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A One Night Stand, Lingered To A Fling

The Blood On My Hands

September 2009

"Yo Case" Stephanie called into my room.

"Um, just a sec" I mumbled, standing up off my bed. I walked over to the door and answered it.

"What?" She leaned against the doorframe and looked into my room.

"We're going home for the weekend, why are you not up and ready?" She asked.

"I've been busy" I sighed. She looked towards me then to my bed.

"What have you been up to?" I tried to stand infront of her so she couldn't see into my room.

"Nothing" I folded my arms across my chest.

"Liar" She said pushing by me. She walked over to my bed.

"No Stephanie don-" I panicked. She picked up the box.

"Casey... what the hell?" She asked. I closed my eyes and cringed.

"Nothing, just forget it" I walked over and began putting things back in the box.

"Casey what is all this" She looked at me and tried to look into the box more.

"It looks like... did you collect things while you were with Oli?" She asked.

"No..." I was ashamed.

"Lemme see, I won't judge" She begged.

"No" I said sternly. She grabbed the box off me again and this time everything fell out all over my floor. She looked down at everything and the one thing that caught her eye was the last thing I ever wanted her to see. Her eyes widened and she bent down.

"Casey are you?" She said picking it up. I began freaking out. I sat down on my bed and began breathing deeply.

"No" I shook my head. She looked at it more closely.

"Are you sure because this says you've got a baby in that stomach" She looked at me with a raised eyebrow.

"No, I'm not seriously..." I whispered. She made a confused face.

"What, how?" She asked. My vision went a little watery.

"I had a miscarriage" I mumbled.

"Oh my God" She whispered and came over to me. She wrapped her arms around me and hugged me tightly.

"It's okay, I'm okay" I said wiping away my tears. She sat back and looked at me.

"Was it Olis?" She asked. I nodded slowly. "He doesn't know" I mumbled.

"When did this happen?" She asked.

"I found out 2 days before he came to stay and told me he cheated on me" I sighed.

"I know I drank when he was here and that was really stupid, I messed up but it's not like it matters now" I shrugged.

"You need to tell him" Stephanie said. "What, no" I shook my head.

"Why not? He deserves to know" She sighed. "I'll think about it" I said to shut her up. "Good, now can we go home please?" She begged. I nodded and she jumped off my bed.

"Hurry, we need to go soon if we don't wanna hit traffic".

"Yeah" I nodded. Once she left I packed up all the things into the box again. There was a lot of small novelty things from our time as a couple. It was more to remind myself that it wasn't shit, he did do some good in the relationship. I got my bag together and walked out of my room.

"Ready to go?" Stephanie asked. I nodded and we were on our way. The journey was long, boring and tiring as usual but we made it back to Sheffield before the traffic hit. I dropped Stephanie off at her parents house then headed to mum and dads. It was nice to pull up infront of their house and know I was home. I walked inside the house and heard a few voices from the livingroom. Walked into the livingroom and found Matt, Oli, Lee and Matt N playing xbox with their back to me.

"Mum can you make us some food please" Matt called out.

"I'm not your mum" I answered sternly. Matts head snapped round to look at me.

"Casey!" He jumped up and walked over to me. He hugged me tightly.

"What are you doing here? I'm so surprised" He beamed.

"Stephanie needed to come home for a friends wedding so I guess I might aswell come see you losers" I laughed.

"Great, come play xbox?" Lee asked.

"Yeah, um sure but Oli can I have a chat with you?" I asked. He looked up at me and nodded.

"Thanks" I smiled. We went upstairs to my bedroom. He sat down on my bed and sighed.

"How are you?" He asked. "I'm good, you?" I returned the question.

"Fab, I'm just fab" He nodded. "So um what did you wanna talk to me about?" He questioned. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.

"Okay so this is gonna be quite hard and I'm probably gonna get a little emtional right now but um. Back in April when you came home to my house I found something out that is pretty big but I didn't tell you because you confessed to cheating on me" I explained.

"Right" He looked confused.

"So yeah, I was pregnant..." I breathed out. His eyes widened and he looked like he had just seen a ghost.

"Wait what?" He choked out.

"I found out like two days before you came home but I didn't get the chance to tell you" I told him. He breathed out loudly and shook his head.

"What happened, you're clearly not 6 months pregnant" He nodded at my stomach. I turned away from him, mostly to hide the emotion.

"One night I woke up, there was horrible pains in my stomach. I was bleeding really badly, like everywhere. Stephanie was here and I was alone. I went to the hospital and found out I miscarried" I said with a shaky breath. I heard him stand up and walk over to me. He turned me around and wrapped his arm around me and hugged tightly.

"I'm sorry you went through that alone" He mumbled. I laid my head on his chest and took in his scent. It made me feel comfortable, I missed this.

"It's okay" I whispered. I looked up at him and he stared down at me.

"Thank you for telling me..." He said looking into my eyes. I stared at him and something came over me. I leaned in and kissed him quickly. It was like we were frozen in time. Our lips locked together hungry for more. I ran my fingers through his hair, tugging lightly. He moaned slightly at my actions, which only made me want him more. I pushed him back.

"No, this can't happen" I almost shouted.

"You kissed me" He frowned. He had a point.

"And it was wrong" I mumbled.

"It felt pretty right to me" He shrugged.

"I have a boyfriend Oli..." I crossed my arms across my chest. He raised an eyebrow.

"Josh?" He asked.

"Yes" I muttered.

"Oh" He walked back over to me. "Like it'll make a difference. You clearly can't resist me can you?" He grinned down at me. "It's okay... I won't tell if you don't" He winked. I looked at him thinking deeply... it was so wrong but so enticing. Dammit.

Notes

Comments

@Fangirl_Alert

Awh wow, thats a huge compliment thank you :)

@saradanks

This is just how they talk in sheffield.

@Colourfultears
Sorry I got very emotional at the end, wow this story was amazing, i need to read the sequals, it was like a real book, you should really start writing.

the grammar and word tense is really confusing

fix the grammar! but i love it so far