London December 2006 "A new metalcore band called Bring Me the Horizon from Sheffield have just released their debut album Count Your Blessings. Watch out for these guys as they'll be making it big time in the new few months" I heard on a local rock radio. I looked over to the radio in my apartment and sighed. They really were making it big time. I shut off the radio and walked into my bedroom. Everything was a mess, I was a mess. When did it get like this. I turned 20 in June and I could think of was how much my life got screwed when I moved to London. I would do anything to go back to Sheffield. Then I remembered last year, Oli gave me that DVD. I kept it in a box under my bed so I went looking for it. Once I found it, I put it on and watched it. It got our favourite bit when I pulled my phone out and dialed his number, I had memorized it. It rung a few times until he answered. "Ello" His voice was thick. "Now, Bring Me that Horizon" I said softly, in time with the movie. "Casey, long time no speak darling, you alright?". He asked, suddenly sounding more awake. "No, Oli I'm not" I said, letting my walls finally fall down. "What's wrong?" He asked, his voice filled with concern. I couldn't tell him the truth so I went with a simpler version. "I miss home, I don't like London. It's horrible" I cried. "Hey, you went there to make it big time in photography, it's gonna be hard but you will get there" Oli consoled me. "No it's still horrible, I miss you all so much. I heard you guys just released an album?" I asked. "Yeah we did, we're actually going on tour soon" Oli beamed down the phone. "Fuck, that's big. I'm so proud of you guys" I smiled. The front door opened and I began to panic. "Sorry I uh goots go" I said quickly. "Who you talking to?" Jack asked. "Wait, who's that, Casey are you alright? What's wrong?" Oli asked down the phone. "Casey, I asked who the fuck you are talking to?" Jack shouted. "I'm sorry" I muttered then hung up with phone. "Who was it?" He asked again. "My brothers friend" I explained. "That one in the band?" He asked. I just nodded. "Thought I told you not to talk to him?" He shouted. "I'm sorry, I was just calling to wish him a happy birthday since I won't have a chance next week" I said quickly. "Not good enough" He shouted. He came up to me and I watched as his fist came close to my face and that's when it all went black. Skip forward to December 2008, London. (Last flashforward) I sat in the venue, close to tears. My life has been a wreck, nothing has gone right and my whole body ached. I haven't seen my family in over 3 years and I wouldn't be surprised if I never seen any of them again. I haven't heard much from my brother or the guys in over 2 years. The last time I spoke to any of them was that day I called Oli. They have tried to get in contact with me, even came to my apartment but Jack answered and told them I had moved months ago. They believed it, why wouldn't they but now I have no one but an abusive boyfriend. I just had to get through this show. One of the bands pulled out so a secret band had been chosen to fill in but no one knew who it was gonna be. I sat at the side of the stage waiting to see who it would be. Waiting for the next band, I guess the waiting is good. The longer I wait, the longer I stay away from that hell that I live in. I need this. The lights went down and I took my signal to go into the pit to get ready to take pictures. The intro began and then the band walked onstage. The singer went to the microphone and picked it up. "Come on London" He screamed into the microphone. My head felt dizzy because that voice was so familiar. I shook it off and the first song began. It sounded a lot like Pray For Plagues. I took pictures of the guitarist and then the bassist. They both liked to keep their hair over their faces, making my job difficult. I took a few more pictures of the vocalist until he fell to his knees and looked up to the ceiling. His face was so clear, I could see every detail. I stood there in shock. It was them. I just stood there in awe, Oli looked so much more mature. He didn't have snakebites anymore and he look thinner and taller. I took a few more pictures until the song ended. He looked down at me and then away, he didn't recognise me. I guess I looked different. "How the fuck you doing London?" He asked. There were some cheers from the crowd. "Great stuff, gonna play a few new tunes for you guys because we just released a new album not long ago, did ya get it?" More screams and cheers. "Fab" He laughed. He looked down at me again and smiled. Maybe he did recognise me... maybe. The show ended and I sat outside, waiting to get the courage to go home. Back to hell when the side door opened. "Shit" I muttered. I looked up to see Oli and Lee stumble out of the stagedoor. "Yorkshire, Yorkshire, Yorkashire" They both chanted. I watched them dance around and sing to themselves. They stumbled over to me and laughed. "Ayup, look at what we ave here. Wanna come for some fun love?" Oli slurred down at me. I looked up at him and he just winked. I stood up and looked into his eyes. "No Oli. I don't want some fun" I mumbled. Lee squinted his eyes at me and then it hit him "Casey?" He asked. I looked at him and nodded. "The fuck" He grabbed me and hugged me tightly. "Hold up... Casey. MATT, GET OUT HERE MATT!" Oli began shouting. He wrapped his arms around me and Lee, holding us tightly. I felt the tears begin to trickle down my face. The sidestage door opened and both Matts ran out. "What?" My brother shouted. Oli and Lee stood back to reveal me and Matts eyes widened. "Casey where have you been?" He asked frantically and engulfed me in a hug. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" I cried into my brothers arms. "Where were you?" Oli asked. I pulled back and wiped away my tears. "I can't tell you but I'm okay" I smiled. "Come on, you're coming with us" Lee said grabbing my arm and dragging me with them towards the tout buses. "Hold up, you have a tour bus?" I asked. "Told you we'd make it big time" Oli winked. They took me on a smaller tour bus and my heart sank, they were following their dreams and if I had of stayed in Sheffield I'd be here supporting them. "Wow, this is great guys. I'm happy for ya" I smiled, turning around. "Let's get wrecked" Matt N cheered. I decided tonight, I just didn't give a fuck and got wasted.