Only in the mirror did Tony show up, kissing my cheek and wrapping his arms around my waist. After the image in the mirror disappeared and I saw how I really looked, I fell back as I fainted.

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