I'm Crying Underwater (Sequel to I Can't See That You Truly Love Me)
Permanently Yours
Paris POV:
Ashton held my hand tightly, and pulled me in close. I laughed lightly, but the walls of the tunnel made it seem a lot louder.
"Ashton, it's okay! You gotta relax honey." I assured him. He looked down at me, and even in the dim light I could see the brightness of his eyes.
"I just don't want anything to happen." He smiled softly, and relaxed his grip. I was mesmerised by his jade green eyes, and was at loss of breath.
"Nothing is going... To happen." I breathed, snapping back into reality. He ducked down and kissed my cheek. He drew back slowly and I grabbed his arm to stop him. He looked into my eyes, and I the same. I leant in and kissed his lips.
It probably wasn't the best time to make out, but I needed something to take my mind away for what we were getting ourselves into.
Ashton smiled through the kiss, and cupped my face. I drew back and heard Ashton groan. He closed his eyes and shook his head, bringing my lips back to his.
"No." He breathed through another kiss. I didn't hesitate to kiss him again. I parted my lips, allowing his tongue to slip in slowly. As our tongues worked with each others' Ashton lifted me up. I let out a small breath and wrapped my legs around his waist.
He held my body and quickly moved forward. I suddenly felt my back hit the tunnel wall and I gasped lightly. Ashton removed his lips from mine, and placed them on my neck.
"You're doing this now?" I groaned, Ashton still nipping at my neck.
He laughed, and his hot breath tickled my neck, making me melt. He leaned into me harder, and I breathed out, causing him to lean in further. I ran my fingers through his hair, and held the back of his neck. Ashton found his way back to my lips, and crashed his into mine. His hands quickly found their way to my boobs and I grabbed his left wrist.
"Ashton.." I started, trying to break from the kiss, "Ashton.. We don't have time." He slowly drew back and looked at me. Disappointment filled his eyes.
"If we get through this, we are definitely going to make time." He smiled and I kissed his nose. He carefully placed me down and turned his back to me. He bent his knees slightly and I scrunched up my face.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
"Come on, hop on my back." Butterfly's quickly filled my stomach.
"A piggy back ride?" I asked, trying to hide my excitement. I put my hands on his shoulder and jumped.
Ashton sighed lightly and held onto my legs. I wrapped them around his waist and placed my chin on his shoulder. I smiled widely. He started to walk.
Ashton's POV:
I never realised just how light Paris was. Every couple of seconds she asked me if she was too heavy. I finally told her that I would let her know when she was.
"It was brave of you to tell them." I piped up. Paris was falling off my back, and I quickly hoisted her back up.
"what?" She asked.
"About you, your self harm. That was brave, I don't think I would've been able to tell anybody.." I answered truthfully.
Paris really was brave, I was always proud of her. She didn't answer, and I felt my heart drop. I hoisted her up again, but only to get her attention. She groaned, and I laughed.
"Hey! I'm talking to you.." I teased, and heard a small giggle escape her mouth. I smiled, and bit my lip. Her giggle made my stomach flip.
"I didn't really plan it, it sort of just dribbled out and I couldn't stop." She sighed, and rested her cheek against my shoulder.
"I'm surprised you even told me." I muttered.
"What do you mean?" She asked. I didn't answer.
"Ashton.." I breathed in deeply.
"I mean, why did you, out of all the people, let me in? Why did you hand me all of your secrets and all of your weaknesses, knowing that I could take them and destroy you?" I looked down. I process everything too much in my brain, which doesn't really help in any situation.
"Because I trust you. i know that you wouldn't ever try to destroy me..." Paris answered back. A small smile spread across my face.
"That's one thing I know I can't mess up.." i took a deep breath in again, and let it out. My heart started to pound out of my chest.
Was I just about to confess this? I asked myself.
"Paris?" My voice cracked.
"Yes?"
"I love you." I felt Paris tense up.
"What?" She breathed shortly. I swallowed hard.
"I love you." I repeated.
"You're an idiot." She whispered. I bit my lip.
"Why?" I asked defensively.
"You're in love with a girl who is in love with the very thought of dying." She replied. My heart sank as I heard her speak.
"Don't say that." I muttered, tightening my grip on her legs.
"It's true. I'm only going to bring you pain and sadness." I could hear her voice break, and I knew she was about to cry.
I placed her back down and turned to face her.
"Don't be daft! Ever since the first day I met you, all you have brought me is joy and love. You are the first thought that enters my mind when I think about happiness. I fell in love with you, not exactly right away, but pretty damn close to that. Everything about you brings me comfort. You are all I think about and now I am so grateful to call you mine. You deserve so much and I am prepared to give that. Nobody deserves to be alone, and I am so fricking glad that I have you." I pulled her in for a hug, and heard her cry. I held onto her tightly, and rubbed her back gently. I kissed her head, and felt her sob.
"I love you too." She whispered, and I began to tear up. This moment was perfect, and I wanted to hold her like this forever.
"This is all too lovely.." A sarcastic tone echoed in the tunnel.
I shot my head up and peered into the dim light. A dark figure slowly came into view, and Paris drew back.
"Ashton, I'm glad you decided to come." Tarren exclaimed lightly. I tensed up, and looked at him with hatred pouring onto my face. Tarren smiled, and looked at Paris.
"Hello, darling."
"Piss off." She spat. Tarren took a step back.
"You're sister was a lot nicer." He mumbled. My face grew harder.
"What do you want us for?" I growled. Tarrens' mile quickly appeared.
"All for show and tell, Ashton Clive.."
"What?" Paris asked. Tarren stepped forward.
"All for show and tell..."
Ashton held my hand tightly, and pulled me in close. I laughed lightly, but the walls of the tunnel made it seem a lot louder.
"Ashton, it's okay! You gotta relax honey." I assured him. He looked down at me, and even in the dim light I could see the brightness of his eyes.
"I just don't want anything to happen." He smiled softly, and relaxed his grip. I was mesmerised by his jade green eyes, and was at loss of breath.
"Nothing is going... To happen." I breathed, snapping back into reality. He ducked down and kissed my cheek. He drew back slowly and I grabbed his arm to stop him. He looked into my eyes, and I the same. I leant in and kissed his lips.
It probably wasn't the best time to make out, but I needed something to take my mind away for what we were getting ourselves into.
Ashton smiled through the kiss, and cupped my face. I drew back and heard Ashton groan. He closed his eyes and shook his head, bringing my lips back to his.
"No." He breathed through another kiss. I didn't hesitate to kiss him again. I parted my lips, allowing his tongue to slip in slowly. As our tongues worked with each others' Ashton lifted me up. I let out a small breath and wrapped my legs around his waist.
He held my body and quickly moved forward. I suddenly felt my back hit the tunnel wall and I gasped lightly. Ashton removed his lips from mine, and placed them on my neck.
"You're doing this now?" I groaned, Ashton still nipping at my neck.
He laughed, and his hot breath tickled my neck, making me melt. He leaned into me harder, and I breathed out, causing him to lean in further. I ran my fingers through his hair, and held the back of his neck. Ashton found his way back to my lips, and crashed his into mine. His hands quickly found their way to my boobs and I grabbed his left wrist.
"Ashton.." I started, trying to break from the kiss, "Ashton.. We don't have time." He slowly drew back and looked at me. Disappointment filled his eyes.
"If we get through this, we are definitely going to make time." He smiled and I kissed his nose. He carefully placed me down and turned his back to me. He bent his knees slightly and I scrunched up my face.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
"Come on, hop on my back." Butterfly's quickly filled my stomach.
"A piggy back ride?" I asked, trying to hide my excitement. I put my hands on his shoulder and jumped.
Ashton sighed lightly and held onto my legs. I wrapped them around his waist and placed my chin on his shoulder. I smiled widely. He started to walk.
Ashton's POV:
I never realised just how light Paris was. Every couple of seconds she asked me if she was too heavy. I finally told her that I would let her know when she was.
"It was brave of you to tell them." I piped up. Paris was falling off my back, and I quickly hoisted her back up.
"what?" She asked.
"About you, your self harm. That was brave, I don't think I would've been able to tell anybody.." I answered truthfully.
Paris really was brave, I was always proud of her. She didn't answer, and I felt my heart drop. I hoisted her up again, but only to get her attention. She groaned, and I laughed.
"Hey! I'm talking to you.." I teased, and heard a small giggle escape her mouth. I smiled, and bit my lip. Her giggle made my stomach flip.
"I didn't really plan it, it sort of just dribbled out and I couldn't stop." She sighed, and rested her cheek against my shoulder.
"I'm surprised you even told me." I muttered.
"What do you mean?" She asked. I didn't answer.
"Ashton.." I breathed in deeply.
"I mean, why did you, out of all the people, let me in? Why did you hand me all of your secrets and all of your weaknesses, knowing that I could take them and destroy you?" I looked down. I process everything too much in my brain, which doesn't really help in any situation.
"Because I trust you. i know that you wouldn't ever try to destroy me..." Paris answered back. A small smile spread across my face.
"That's one thing I know I can't mess up.." i took a deep breath in again, and let it out. My heart started to pound out of my chest.
Was I just about to confess this? I asked myself.
"Paris?" My voice cracked.
"Yes?"
"I love you." I felt Paris tense up.
"What?" She breathed shortly. I swallowed hard.
"I love you." I repeated.
"You're an idiot." She whispered. I bit my lip.
"Why?" I asked defensively.
"You're in love with a girl who is in love with the very thought of dying." She replied. My heart sank as I heard her speak.
"Don't say that." I muttered, tightening my grip on her legs.
"It's true. I'm only going to bring you pain and sadness." I could hear her voice break, and I knew she was about to cry.
I placed her back down and turned to face her.
"Don't be daft! Ever since the first day I met you, all you have brought me is joy and love. You are the first thought that enters my mind when I think about happiness. I fell in love with you, not exactly right away, but pretty damn close to that. Everything about you brings me comfort. You are all I think about and now I am so grateful to call you mine. You deserve so much and I am prepared to give that. Nobody deserves to be alone, and I am so fricking glad that I have you." I pulled her in for a hug, and heard her cry. I held onto her tightly, and rubbed her back gently. I kissed her head, and felt her sob.
"I love you too." She whispered, and I began to tear up. This moment was perfect, and I wanted to hold her like this forever.
"This is all too lovely.." A sarcastic tone echoed in the tunnel.
I shot my head up and peered into the dim light. A dark figure slowly came into view, and Paris drew back.
"Ashton, I'm glad you decided to come." Tarren exclaimed lightly. I tensed up, and looked at him with hatred pouring onto my face. Tarren smiled, and looked at Paris.
"Hello, darling."
"Piss off." She spat. Tarren took a step back.
"You're sister was a lot nicer." He mumbled. My face grew harder.
"What do you want us for?" I growled. Tarrens' mile quickly appeared.
"All for show and tell, Ashton Clive.."
"What?" Paris asked. Tarren stepped forward.
"All for show and tell..."
Notes
Show and tellthis doesnt make sense im sorry
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12/5/13