Sheffield, October 2005

"Casey, we're going to band practice" Matt said banging on my door.

"Fucking fantastic but why you telling me" I groaned.

"Thought you might wanna come?" He asked.

"No thanks, got a lot of work" I lied.

"Okay, well see you later" Matt said with defeat. I heard his footstep walk away from my room.

I finally climbed out from under my covers and stopped hiding. I looked at my arms and cringed at the sight of them. I promised myself that I wouldn't do it again but I let myself down. The blade had became my only friend.

The internship hadn't been what I first thought it would be. Mainly because I was working for a complete arsehole. My boss always made sexual innuendos at me. One night he made a move on me, nothing more than a simple gesture happened but the prospect of it still made me shiver. I hated him. The guys almost found out but I quickly changed the subject and have began avoiding them.

I held the blade in my hand and slowly made another cut acorss my arm, the blood seeped out and dripped down my wrist. My bedroom door suddenly opened and I threw the blade under my bed. I looked up to see Oli standing there with a strange look on his face. "What are you doing?" He asked.

"No-nothing, just catching up on some sleep" I lied. He furrowed his eyebrows and walked over to my bed. He sat down on the edge of my bed and smiled. I'm off the hook.

"Why don't you come and take pictures of my sexiness?" He winked. I rolled my eyes at him but secretly I was happy that he was joking around with me because right now I need it.

"I don't feel like breaking my camera lense" I rolled my eyes at him. He stuck his tongue out at me so I laughed.

He leaned over and pushed me playfully. I slipped off my bed and cried out when my arm smacked off my bedside cabinet. "Case... what the fuck" He said. I looked at his gaze and he had seen my arm. Fuck.

"Get out" I said standing up. I grabbed his arm and pulled him over to the door but he pulled out of my grip.

He closed the door then turned to face me. "Tell me what the hell is going on" I looked up at him with a frown.

"No" I mumbled.

"I ain't going until you do, they'll get all pissy because we have band practice so start spilling" He said harshly.

"That attitude isn't helpful" I said with my lip trembling and tears filling in my eyes.

His eyes softened. "Casey, you're very important to me so tell me what's gone so wrong you've resorted to this" He said pointing to my arm.

"My boss is a disgusting pig who keeps making moves on me. I don't wanna quit because it's my dream job but I'm scared" I said with a few tears spilling from my eyes. "I've been doing this for years but I stopped. I promised myself I'd stop but I just can't" I said breaking down.

I fell down onto my knees and began sobbing. Oli sat down next to me and wrapped his arms around me. "Casey, it's gonna be okay love" He whispered. I liked how he held me close, making me feel safe.

I looked up at him and he smiled. "Thank you" I whispered.

"Promise me you'll never do that again. If you ever feel like it, phone me please. I don't want you to end up really hurting yourself. Matt would be lost without you. We all would" He whispered. I looked into his eyes and I could feel the gravity pull us together. He wiped a strand of my hair away from my face. Our faces were so close.

"Hey losers we gotta go" I heard Lee shouting from outside my bedroom. Oli sighed loudly.

"Come take photos please" He looked down at me. I closed my eyes and nodded. His smile covered his face and he stood up, helping me up with him.

He turned away to leave my room but I grabbed his hand and turned him around. "Thank you Oli. You should be like this more often" I said seriously.

"If I was like this more, it wouldn't be as special now would it" He winked. He left my room and left me with my thoughts. That boy is so confusing.