Break the Barricade

Today was the day. The day Thea would come back, I mean. It was only fourteen days, but I genuinely missed her a lot. We went from seeing each other all day, each day, to occasionally calling each other and that sort of was a big difference. So a big part of me was really glad she was coming home again.
But another, more concerned part of me consumed me with worry and fear. I had been lying to her, besides the promise we had made. And I would have to tell her the truth eventually, but I didn’t want to. She might realize what kind of disappointment I am and she wouldn’t want to be with me anymore. She would leave me, because I couldn’t even be honest to her.
Could I hide it forever? Maybe if I could hide my arms for a while, a month or so, these new scars would blend in with the old ones. Maybe she would never notice. If she never discovers, she might never know I lied to her and she might stay with me. I needed her to stay with me. I needed her.
Mike interrupted my thoughts by drawing back the curtain of my bunk.
“Good morning lazy,” he whispered. “You have to get up and eat, because we have to get Thea from the airport in a bit.”
“Oh, do we?” I replied sarcastically. “I didn’t remember.”
Mike rolled his eyes and left me alone. I looked at the time and realized he was right. I did have to get ready. I grunted and rolled out of my bunk. With some clothes under my arms I left towards the shower.
When I was done showering I looked at my arms and sighed. This might not even heal enough within a month. She trusted me though. I know it was a horrible thing of me to think, but she might not even check up on me. She’d assume I would tell her. I knew this was a way of misusing her trust, but it was all I could think of to keep our relationship safe. I just couldn’t lose her.

I ate a little at breakfast. Not much though. I couldn’t get much down my throat. It felt like I was meeting her for the first time all over again, but it was even scarier than that. Because this time I knew what she was like and how much I needed her and how bad it would be if I lost her. The pressure of doing things right was higher.
Mike interrupted my chain of thoughts for the second time that day. “Where are your thoughts at?” he asked, his face concerned.
“Thea,” I shrugged. “It’s okay.”
“Yeah,” Mike smiled. “You’ll see her again today. You don’t have to miss her anymore and you’ll both be okay.”
I nodded, even though I still didn’t feel confident about it at all. I tried to stop thinking about it though. This overthinking was useless.
Mike’s phone started buzzing and the screen lit up. For one second I thought it said “Thea”, but Mike got his phone before I could give it a second glance. I decided to just shrug it off.
“I’ll be right back,” he told me. I nodded, but I knew he couldn’t see me because he was already heading outside.
I sighed. Where were Jaime and Tony at anyway? I had some more time left to kill before we had to go pick up Thea, but there was nothing left to do. That was the worst kind of waiting. When you’re actually ready to go, but it’s not time to go yet. So you just sit somewhere waiting on something while there is literally nothing you can do. I sighed again and looked out of the window.
Mike’s phone convo almost seemed heated. Or at least he seemed annoyed with whoever he was calling with. Well, he sighed a few times.
I grabbed my phone and scrolled around twitter a bit, just to make sure Mike wouldn’t think I was spying on him. After a few minutes he went back into the bus though.
“Who was that?” I asked.
“Jaime,” he answered. “Tony and him were out getting breakfast, but he called me to tell me they were on their way back. Jaime is coming with you to get Thea.”
I nodded, but I knew he was lying. The screen might not have said, but it certainly wasn’t Jaime either. It started with a T. I was certain. I just didn’t want to cause a scene just before Thea came home. My head wasn’t up for it. Maybe I’d bring it up later. Maybe not.
After a few more minutes of waiting Jaime and Tony finally came back.
“We gotta go,” Jaime said. He threw car keys at me and I caught them. “You drive.”
I smiled and shook my head. “You drive. My shaking hands are going to cause us an accident.”
To prove my point I showed my trembling hands. Jaime rolled his eyes and took the keys for me.
“Fine, I’ll drive, but we do seriously have to go now. We don’t want Thea to have to wait for us.”
I nodded and waved to Tony and Mike as we walked out the door. My heart was beating in my chest as I walked after Jaime towards the car Tony and him must’ve hired this morning. It looked decent, so I didn’t have to worry about it breaking down halfway.
A few minutes later we were driving. I couldn’t stop thinking about Mike lying to me. It was hypocritical, after all that lack of trust he constantly gets mad about. Why would he lie to me? I needed to be sure though.
“Did you call Mike earlier today?” I asked Jaime, trying to make it sound like it was a question that didn’t matter to much. He might lie for Mike if he realized what I was trying to do.
Jaime looked up for the stir wheel and raised an eyebrow. “No. Why are you asking?”
Damn it. “Mike is lying to me.”

Notes

Okay so this took me like 12413421 years to write and I'm really genuinely sorry about that. I've been really busy with school and stuff because I'm in my last year and I just had my final exams but I'm done! So yeah, from now on I have more time to write and I promise I will try to write regularly until this story is entirely done.

I hope you guys aren't too mad at me and let me know what you think :)

-Simone