Break the Barricade

Thea went out for a walk, but I didn’t really trust it. I’m not stupid and I had seen the fan hate all over her Instagram and twitter. I should’ve known this was going to happen. It always does. Me or one of the other guys get a girlfriend, and immediately after the first picture is put onto Instagram the girl will get overwhelmed by hate. It always got less after a while and there would always be a few fans that would stick up for our girlfriends, but generally their social networking sites would be filled with nasty hate. It honestly pissed me off. These girls didn’t ask to be famous and they did nothing wrong, but some of our fans didn’t seem to understand that. And now Thea went out for a walk, probably shortly after she saw all of the hate.
I stayed where I was for a while until Thea’s phone went off. I picked it up and I found what I expected – more hate. “She is way too ugly for Vic,” the comment on her Instagram said. It took me lots of willpower to stop myself from replying to the message. I wish I could give the damn fan some hate back, but I knew I was supposed to be more mature than these fourteen year old kids so I didn’t. Instead I figured I had to check if Thea was okay.
I walked out of the van and looked around the parking lot to see if I saw Thea anywhere. When I didn’t I assumed she actually did go for a walk. I figured I could still look around the venue though. So I walked around the venue and there I found her. Hugging Jack. I thought I was over this, but I still felt a flash of jealousy run through me. Maybe she preferred him over me anyway.
“Thea?” I made myself ask her to get her attention. She looked at me and smiled lightly.
"Yeah?" she asked.
"Are you okay? Your phone went off and I just wanted to check you're okay," I told her. And I wonder if you still want me to be your boyfriend or if you maybe prefer Jack. But I didn’t dare to ask that out loud. Not with Jack still next to her.
"I am now," she smiled. Yes, she is now because Jack has made her feel better. Because he just did what I was supposed to do.
"What are you doing?" I asked her. I mentally bitch clapped myself at the dumbness of that question. She obviously is hugging Jack.
"Just catching up with Jack." she told me. She turned to Jack. "So, I'll see you later?" she asked him.
"Sure." Jack replied. Thea took my hand.
"Let's go back to the bus," Thea told me. She gave me a kiss on my cheek and for one second I felt assured and happy again. But my insecurities reappeared at the moment her lips left my skin.
Thea didn’t seem to notice. She just held my hand while she dragged me behind her towards the van.
We sat down in the front lounge and Thea kissed me softly, on my lips this time. Suddenly the vision of Jack’s lips on hers appeared in my mind and I remembered seeing that kiss happening in real. I felt my heart break all over again. I softly pushed Thea away and I sighed, trying to calm the thoughts that were running through my head down.
Thea gave me a worried look. “Are you okay, Vic?” she asked me seriously.
I simply shrugged. I didn’t know what to tell her right now. I couldn’t really tell her how I felt, she would feel like I didn’t trust her. And she wasn’t the problem. I was.
She took my hand and gave it a reassuring squeeze. “Tell me what’s on your mind. You know that you can trust me.”
I nodded slowly. “I do trust you,” I said softly. “But nothing is really wrong. Don’t worry.”
“But I do worry. I care about you,” she said, her hand still in mine. “I care about you so fucking much.”
“Don’t you care about Jack more?” I suddenly blurted out. When I saw the hurt look on her face I immediately regretted asking that. What was wrong with me? All I could do was be a jealous dick and hurt my girlfriend.
“Is that was this is all about?” Thea asked softly. “You still think I like Jack more? After all I have told you about myself?”
It took me a few seconds to come up with a reply. “When I came looking for you you were hugging Jack. I just figured that maybe you finally realized you could do so much better than me, and that is why you went to Jack when you needed to talk to someone. I just don’t know why you’d be with me Nothing is good about me.”
Thea’s face softened immediately and she wrapped her arms around me. “Everything is good about you,” she whispered in my ear. “Your smile is beautiful, you are funny, you are caring, you are sweet, you are talented and besides that you also look good. What else could a girl possibly want?”
I shrugged. “I just don’t think I am any of that.”
“Okay, then explain to me why you are the only one I really opened up to in my entire life.”
I thought for a few minutes. “I can’t,” I said softly.
“And explain to me why I am with you and not with Jack. Why would I be with you if I didn’t truly care about you? Why would I be with you if I cared about Jack more? I promise you, I wouldn’t be.”
She was slowly starting to convince me. “Maybe you are right,” I admitted. “But then why were you hugging Jack like that?”
She shrugged. “I actually did go for a walk, but there were a few fangirls that saw me that were talking about me and I seriously just wanted to punch them in the face. Jack showed up before I could and he took me back to the venue. Jack was apologizing to me for being a dick, so I told him I forgave him. And then he told me he still liked me, but he did want our relationship to work out so he wouldn’t try to fuck it up for us anymore. And then I thanked him and we hugged. That was all. It meant nothing.”
“Jack still likes you?” I muttered. I didn’t like that thought.
“He does,” Thea confirmed. “But does that really matter? I don’t like him.”
“I guess it doesn’t,” I shrugged. Thea had somehow managed to convince me that she wouldn’t break up with me for Jack.
Thea wanted to say something else, but I pushed my lips against hers to shut her up. I just wanted that kiss I pulled away from earlier. And at that moment I knew that I loved her.

Notes

Okay so I keep having to say sorry here for being late. So yeah I'm sorry again. I've been so busy seriously. But I'm finally done so here is a new chapter for you guys!
Kelci and I discussed some new plans for the fic today and I really like them, so hopefully you guys will like them too. I am excited about it!

Let me know what you think!

-Simone