Unseen Love
The new and unimproved ME
“Hey babe!" I squirmed in my bed rapping and pulling the covers over my body trying to hide my smile for Tori. I could tell she was hungry otherwise she wouldn't come wake me up.
"GOODMORNING SWEET PEA!" I yelled scaring Tori. I heard her whelp a little then let out a loud laugh.
It has been 2 years since I was in the hospital and I have had to learn how to depend on Tori for, literally, everything. She has become more of a mother to me and I feel bad because she had to put her life on hold to help me. I was so grateful for her and told her every day.
"Tina... You okay..? What’s wrong?” Tori questioned pulling me out of my thoughts. I couldn't help but smile at how much her presents brings me joy.
"I am hungry. Can you pick out an outfit for me while I go shower? I want to wear skinnies, vans, and a band tank. Please mommy!" I squealed with excitement. Tori and I were morning people so we were always having music on so we can sing and dance around.
"Sure thing daughter! What band shall we listen to on this fine morning?! She asked. I didn't have to reply because it was the same music every morning.
Of Mice& Men has been the only thing, besides Tor, to help me push through these last 2 years. This One's For You came on and I couldn't help but scream along with Austin. I loved the way he screamed. It seemed like he had just as much anger as I do. I loved a lot of bands Of Mice I could relate to more than any other band.
As I got into the shower I stood there letting the hot water wash off all of my problems and nightmares I had the night before. I still have dreams of Connor beating or yelling at me every now and then. I never told Victoria because I didn't like her to worry more than she had too. Plus, I knew I was safe. The judge ordered a restraining on his so he can't come within 300 yards of me or he will get jail time. I guess Connor realized I wasn't worth the jail time because I haven't from him since the day in court, "Have a nice life you stupid whore", was the last thing he said to me.
I do suffer from severe depression, but I take anti-depressants that make me happy and normal. Before Connor made me blind, I was so care free. I loved my life I was so wild and free spirited. I never followed the rules and I was always causing trouble.
Now that I am blind I have to live off of Victoria or anyone else who is around at that moment. I know it is really depressing, that is why I take meds. I have actually become more accepting of the matter the past few months. So much so that the doctors lowered my dosage amount. They say that maybe at one point I will be able to stop taking them all together. I have been working really hard to get better so that Tori doesn't have to spend her money of my medication. It cost too much and, well, since I can’t work it’s all up to Tori.
"Hey Teen, you almost ready? I am fucking starving and ready to go!" I jumped as she yelled through the door. She heard because I heard her begin to laugh and as if I was okay.
"Yes bitch! I am fine! I am coming out now to dry off. Where do you want to go eat? I was thinking Ihop?! I want pancakies!" I exclaimed like a little 5 year old.
"I was actually go to suggest Ihop because I want a funny face! haha! Here I picked out a Pierce The Veil sweater. It is kind of chilly outside." I sighed. I really wanted to wear a tank but I knew I wouldn't want to wear a jacket. She handed me the clothes as I put them on. I left my hair natural. Tori applied very little make up, a little mascara and foundation. Soon enough we were on our way the door.
~At IHOP~
"Are you ready for some fucking good ass pancakes?!" Tori screaming letting me know that we had arrived to Ihop. She was so settle I loved it!
"Hell Yeah Fucking Right!! My stomach has been growling the whole car ride." As I finished I heard Tori's door opened then I felt mine open. I reached my hand out so that she could grab it and help me. I didn't like using my long cane, or as I like to call it my blind stick. When I was with Tor I used her as my blind stick.
"I know! I was starting to think I needed to take you to the hospital. I thought your stomach grew a mind of its own and was beginning to you from the inside out!" Tori said while laughing. I pinched her arm and started laughing as we were making our way to the doors.
Tori halted in her tracks making me jerk back a little. I almost fell but I caught myself. I was about to say something when I barely heard Tor whisper "Teen..."
I felt her grip get harder on my hand and forearm. It started to hurt so I tried to release my arm from her death grip. "TORI! My fucking arm!"
"Val...he's here."
"GOODMORNING SWEET PEA!" I yelled scaring Tori. I heard her whelp a little then let out a loud laugh.
It has been 2 years since I was in the hospital and I have had to learn how to depend on Tori for, literally, everything. She has become more of a mother to me and I feel bad because she had to put her life on hold to help me. I was so grateful for her and told her every day.
"Tina... You okay..? What’s wrong?” Tori questioned pulling me out of my thoughts. I couldn't help but smile at how much her presents brings me joy.
"I am hungry. Can you pick out an outfit for me while I go shower? I want to wear skinnies, vans, and a band tank. Please mommy!" I squealed with excitement. Tori and I were morning people so we were always having music on so we can sing and dance around.
"Sure thing daughter! What band shall we listen to on this fine morning?! She asked. I didn't have to reply because it was the same music every morning.
Of Mice& Men has been the only thing, besides Tor, to help me push through these last 2 years. This One's For You came on and I couldn't help but scream along with Austin. I loved the way he screamed. It seemed like he had just as much anger as I do. I loved a lot of bands Of Mice I could relate to more than any other band.
As I got into the shower I stood there letting the hot water wash off all of my problems and nightmares I had the night before. I still have dreams of Connor beating or yelling at me every now and then. I never told Victoria because I didn't like her to worry more than she had too. Plus, I knew I was safe. The judge ordered a restraining on his so he can't come within 300 yards of me or he will get jail time. I guess Connor realized I wasn't worth the jail time because I haven't from him since the day in court, "Have a nice life you stupid whore", was the last thing he said to me.
I do suffer from severe depression, but I take anti-depressants that make me happy and normal. Before Connor made me blind, I was so care free. I loved my life I was so wild and free spirited. I never followed the rules and I was always causing trouble.
Now that I am blind I have to live off of Victoria or anyone else who is around at that moment. I know it is really depressing, that is why I take meds. I have actually become more accepting of the matter the past few months. So much so that the doctors lowered my dosage amount. They say that maybe at one point I will be able to stop taking them all together. I have been working really hard to get better so that Tori doesn't have to spend her money of my medication. It cost too much and, well, since I can’t work it’s all up to Tori.
"Hey Teen, you almost ready? I am fucking starving and ready to go!" I jumped as she yelled through the door. She heard because I heard her begin to laugh and as if I was okay.
"Yes bitch! I am fine! I am coming out now to dry off. Where do you want to go eat? I was thinking Ihop?! I want pancakies!" I exclaimed like a little 5 year old.
"I was actually go to suggest Ihop because I want a funny face! haha! Here I picked out a Pierce The Veil sweater. It is kind of chilly outside." I sighed. I really wanted to wear a tank but I knew I wouldn't want to wear a jacket. She handed me the clothes as I put them on. I left my hair natural. Tori applied very little make up, a little mascara and foundation. Soon enough we were on our way the door.
~At IHOP~
"Are you ready for some fucking good ass pancakes?!" Tori screaming letting me know that we had arrived to Ihop. She was so settle I loved it!
"Hell Yeah Fucking Right!! My stomach has been growling the whole car ride." As I finished I heard Tori's door opened then I felt mine open. I reached my hand out so that she could grab it and help me. I didn't like using my long cane, or as I like to call it my blind stick. When I was with Tor I used her as my blind stick.
"I know! I was starting to think I needed to take you to the hospital. I thought your stomach grew a mind of its own and was beginning to you from the inside out!" Tori said while laughing. I pinched her arm and started laughing as we were making our way to the doors.
Tori halted in her tracks making me jerk back a little. I almost fell but I caught myself. I was about to say something when I barely heard Tor whisper "Teen..."
I felt her grip get harder on my hand and forearm. It started to hurt so I tried to release my arm from her death grip. "TORI! My fucking arm!"
"Val...he's here."
Notes
Tina's Outfit: http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=104836349Tori's Outfit: http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=104837293
Heyy guys! Here is another chapter! So excited about writing my first story! I din't know how long It actually takes to put all your ideas together! Next update will be tonight! I hope you are excited as I am about knowing what happens next! :D
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11/11/14