London May 2006 There was a knock at my door, I didn't wanna open my door up to see what could be on the other side but the banging on my door got so loud and unbareable that I just couldn't ignore it anymore. I got up off my couch and walked down the hallway until I got to my front door. I opened it to find 5 very drunk boys outside my door. "Caseeeeey" Matt slurred. "The fuck are you doing here?" I asked with confusion all over my face. I hadn't been home since I left, so this was the first time I seen my brother and his mates since I left home. "We just signed with a record label and are now about to record an album" Lee said stumbling into my apartment. "Oh, that's amazing" I grinned at them. It didn't matter though, they were too drunk to even realise. "Wait, how did you find this place?" I asked. "Mum gave me the address" Matt pushed past me. Matt N and Curtis Pushed by me also. Leaving me with a very drunk Oli. "Right love, what's up?" He slurred. "You're fucking wasted" I laughed. He shrugged and began taking his jacket off. I noticed he had a sleeve now. "What, when did you get that?!" I asked. He looked at his arm and giggled. "When you left we all got tattoos" He mumbled. I took his jacket off him and placed it on the coatrack. "Come on in then" I said. He walked in and nearly fell on the floor. "Do I get to share your bed with you" He turned to me and winked. I rolled my eyes and shook my head. I closed the door and leaned my head against it. So much for a quiet night in myself. I felt a pair of hands grab onto my hips and run up my sides. "Come on love, you know you want it. You have since Christmas" He whispered in my ear. I turned around and leaned my back against the door, his face was inches away from me. "No Oli, you didn't come here for that" I whispered. He raised his hand and stroked my face, making my eyes close in comfort. "No not just for that but when I heard it was London we had to go to, I couldn't contain myself" He grinned. "Well that's great then isn't it" I said looking away. "Come on, you know it's what you've always wanted" He whispered in my ear. His voice made me shiver, something I guess I've never really felt before due to him. "It's not gonna happen okay" I sighed. He stood back and frowned. "Why not, why did you kiss me at Chrismtas?" He asked with sadness in his voice. "I'm sorry Oli" I walked past him and into the livingroom. Lee was passed out on the couch, both Matts had found the kitchen and began cooking pizza. Curtis was sitting on the couch looking through the channels on TV. "Guys, I'm going to bed. I've got work tomorrow so keep the noise down please. See you in the morning" I said quietly then went to my bedroom. I closed the door then leaned on it, I slid down the door and wrapped my arms around my knees. I had to cover the cuts and the bruises. They couldn't see it, if they did they would ask questions and then get my parents involved. Matt would go mental and I just can't risk losing this job. Suddenly there was a knock at the door. I stood up quickly and opened it. Matt stood on the other side. "What's up Matty?" I asked. He walked in and grinned. "I've missed my lil munchkin" He said patting the top of my head. "Fuck off mate" I laughed. "I told ya I'm tired" I fake yawned. "Liar, come chat with us" He begged. "I have work very early tomorrow Matt, I'm sorry" I explained. He pouted and fake cried. "I don't know when I'm gonna see my lil sister again though" He said with sadness. "I'll come home soon" I promised. "You said that every month but never came. Why?" He asked with concern. "My work is more time consuming than I first thought but I'll take a holiday soon. I promise" I promised him. He bought it and decided to leave. I fucking hate lying to him. I know right now, I won't be home for a long time.