Lonely Girl

“So what does this mean?” Mike asked me. I shrugged. Honestly I have no idea. Hayley hasn’t said much more about it, and honestly I haven’t even told Rachel about my daughter and soon to be child yet. I don’t even want to go there, I don’t even know if I wanna be with her. She just moans at me all the time and trying to leave the house without her wondering what I’m doing is just annoying. I have to get it over with.

“I don’t know man” I said, taking the turn off from the highway. We were on our way to Hayley’s house. She was having a small gathering since it was now October. Hayley always liked to pretend that all of October was Hallowe’en. It’s a part of her that I always thought was extremely cute.

“I think it’s nice that Hayley has opened up and invited everyone back into her life” Mike stated. “I thought for awhile there that we’d never see her again. It’s a shame we missed so much time...” Mike droned on and on, mind mind was filled with other things though.

Whatever was going on between me and Hayley was awkward and weird at the moment. We haven’t really discussed what happened last month and that can’t happen. The last time we avoided speaking about stuff she had a kid and I had no idea about it. But I digress, she needs to speak to me. And I can’t confront her, she needs to learn to tell me things without being forced into it. “We’re here” I mumbled. I kinda didn’t wanna deal with it right now, I just wanted to see my daughter.

Everyone else was already there, and having a good time. Hayley and Jenna were being all weird and talking about babies. Don’t get me wrong I’m insanely excited to be having another child but my dad keeps getting on at me, he thinks I should ask Hayley to marry me. I keep telling him that we aren’t even a couple. ‘If you honestly think you’re not going to end up together then you’re an idiot son’ Is something that stuck in my head. I can’t even begin to explain what it would mean to me to finally have a family, settled down and start thinking about my real future. As a career goes, music can only last as long as you’re hearts in it. And who knows how long that will ever last for any of us.

We walked up the path and entered the house. Elisa came running up to us and hugged my legs. I picked her up and kissed her cheek. “Hey baby girl, how are you?” I asked her.

“Good. Hi uncle Mike” She beamed to Mike. He high fived her and she climbed into his arms. I loved how they instantly bonded, it made my heart sink.

I walked into the living room where Hayley, Tony, Jaime, Jenna and Taylor were sat. I looked at my little family and I smiled.

“Hey guys” I said as everyone began to notice my arrival. “How was the honeymoon?” I asked Tony and Jenna, it’s the first I’ve seen them since they got back.

“It was amazing, so beauitful from the hotel room” Jenna laughed. I laughed and winked at Tony.

“Oh no, not because of that” Tony half laughed.

“I had horrible morning sickness the full time we were away” Jenna looked sick at the thought.

“Well, I had the worst time when pregnant with Elisa” Hayley said. “I think I moved into the bathroom for about 3 months straight. It was horrible” She laughed.

“Wait you aren’t getting it now?” Jenna asked, almost angry.

“Strangely not” Hayley shrugged.

“Oh no” Tony mumbled.

“Wow, I’m so unlucky” Jenna grumbled.

“It’ll get better trust me, you’re halfway through the worst stage” Hayley said.

“I can tell you’re lying” Jenna made a strange face.

“Yup, it gets worse but hey we’re going to be there together so don’t worry” Hayley said standing up. She walked off into the kitchen.

Mike finally walked into the livingroom with Elisa, they were carrying some dolls from her room. She went off into her play corner and played with her dolls. “She wanted me to plays dolls upstairs and I was cool for a few minutes but I convinced her to play down here but I think she’s forgotten me already” Mike laughed.

“That’s adorable” Jenna laughed.

“Yeah so cute” Mike rolled his eyes.

I decided to go see what Hayley was doing so I got up and walked into the kitchen. I could smell cookies. She was standing over at the oven, pulling cookies out of it. I walked over to look at them. They were spooky themed cookies. “I still love Hallowe’en, if I could make it a public holiday I would” She laughed. It’s amazing to see her so lighthearted.

“Pregnancy makes you so laidback, weird” I smiled. She just shrugged.

“At least I’m not Jenna, she’s freaking out because she has no idea what is to come... I do” She smiled softly. I missed the way she smiled when she was just so genuinely happy. Like things just couldn’t get any better.

“Hayley...” I wanted her to talk to me.

“Mhmm” She said, getting the icing out.

“We need to talk about this baby” I asked. She didn’t look at me, continued doing what she was doing.

“What about it?” She said quietly.

“Well, what does this mean for us?” I needed to know that part. She put the icing down and gave me her full attention.

“What do you think it means?” She questioned. Wasn’t expecting it.

“I don’t know... but I mean we did have sex so I think that means something” I have no clue what though so I hope she doesn’t ask that.

“I have no idea Vic” She said getting back to the icing.

“Well that’s why I’m trying to speak to you about it” I said. She didn’t say anything. “I think it’s important to discuss this” I announced. “I don’t know but say we have this kid, then we hook up again and you get pregnant again... that has to mean something” I tried to explain, get an answer out of her.

“Yeah it means I really need to change my birth control” She laughed.

“Or maybe it means we stop hooking up...” She looked up at me for a second. “Not that I don’t want to hook up... not saying I want to have sex with you now, oh wow I think I’m gonna stop now” I was getting flustered. The fact she still has that affect on me after all these years is crazy.

“I honestly don’t know what will happen to be honest but you need to make your mind up pretty quickly because there is someone set to get hurt and honestly you’re not even in firing line. Say you wanna be with your girlfriend, if you wanna make that work then you have to detatch from us, she can’t know you have a family... or else she’ll leave you. As far as I can tell she’s very jealous. Or you can be with your family and I mean really be with your family. At the end of the day, you get to win in some way, but someone else will get hurt. This is the time for you to decide... and I think you already know fine well what this means to me or else I wouldn’t be here, having another one of your offspring” She finished and got back to the cookies.

Hayley was right. She has always been right. I closed my eyes and gathered up the courage to do what I was going to do next...

Hayley’s P.O.V

I honestly don’t think saying what I feel for Vic will really make a difference, he knows deep down it’s him... it will always be him no matter what we go through. I turned back to the cookies because I probably will start crying at any moment. Stupid pregnancy hormones.

I felt Vics hands wrap around my waist from behind and his chin rested on my shoulder. “If I have the option to be with my family, to really be with you guys and fix the biggest mistake of my life then there is no way I’m ever going to throw that away... I love you so fucking much and that beautiful kid in there was never meant to enter the world without her father, but I’m here now... I need to be here always, and give our child and baby the lives they deserve. If gaining the love of my life back comes with that then I want it all. Hayley I want you” I turned around and looked up at him, at a loss for words.

He leaned in and kissed me. Nothing more, just a small kiss. “I love you too, Vic” I whispered, tears beginning to form in my eyes. I was way too emotional.

“Hey don’t cry” He mumbled.

“While I may look very laidback during this pregnancy, my body is going through some insane hormone changes” I laughed.

“As long as that baby is happy you go as crazy as you like” He smiled. I couldn’t help but swoon, every person wants the love of their life to finally just give themselves to you with no
problems.

“Vic...?” I asked.

“Yeah?” He asked back.

“What about Rachel?” I was so nervous about that.

He pulled his phone out and I watched him scroll to her contact. He clicked call and and put his phone up to his ear. “Hey, Rachel I have something I got to tell you” He said. “Yeah we have to break up” He said softly. “I’m sorry it just isn’t working out and I’m in love with someone else, it can’t be helped. I also sort of have a child with her that I didn’t know about but whatever, umm yeah good luck in all your endevours and I’m sorry” He hung up the phone. “There, nothing to worry about” He smiled.

Holy shit... I feel kinda sorry for her but I’m so happy that things are back on track. “Let’s go tell our crazy family” I said kissing him quickly and grabbing his hand. I’ve never felt happier.

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