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Drella Now

It's Beating For You

I heard the door open and hurried to walk in the kitchen. I just didn't want to look at him. I grabbed a glass and started pouring myself a drink. I heard Vic throw his jacket down but I refused to look around. "Ella?" Vic called. I didn't reply, just took a huge gulp of my drink. I felt Vic standing behind me. "Sorry I'm late. We had this huge meeting with our producer," he explained. I still didn't turn around. If his hook up wasn't important enough to talk to me about, then he's not important enough for me to talk to. "What's up?" Vic asked. He came closer to me so if I turned around all he'd have to do is lean in and he could kiss me. "You talking to me?" he frowned. Vic wrapped his arms around me. I turned around in his arms and pushed him away. "Don't touch me," I snapped.
"What have I done?" he asked me quietly. I shook my head and walked over to the couch in the sitting room. I sat down and Vic sat next to me. "Drella?"
"Why you so late? Find any girls?"
"Any girls?" he echoed. "Are you insane?"
"Girls throw themselves at you,"
"And I tell them I have a girlfriend," he explained slowly like I was stupid. "And that I love her,"
"How long have you loved me?"
"Since my senior year of high school,"
"I mean this time. When did you realise you loved me?"
"I don't know. Not long after I saw you again. Then I told you,"
"That's really funny, Vic," I laughed humourlessly. "Because you know what most people don't do when they really love someone. They don't go out to a club and go back to some random woman's apartment to hook up," I rushed.
"What? Shit," he breathed.
"Yeah,"
"We weren't even together, Drella. I never thought you'd ever choose me. I drank loads that night. You know I love you,"
"Stop making fucking excuses," I sighed. "We weren't together but you still did it. Even though you loved me. You had to have known that I might still love you and that it would upset me. That's why you didn't tell me, right?"
"I didn't tell you because I didn't think you needed to know. It was one night. It meant nothing to me. I never meant for you to find out,"
"But I did,"
"How?" he muttered.
"She brought your jacket round. You left it at hers," I explained.
"It was nothing, I promise,"
"And you still haven't said sorry," I mumbled.
"I'm sorry," he rushed. "I never meant to do it,"
"I don't want you to say sorry for that. Fucking hell. I'm not pissed off because you hooked up. And you didn't cheat, I'm not stupid,"
"Then why?"
"Because you didn't tell me. Okay, we weren't together. But I thought we were best friends then. If I hooked up I would go and tell you. But you kept it from me and you've let me find out like this," I said, not looking at him.
"I should have told you,"
"You should have," I said. Then I took Vic's hand. He squeezed mine and started to draw patterns on my hand. "Why you do find little ways to hurt me?" I asked quietly.
"I would never hurt you, Ella,"
"That's a lie," I said easily. "Back when we were young you basically used me. Anyone can see that. You let me kiss you wanting more when I couldn't have it. You asked me to sleep with you and take your virginity. Most people would call that using me. But I did it. I loved you so much I did it. Now you're keeping things from me. I was the one that bandaged your fucking arms. Do you remember that?"
"Why are you talking like you haven't been hurting me from the moment you came back?" Vic said flatly.
"I haven't,"
"Wake up, Drella," he sighed. "Back before I could handle it. I loved you but you didn't love me back. Being your friend was enough. I asked those things of you because I loved you, I just wanted to pretend for a few minutes that you loved me back. That's all I wanted. Then you said you loved me back and it was the best feeling ever. But you left, and that fucking killed me.
"You came back and I knew. I just knew that I still loved you. Even though you were so broken and fragile and pathetic. I still loved you. You told me about Shane and basically promised that nothing could ever happen. Did I walk away like any sane person would? No, I stayed and took care of you. I just wanted the old you back. And you're nearly there. But do you know what it's like to wake up every day and see the person you love be in love with someone else? To just want to run up and hug them and kiss them and tear their clothes off and make love to them? It's torture. You tortured me. But I didn't care because I got to be in the same room as you and I got to hug you when you were sad.
"Now you love me and nothing can make me feel better than that. No drink, or drug, or even stage time. Nothing can beat the feelings I get with you. I love you so much I would tear out my heart just to prove it was yours. I would die for you, Drella. So don't you fucking dare sit there and pretend I'm the only one dishing out the pain. What you've felt can't even come close to what I've felt every day since I saw you again. You're serving it cold. But you know what? I would do it over and over because it's so worth it. Just to be with you," Vic finished heavily.
I looked across at him and but my lip. "I'm sorry," I breathed.
"Me too," he added.
"I love you," I told him.
"I love you too," he replied. I reached over and turned his face to me with my finger. Vic looked at me for a moment and I leant in to kiss him. Before he could get used to kissing me back I moved to his cheek, jaw and neck. Then finally I softly kissed his collar bone. I got quickly up and started walking away. "Where you going?" Vic asked quickly.
"I'm moving my things into your room," I replied. I looked back, catching him smiling.

Notes

Hey! I hoped you liked this? I like this one actually - which is weird for me. Starting out very sad but I gave you some real heart to heart Drellic. Is still Drellic is there's not much touching and kissing? I don't know. Warning - there's only going to be eighteen chapters of this. Prepare yourselves :)

Edit - Hey! Any questions please ask! :)

Comments

@tall_evil_turtle
Haha! Of course, I need to give all the Drellics a Christmas present!!!! :)

WriteIsLife WriteIsLife
12/19/13

Thank you!!! !!!!! Yes!!!!!!!

@Msflowers
AHH IM SORRY BUT I LOVE THIS STORY MORE THANK YOU DO. I LOVE YOU TO. I HOPE YOU LOVE THIS NEW STORY AS MUCH AS I DO. YOU DONT HAVE LONG TO WAIT :)

WriteIsLife WriteIsLife
12/12/13

WHY DO YOU LIKE PLAYING WITH MY FEELS DAMN IT?! UGH I HATE YOU BUT THEN I LOVE YOU SO UGH STOP IT :(

Msflowers Msflowers
12/12/13
@clairephernelia
Don't say that! Now I want to write a sequel but I have no idea what it'd be about! ;)
WriteIsLife WriteIsLife
12/1/13