It's been two weeks since I came home. Mum and dad ask what happened daily but I just can't bring myself to tell them the truth. If I do then it'll cause so much drama that I don't need. It was Christmas day, something I haven't really celebrated for the last two years. It was nice to get back to the way things should be. "Casey" I heard a pounding on my bedroom door. "Casey get up" I heard again.

"Shut up Matt" I mumbled from under my covers. It went silent for about 2 minutes then my bedroom door opened. "Oi, get out my room" I said loudly. I felt someone lie on my bed. They climbed under the covers. "Matt, get the fuck out" I said turning around.

I came face to face with a toothy grin. "Hello love" Oli grinned.

"Oli what the fuck are you doing here?" I asked with confusion on my face. "And who the fuck said you could come in my room and into my bed" I said.

"It's our tradition every year to go to one of the lads house for Christmas. This year since you are home we decided your house" Oli explained.

"Oh, right... it's a good thing I got you all presents" I said sitting up. I looked back at him and he had his hands behind his head.

"That's good then" he winked. I raised an eyebrow at him and shook my head. I turned my head and looked at my floor length mirror next to my bed.

"Holy shit, I look like I've been dragged through a bush" I suddenly felt self concious. I don't know why because Oli has seen me at much worse.

"Shut up, you look lovely. Now go get dressed so we can open presents" Oli rolled his eyes.

I turned to look at him. "Okay, I'll be back in a minute" I said standing up off of my bed. It was then I realised I was wearing really short shorts and a vest top. Olis eyes widened and he just stared at me. I quickly grabbed my covers and wrapped them around me.

"Don't be embarrassed love, you're sexy as hell" He winked. I walked over to my closet and pulled some clothes out. I threw my covers onto my bed and walked out to the bathroom quickly, I got changed into a pair of ripped skinny jeans and a baggy Paramore t-shirt. After I was ready I went back into my bedroom and brushed my hair a little and applied some make-up. Oli was still in my bed playing with his phone.

I put my stereo on and Paramore began playing softly. "Tell me where our time went and if it was time well spent" I sung softly. Oli sat up and looked over at me.

"You never sing infront of anyone, what's going on Casey, you alright there?" He asked with a smile.

I turned to him and shook my head. "Sorry, I'll stop then" I shrugged.

"No, you're really good" He smiled sincerely. "Anyway, I actually have something I wanted to ask you" He said softly.

"Okay, what is it?" I asked feeling a little nervous.

"Well in two weeks we're going on tour in America, we wanted to ask you to come with us and being our personal photographer" Oli said with a devilish grin.

My eyes widened. Okay I know this is big but I've always wanted to go to America. "Oli, are you kidden me?" I asked.

"No, I'm not. It was actually my idea that you came on the tour" He shrugged.

I couldn't hold back my excitement. I crawled over to him as fast as I could and attacked him with hugs. "Thank you, thank you, thank you" I repeated. He just giggled at my actions and hugged me back.

"It's no problem" He laughed.

I sat back on his lap and looked at him. Everything had gone silent and we just looked into each others eyes. "I'd love to come take pictures of you guys" I said slowly, not breaking eye contact.

"Good" He said without breaking our stare. I began to lean into him, our lips almost touching when Matt shouted on me.

"Casey, come on downstairs fuck sake!" Matt screamed. I closed my eyes and stood up.

"Come on" I said with defeat. He stood up with a sigh and pushed past me. I turned off the music and went down stairs. Oli had a sour face on and Matt looked confused.

"Present time" Matt N cheered. I went over to the tree and got my presents for everyone.

"Here you go guys" I said handing everyone their presents.

"Thank you Case" They all said. Everyone opened their presents and thanked me.

"I love these" Matt N said drumming his drumsticks off Lees arm. I got him custom drumsticks with his name on them and they glow up in the dark.

"Yeah Casey, he really fucking loves 'em" Lee moaned.

"Well I try to do the best for my boys" I smiled.

"We love you no matter what" Matt said pulling me in for a hug.

We all sat around talking about stuff when Oli decided to mention the American tour. "So I asked Casey about the tour" Oli spoke up.

Everyone looked at me. "I said yes guys" Everyone cheered. "I can't wait to go on tour, what's it like?" I asked.

"A bit mental" Matt shrugged.

"How famous are you guys?" I asked. "I have been a bit out of the loop" I laughed.

"We've been in Kerrang! a few times" Oli said.

"And on Scuzz and Kerrang! TV" Lee added.

"We're not massive but Suicide Season is getting really good responses" Matt N finished.

"Why isn't Curtis here?" Lee sighed.

"He's been off with us for awhile. I think he isn't happy with touring or something. I don't know" Matt shrugged.

"Well, it's fine. He'll loosen up hopefully" I smiled.

"Who wants to go for a walk until dinners ready?" I suggested.

"Yeah, it's snowy out so wrap up guys" My mum said walking into the living room.

"Thanks mum" I said standing up. We all got our coats, hats and scarfs on.

We went outside and it was freezing. I could barely feel my toes. We walked to the nearest play park and everyone ran to different areas. I went to the swing and sat down on my own. After a few minutes I began swinging forward, I looked behind me to see Oli standing behind me. He continued pushing me, back and forth.

"Where do you think you'll be in 5 years time?" I asked.

"Standing here pushing you on this fucking swing because I'll be frozen to the spot" He said with his teeth chattering.

"No I'm serious" I said.

"Maybe living in some warm country, super rich with five wives and a couple sports cars" He laughed.

"Wow, mature Oli" I rolled my eyes.

He stopped pushing me and walked around infront of me. "Why do you want to know?" He asked with a sly grin.

"I'm curious" I shrugged. He looked down at me and stared into my eyes.

"You just want me to say. "I'll be so in love with ya and we'll about to get married a pop a kid out" don't you" He laughed.

I rolled my eyes and shook my head. "Oli, since it's Christmas can you tell me the truth?" I aksed.

He squinted at me then nodded. "Since it's Christmas".

"That night you guys came to my flat, when you came on the bus... you hugged me and..." I said looking away. "You said "I love you". Why?" I looked up to his face.

The colour drained from his face and he cleared his throat. "Um, right oh. Well..." He began. He scratched the back of his head, nearly knocking his beanie hat off. "It was a tough night, I was drunk. You know I love ya man" He said quickly.

My heart sank a little. As if I was disappointed in his answer. "Oh, of course" I looked away quickly to shield the disappointment in my eyes.

"You alright?" He asked.

"Yeah of course I am, just wanted to hear you being all cheesy" I said sticking my tongue out.

"Bitch" He said pretending to be upset.

"Snowball fight" Lee jumped out of nowhere and began pelting us with snow.

Let's just say it was the best Christmas I've had in a long while.