I spent all of today with Vic. He picked me up at ten and took me shopping and for lunch. Then he sat me down and spoke about the baby and it was all very adult. He said that he's on a solid income and can help support the baby whatever I decide to do. When I told him I'm seriously considering adoption he looked a little sad. He can't really want a baby though, right? I mean he's away for months at a time. Unless he takes the baby with him on stage. Actually I think Kellin has done that before. But Kellin has Kate. I have no one. Vic actually seems very grown up about it all and I'm not. I just want it over with. But Vic was talking about child rates and income support and custody. I don't know what any of it means.
But we also didn't kiss today. Which is good . . . I think.
Mike and Vic have asked me to go to Jaime's party. To Vic I said yes. To Mike I said who the hell am I going to go with. Mike is going with some girl he met when he was buying condoms (extra large apparently, although I doubt it). Jaime has a girlfriend and Tony has an almost girlfriend. Not forgetting Vic's painfully nice and adult girlfriend. I told Mike all of this and he only replied with I'll sort it. I don't know how, because let's be honest. Who in their right mind would want to spend a party with a pregnant me.
I tried to make myself look good, but it's getting harder and harder due to the clothes situation. I'm wearing black skinny jeans with a low cut red wrap top that makes my boobs look great. If I was a guy and I didn't know I was knocked up I'd do me. I went downstairs and found Mike waiting for me with the condom girl. "You look nice," Mike told me.
"Thanks," I smiled. "Do I look fat?"
"No," he laughed. "Oh, this is Laura. Laura this is my friend, Zandra,"
"Hey," Laura nodded.
"Hi," I said smoothly. "Mike, where's my date?"
"He's taking a piss,"
"Nicely put," I rolled my eyes.
"Hey," someone said and I turned to look at them. A guy was walking towards us. I looked at Mike and back to the guy. He looked familiar.
"Zee, this is Casey," Mike explained.
"Your drum tech. Are you serious?" I asked then looked at Casey. "No offence, by the way,"
"None taken," Casey laughed.
"Shall we get going?" Mike urged. I shrugged and followed them out. I got in Mike's car. Mike and Laura were at the front and Casey and I were at the back.
"Did you draw a short straw or something?" I asked him.
"What?"
"You got to take the pregnant chick to the party,"
"Oh, yeah," he laughed. "I don't mind. You're actually kind of attractive,"
"Wow, thanks,"
"And I hear things. I figure it'll be good for someone to see you with someone else,"
"Sorry?" I asked confused.
"Apparently you want to make Vic jealous,"
"I don't!" I exclaimed.
"You sure?" he raised his eyebrow.
"Well," I muttered.
"Just a little?" he offered.
"Nope," I shook my head. He widened his eyes and I sighed. "Maybe a little,"
"That's fine. I don't mind that. But can we make it good because I'm trying to make someone jealous too,"
"Oh who?" I questioned.
"My ex. She's fucking Tony's guitar tech. So I want to get her back by fucking someone hot who isn't showing yet,"
"We won't actually be fucking, will we?" I asked anxiously.
"No, but we can make it look like it,"
"Fine, but no heavy kissing,"
"What do you mean by heavy?"
"That if you put your tongue in my mouth I'll show you how hard a pregnant woman can punch,"
"Got you," Casey nodded.
We pulled up and I opened my door. I walked around the car and towards Jaime's house. Mike knocked the door and after a minute Jaime answered us. He beamed when he saw us and stood back to let us in. As I passed he handed me a heart shaped lolly pop. "Thanks," I laughed.
"It's so cool to see you," Jaime told me.
"You too," I smiled.
"Do you want a drink?" Casey asked me.
"Just a cola," I replied. He went of to get my drink and I found myself standing alone. I spotted Vic talking to some guys I didn't know at the edge of the living room. He looked up and saw me, then smiled. But then Casey came behind me and he frowned. I took my drink and Casey followed my eyes.
"Found him?" he asked and I nodded. "My ex is just by the sound system,"
"You know, I don't think this is a good idea," I thought.
"Please, Zandra," he begged. I rolled my eyes and took his hand.
"Let's go dance," I said. Casey led me over to the middle of the floor where people were dancing. He spun me around so I was standing in front of him, facing away. I felt his hands go to my hips and I stepped back so I was closer to him. I saw Vic watching us and he was muttering to Tony who had suddenly appeared. I saw Vic's eyes pass over me before Tony nudged him roughly in the arm. Vic shook his head and looked up again. "Kiss me," I rushed.
"What?" Casey asked.
"He's watching. Kiss me," I ordered. Casey spun me around so we were facing one another. He pressed his lips roughly to mine. When he pulled away I stood back in shock. Casey's ex was standing behind him.
"Hi," Casey said smoothly.
"Can we talk, Case?" she asked.
"Sure," he nodded. Casey let go of me and walked away with her. I turned around and gasped.
"Christ!" I exclaimed.
"Sorry," Vic smiled. He was standing smiling at me looking all tanned and hot in his skinny jeans. When did I start to think that about him? He's not that hot. "Thought I'd get a dance before Casey comes back," he explained.
"Sure," I smiled. Vic stepped close to me and put his hands on my waist. I put my hands in his shoulders and got a little closer. "Where's your girlfriend tonight?" I asked as she started to move with the music.
"She's out of town this weekend," he explained. I nodded and looked down. "So, you and Casey?"
"Me and Casey," I muttered.
"Is he on that?" Vic asked and I raised an eyebrow. "Does he know what you're all about?"
"If you think that,"
"Be careful," he warned. "You could get pregnant," I looked up and him and laughed. Vic started to laugh at my laugh and I rested my head on his chest. Vic stopped laughing and I looked up. I took one of my hands and brought it to his cheek. Then I reached up to kiss his lips urgently. Vic started to kiss me back passionately. We eventually pulled away and I looked down embarrassed. Vic put his finger under my chin and lifted my head up. I looked at him in the eye and frowned.
"I'm so sorry, Vic," I gasped.
"Don't be," he said quietly. Then his lips crashed back down onto mine again.

Notes

Hey! What did you think? They kissed. Do you think she likes Vic? Do you think Vic likes her? What do you think will happen? :)