「 Tony’s POV 」

I must’ve hit Val so hard that I could actually see the tears forming in her eyes even though she was laughing so hard while rolling on my bed. For some reasons, my cheeks were burning and it felt so fucking hot.

“Shit, that hurts,” Val winced but she continued laughing as soon as she saw my face.

“Val, that’s not funny.”
“It is!” she said as soon as she stopped laughing. She sat up, wiped her tears and rubbed her arm. “He’s the only person you keep on talking about every day. Like, you used to talk about Blaise a lot but now you just come home with an exasperated look on your face and then drag me to your room and talk about this bully.”

“First of all, Val,” I took a deep breath and then raised my voice, “I did not drag you,” to which she only responded by sticking her tongue out because she was the one who followed me here.
“Secondly, of course I talked about Blaise because he’s my best friend and he’s the only guy who is willing to spend his time with me,” I muttered.

“Yeah, which is why you used to like him,” she pointed out which made me roll my eyes because it was true. “And now, Mike or whatever his name is, he is now trying to spend time with you so I got the feeling you will like him because—”

“nO JUST SHUT UP!!” I yelled, before she could even continue her sentence.

At some point, I knew that what she was talking about make sense. It really was making sense but I just didn’t want to accept the fact that I might actually feel comfortable and like his existence.

“Ooooh, Tony’s mad,” Val teased which made me carry her like a sack (and she just laughed while hitting my back because she thought it was funny that I was mad at her) and threw her outside of my bedroom and I could hear her scream while laughing followed by my mother’s yelling, “WHAT ARE YOU TWO DOING??”

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I lived in a small house with my mother (Anne) and sister (Valerie). If you are wondering where was my dad, well, he left us. I kinda feel him though because there are times I really want to leave this house too. My mom was quite strict with us and Val complained about it a lot but I know mom actually was softer to her.

I think Val knew that she was mom’s favourite but she insisted because she didn’t want me to feel left out in this fucked up family. But I always feel left out wherever I go anyway, I was already used to it.

So usually at home, I’ve got nothing fun to do. I only read books, do my homeworks and talk to Val if I have time. Val is a girl, she liked to go shopping and do fun stuff so usually in the weekends, she wasn’t home because she likes to hang out with a few friends of hers.
Mom didn’t seem to mind. She seemed to be happy that Val was out with her friends.

But when it comes to me, mom was just scared of letting me go out. Even if I was just going for a jog. I didn’t know what she was scared about. I mean, I’m a fucking guy for fuck’s sake. And Val is a girl, and she was only 15. How could she get to go in and out of this house without permission?

Mom didn’t trust me most of the time. She even waited for Blaise to come to our house to make sure I was only hanging out with Blaise. She knew that I only had Blaise in school and somehow, she was thankful for that. What was wrong with her? Was she happy that her son is an anti-social freak?

It was on Sunday when Val went inside my room and told me that she was bored and needed someone to talk to. So since I was available and Val was being adorable, I decided to let her inside my room, sat on my bed and played with my star wars figurines.

Apparently, Val was the only person that was allowed to touch my figurines. If it weren’t for her, I would probably leave this house already. We talked and talked and talked until one particular topic came out.

“Tony,” she began with a soft voice.
Val was a loud person and she always had a high and energetic and cheerful tone inside her voice so when she suddenly began to talk softly to me, I knew that she was trying to make me do something.

“Yeah?”
“Why don’t you tell mom?” she said, not looking at me but staring at the Darth Vader figurine she was holding.
“Tell mom what?”
“That you prefer boys over girls,” she answered. I remained quiet.

First of all, I’ve already mentioned that my mom is strict. Do you think she would be happy to find out that her only son is gay? Secondly, I don’t think mom is okay with homosexuals. So the only option left is to shut the fuck up and just don’t share anything with mom.

“Nah, I’m not ready yet,” I replied, turning away from her when the truth is, I’ve already decided to never tell her.

“You should tell her earlier,” she suggested. “Maybe then, she would stop wondering whether you have a girlfriend or not. Maybe you guys can talk more about your crush or anything and maybe you’ll realize that she was actually a wonderful mother and she’ll realize that you’re not a machine.”

And by machine, she meant something like a robot. I just did what I was told, never told my feelings to my mom.

“That doesn’t sound too good, Val,” I said honestly because my mom wasn’t that type of person.

“Why?” she asked.
Because I know something that I shouldn’t have ever known and you would never believe it even if I told you.

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I came to school the next day and was greeted by Vic Fuentes and Jaime Preciado who were grinning at me at the parking lot inside of a blue van. They looked like kidnappers who were asking kids to get into their van because of free candies.

Their stares made me feel self-conscious but I didn’t give a fuck.

I met up with Blaise 5 minutes before class and usually, we would talk a lot but we were talking less. We haven’t even talk for a minute and he already excused himself and I guess I knew why.
When I looked at our surroundings, people were staring at us. Some of them were whispering and giggling while some of them were glaring at us in disgust. And suddenly, I had a feeling that it was Mike’s fault this happened. Not just people know that ‘I’m gay’ and now they were thinking that I might actually be dating Blaise for real.

Monday was the only day I love the most – even though many people would disagree with me because ‘Monday sucks’ and shit but for me, it was the best day out of all because it was the only day I had no class with Mike.

But just because we weren’t in the same class, it didn’t stop him from making my life miserable. It was starting to get on my nerve when I dozed off while staring at the window, he actually appeared inside my mind. Not just he was making me hate him more by appearing physically, even appearing mentally (inside my head) was enough to make me want to kill myself.

However, the thought of hardworking Mike made me smile.

The way he was mopping the floor, with his eyes concentrated at only the floor because his focus was just to get the dirty floor clean. I was really attracted to that side of Mike. But that doesn’t meant I am in love with him (like Val suggested).

At the end of school, I decided to stay back for a while and spent my time researching for books at the library.

Whenever I don’t want to go home early, I would spend a few minutes inside the library, searching for new books to read. I was looking at the huge shelves, desperately searching for books.

The thing about the school’s library that made me dislike it the most was that it was put according to the author’s first letter on their name. I preferred it to be labeled as their genres which made it easier to find the books.

I took one book that caught my attention called, “When He Sleeps” and I immediately put it back to shelf because that book sounded boring by reading the title itself. So I looked for another book and ended up choosing a book called “Little Lady”.

I had no idea what it was all about so I sat down and began read. I chose an empty seat, isolating myself from other students who were staying back at the library.

Just when I was about to read chapter 2 of the book, I could feel a presence in front of me. Someone was sitting in front of me and out of all empty places, why would someone chose a seat in front of me?!

The person faked a cough, making me looked up and – it was Mike.

Did he really have to ruin my Monday?

I stared at him for a while. He was flipping pages of a very thick book. I wasn’t sure what he was reading but I swear to God it had maps and a lot of weird things. Maybe he took an atlas or something.

He then stood up and went somewhere else.

I was glad that he actually left. I continued reading where I had left. And all of a sudden, he came again with another thick book.

“What the hell,” I muttered as he took a seat in front of me and began to flip open the book again.

Somehow, whatever he was reading took my interest. Like, really, I didn’t know he was the type that read so I just stared at him while he was flipping the pages of the book.

He must have finally noticed that I was staring because then, he looked up to me and all of a sudden, he winked.

WHY GOD WHY DOES HE HAVE TO LOOK SO PERFECT

I was blushing furiously and I wasn’t going to let him know that I turned red because of him so I picked up my book and hid behind it because seriously, that was just so embarrassing.

“Are you checking me out, Turtle?”

I decided to ignore his comment and continued reading although my mind was mostly focusing on him. But then, I lose my mood to read so I closed the book and went outside of the library. Oh my god, I just couldn’t handle it anymore.

As soon as I got out of the library, I took my bag and the funny thing was, I could actually hear footsteps and I was guessing that he might actually follow me outside of the library but that’s just insane. Why would he? Maybe I was just hallucinating.

But maybe, I was not because I could hear him calling.

Notes

hello guys! so here i am with an update and i really hope you guys like it. so i haven't actually introduced his mom but at least she got to play a part??? idk
& oh, does any of you guys here like fuenciado? because i am thinking of writing a fuenciado fic and i've already written chapter one! ☺ if any of you guys are interested, you guys can message me.

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