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A One Night Stand, Lingered To A Fling

I Hate To See Your Heartbreak

Florida, USA January 2009

The first show of the tour went off without a hitch, I was so excited for the guys because this meant so much to them. Oli stopped being arsehole and everyone was finally back to having fun and making music. I was really enjoying being a proper photographer again. The support bands on the tour were really nice too, which made it more fun for me when having to take pictures of them. Me and Oli haven't really spoken since the incident at his house, even in the morning we just woke up and I left. Not a word was said about it all. I guess it's better this way because it doesn't have to be weird and we're basically just treating it was, just a silly thing Oli said when he was drunk. I couldn't help but wonder what he was getting at though. He said I made him want to be a better person but he couldn't lose himself in order to be that person. I don't like that idea, I don't wanna change him but then again I don't wanna lose him, it's all so very confusing.

I stepped outside the venue while the boys were getting a few beers. I needed some fresh air, well as fresh as it gets in Florida. The air here is so warm and hummid it makes me feel a little sick. Mostly because I'm used to the freezing winters in Britain, I don't get how it can be warm in Florida in the winter... it baffles me. I sat on a wall and let my legs dangle off the side, trying not to get too lost in my own thoughts when the side door opened and Matt N walked out. He spotted me and walked over to where I was sitting.

"You alright there?" He asked. I looked at him and nodded. "What did you think of the show?".

"It was really good, I enjoyed it. The fans out here are so much different from back home" I laughed. He grinned and agreed.

"Yeah, everyone is mental in America but it's a good kinda mental" He smiled.

We both looked up at the stars and admired them. "Can I ask you something Matt?" I asked.

"You just did" He said cheekily. I lightly punched his arm.

"You know what I meant. Anyway, why does Oli change his mood so quickly, I mean two days ago he was a drunken mess causing fights with everyone and now he's up there, life and soul of the party" I questioned. "What happened while I was away that's made him so... shut off".

"You being away" Matt said looking at me. I frowned a little at this, it wasn't my fault that I was gone... I was sorta stuck there.

"Right, well I couldn't help it" I said sadly.

"And he knows that but a lot went on" Matt said with a sad tone.

"Like what?" I asked curiously.

"You can't let him know I told you okay?" He warned. I nodded in agreement. "In late 2007 Oli met a girl, he was really into her. I would even say loved her but that's a such a strong word for a guy like Oli" Matt explained. "Anyway, they were together for ages and he said many times to us that he was only with her because he thought she was a good shag, I don't know if she was obviously but I didn't quite believe it. When our first album came out we done a tour and she couldn't come, just no space and it was cramped in a little fucking van. Oli was always sad after shows and stuff so when we came back from tour 2 days early, a show got cancelled. He went to her house as a surprise and found her in bed with her ex-boyfriend. Now Oli isn't the type to make a big deal about this type of stuff, you know him. He likes to seem untouchable but he was a wreck. He didn't leave his house for weeks, didn't come to band practice just nothing. He got really depressed and it was quite scary to be honest. When he finally got over it he began talking about you a lot, telling us that you phoned him a few months back and you hung up in a panic. We asked why he took so long to tell us and he couldn't answer. After that he began drinking excessively, he said a few times that it wasn't related to anything he had went through, just wanted to drink. Eventually, one night he came clean to me and told me that he missed you and that the only reason he was with Katy was because she reminded him of you, he wanted to come and get you but we couldn't let him. This went on for awhile, the drinking I mean. We got a little scared for awhile but slowly, after some time passed he stopped the behaviour and we went to record Suicide Season... that's when it started becoming more clear about his feelings in the last year. He needed that album, we all know it" Matt finished. I could see in his eyes the pain he felt when talking about this, his best friend went through so much. "That's why we got scared again, we knew what it was like last time. The good thing about it this time was you were here to stop it" Matt smiled.

I looked at Matt and sighed. "Thanks for telling me. I feel a little better about stuff now that I know what he went through" I said with a small smile. I felt really sad now, he always seemed so happy but you can seem like the happiest person in the world and still want to die. That scared me a lot.

"No problem, one day he'll tell you himself but for now you're just gonna have to try and accept his weird mood swings" Matt shrugged.

"Do you think he's ever... thought about suicide?" I asked, fearing the answer.

"Of course he has, look at some of the lyrics he's written. I don't think he'd ever do it though, I think he knows how much he'd lose if he did" Matt smiled a little.

"What? Why are you smiling like that?" I asked, getting the feeling he knew something.

"Nothing, now come on. Let's go inside and have some good old fashion Sheffield fun" Matt said standing up, he held his hand out for me and helped me up. I thanked him and we went back inside.

We entered the dressing room and Oli instantly looked at me and Matt, he looked a little upset but then looked away quickly. I walked over and sat down next to Lee. "Sup Malia" I asked. He looked and me and stuck his tongue out.

"Not much, what's up with you?" He asked.

"Same, what's the chat all about?" I questioned the room.

"We are gonna go to Disney World on Monday, you wanna come?" Curtis asked. I looked around everyone and nodded.

"Fuck yeah, I love Disney" I grinned like a fool.

"Calm down there, it's not gonna be that great" My brother said ruining my fun moment.

"Shut up Matt" I said flipping him off.

"We should probably go back to the buses now" Oli said suddenly.

"There's some kids out the front waiting to meet you guys, you should go say hello" I suggested.

"Sounds good" Matt N nodded. The boys left to go see the fans and I gathered up my things to take them back to the bus. Which took a good 20 minutes.

I walked out of the building and over to the bus, once I was on the bus everyone else piled on except Oli. "Where's Oli?" I asked. Everyone just shrugged. The bus was leaving in 20 minutes to take us to the next venue. "Fuck sake, I'll go find him". I walked off the bus and into the warm air again and walked towards the venue, I looked around the building until I seen Oli kissing some girl. I sighed at his behaviour. It's obvious he's trying to get back at me for what happened with Matt. "Oli, we have to go" I said loudly.

He stopped kissing this girl and looked at me. "How long have I got?" He asked.

"20 minutes" I sighed.

"Be there soon love, bit busy right now" He smirked at me. I wasn't gonna react to this, it's exactly what he wants. I just shrugged and walked back to the bus.

"Where is he?" Lee asked.

"Away to fuck some random girl" I mumbled as I walked through the bus and sat in the living area. I looked through my pictures and sighed. His fucking face is pissing me off, what a smug little bastard he is. Why would he do that? Does he think I care? I mean I do... but I don't like that I do. He just needs to stop being such a fucking arsehole or I'm gonna stop being his friend. I can't deal with this.

The bus began moving and that means Oli is on the bus. Wanker. "Looking at pictures of me?" I recognised that annoying voice without even having to look at him.

"Looking at pictures of the band" I corrected.

"You took more pictures of me though, obviously" He said, the smugness in his voice made me want to punch him. I noticed him sit down on the couch across from me.

I looked up at him and seen his hair was really messy and he had lipstick marks on his neck. "Have fun?" I asked.

By the look on his face he didn't expect me to ask that. "Bundles of it" He smirked.

"Good, what was the lovely, classy girls name that you were having a little cuddle with?" I asked with a small smile.

"Alice" He replied.

"Bet it was great, glad you had fun though. You have such a hard little life so you do" I said biterly as I went back to looking at my pictures.

"Someone sounds jealous" He muttered.

My head snapped up. "You think I'm jealous?" I said with a laughed. "You really don't know anything about me now do you?" I said disgusted with his accusation.

"For the amount of times you've tried to kiss me, I'd easily say you're jealous" He grinned.

"Yeah, like I'd want to have sex with you Oli... you're probably riddled with every disease going with all the skanks you fuck" I said defensively.

"Ooooh, fiesty... I like it" He winked at me. I rolled my eyes at him and stood up off the couch.

"No, I'm just not gonna be another notch on your fucking belt" I said looking down at him, feeling like I had the power for once.

He smirked up at me and slowly rose to his feet. "You'd be ever so lucky to make it that far love" He grinned and ran his hand down my cheek. I moved my face away from his hand.

"Don't touch me after you've just fucked some random girl" I mumbled. His smile grew even wider.

"Or what?" He asked with a devilish look on his face. "It's alright... I see how this is going to go. You're gonna keep on insulting me to hide the fact that right now all you want to do is fuck me. If that wasn't the case you'd have walked away at least three minutes ago" He said staring into my eyes.

Fuck. He's too good at this. "Ha, I do not want to have sex with you" I laughed. It was the most unconvincing laugh ever. He put his hand behind my neck and pulled me into his arms.

"You sure about that?" He whispered, his eyes were so daring right now. I suddenly felt hopeless and weak. I could feel his breath on my lips and my heart was pounding so hard that I was pretty sure it was lying on the floor right next to me with how loud it was. He leaned in and kissed me, I closed my eyes and felt my knees go weak. I could feel his heart against my chest. He deepened the kiss, making me moan slightly. The power this boy has over me is incredible. Our lips were locked together and my mind was racing. He ran his hand through my hair and trailed kisses down to my neck. I took a deep breath and then pushed him away. He looked down at me with confusion.

"No, you're not gonna do this to me" I mumbled and walked away. I went to my bunk and climbed in. I couldn't let him get that close again because in the end, I'm the only one who would get hurt.

Notes

What do you think of this one then?

Comments

@Fangirl_Alert

Awh wow, thats a huge compliment thank you :)

@saradanks

This is just how they talk in sheffield.

@Colourfultears
Sorry I got very emotional at the end, wow this story was amazing, i need to read the sequals, it was like a real book, you should really start writing.

the grammar and word tense is really confusing

fix the grammar! but i love it so far