'What the fuck did I just do?' I think to myself as I dart up the stairs. 'You fucked everything up. As always' The voice in my head reminds me. I walk into my now unoccupied room and quickly turn the tiny piece of metal and then the knob to insure that my door is locked. I began to pace and run my hands through my hair as I recall the actions that just took place. I kissed Sky. I kissed the love of my life. The only girl i've ever loved. Then the realization hit. She knows how I feel about her now.

I sigh and feel my phone vibrate. It was a text from my ex, Candace. After dating for about 3 years, she cheated on me this past tour. I wasn't good enough. I never will be. I open the message to see a photo of her fucking another guy. Well this is just fanfuckingtastic.

I snap and knock a small desk lamp off my dresser before opening the third drawer to reveal my best friend. My sharpest blade. I slink down the closest wall and sigh as I pull my jeans down to my knees. I drag the blade across the upper part of my thighs about 7 to 9 times each before putting the blade down. I reach nearby and grab a black towel that was laying on my floor. I hide the towel in my dresser and slip the blade into my suitcase. I clean the blood and get up enough to pull my pants up completely. I sit there silently, just thinking bout Candace.

I try to take my mind off of her by letting my mind wander. I start to think of Skylie and I feel tears welling up in my eyes but fight them back with all my might. I decide to just sit there listening to the silence until I hear a knock on my door.

“Jaime? Hey, it's me Vic. Can I come in? Fuck, why is your door locked? Himes? Are you in there? What's happening? Are you okay? Jaime please open up. I'm begging you. Jaime...” I hear Vic's voice trail off knowing that he's given up due to my lack of noise and answers. I check the time and see that it's nine thirty. I start to get my things together when all of the sudden, my door crashes in. I look to see Mike and he seems short of breath, behind him Vic stands looking super worried and next to him of course, there's my Sky, obviously close to tears. I look behind Sky and see Tony behind her with his arms around her waist. I give a slight smile as the four people I consider family burst into my room.

“Jaime. Why didn't you answer me?” Vic asks as he takes me to sit on my bed.

“When?” I say pulling the clueless act just to give me time to think of a better excuse. And I do. “Oh! I was blasting music through my earbuds earlier. That's probably why.” I smile.

Tony gives me a look that says he knows i'm lying but we'll talk later. Well fuck. “Oh.” Vic said simply like a 'duh' moment. “Well are we all ready for tour then?” He asks getting us pumped up.

“Hell yeah!” I yell with Tony and Mike smiling.

“Yeah!” Vic yells and then adds. “Let's all meet at the bus at ten. It's parked outside so that shouldn't be very hard.” He says with a chuckle. I laugh and the boys leave. I notice Sky's still there. I turn to her and open my mouth to speak but am immediately attacked by her feminine arms. She hugs me tightly and I hug her back, letting her bury her head into the crook of my neck.

I pull back, knowing better than to get with her simply because of what happened between Candace and I. “Sky... I'm so sorry. I just can't do this because...” I trail off as she nods.

“It's fine.” She says with a smile that I seem to believe. “Jessica's a nice girl.” She says and quickly pats my back before basically running out of my room.

'Wait. Jessica?' I think. Ugh. She thinks that I would rather be with Jessica than her. Greatt. I think as I finally stand and grab my bags before going to the bus that I will call home for the next 3 months.

-Skylie's pov-

'Haha, and you thought he wanted you. Well you were wrong. Why would he want you anyway?' The voice in my head tells me as I quickly leave Jaime's room. I rush down the hallway and into Tony's room. I reach my bags and grab the ones I needed before leading myself outside to wait by the bus. I sit my things down just as I hear someone else come out of the house. I turn to see Jaime walking down the pathway with his bags in one hand and his other hand up by his ear supporting his phone.

“Ugh. No, i'm getting to the bus right now.” He said then paused and I notice him begin to smile. “I'll text you. Ok?” He waited a moment and grinned before speaking again. “K, Talk to you later Jess.” He said and brought the phone away from his ear. He pressed his thumb to the screen and smiled before looking up. “Hey Sky.” He said sounding a tiny bit sad. I gave him a small toothless smile.

'Of course he's sad. He just got off the phone with his dream girl and now he has to deal with you. You're worthless, fat, ugly, and so fucked up. Why the hell would he want you?' The voice in my head spoke and I felt my small smile fade.

I finally respond with a simple “Hey.” I looked at Jaime and observed his features. He was so perfect. I mean... his body and that curly hair that he has hidden under his beanie from earlier. And his dimples are to die for. I'm pulled out of my thoughts when he speaks again using his angelic voice but I soon notice it was projected towards me. I look to see who he screamed 'hey' at and I see Tony, Mike, and Vic coming out of the door.

Vic walks to the door of the bus and unlocks the door while Jaime and the boys talk. Vic goes to join them and I proceed onto the bus, too depressed to care about their conversation. I carefully walk into small area and look around before deciding to wait for the boys on the black leather couch.

I sit my bags down and sigh. I close my eyes and lean back for a few moments before I hear the boys coming up the few steps at the front of the bus. “Hey Skylie!” Tony says happily as he takes the seat to my right.

“Hey Tone.” I say trying to steady my unexplainably staggering voice. I see Tony furrow his brows and look at me with worry.

“What's wrong?” He asks and pulls me into his side. I give him a small smile.

“It's nothing. Just excited for the tour.” I lie and take a deep breath.

“Yeah?” Tony says. “Well I think it's time for us to pick bunks. Leggo!” Tony says and claps as he stands and leads everyone to the bunks. I rise to my feet and follow behind Himes. I look to see five bunks and each of the boys rushing to the one's that they desire. I let them pick their bunks and end up being put in the one under Tony and across from Jaime. I rush back into the living type of area and grab my suitcases. I carefully walk back to the bunks and set my bags down. I open the huge drawer below my bunk and begin to put my things away.

I continue to put my thing away before Vic walks in. “Hey Sky. I'm going to start driving soon. Just thought I would let you know” He says and I nod. He nods back before walking out. A few seconds after he leaves, Jaime walks in and silently starts packing.

Suddenly, the bus lurched forward and I fall, only to get caught by Jaime. I froze before stuttering out an apology. “I'm uhm. So-. Sorry Himes”

“It's ok Sky.” He smiled showing his dimples. I smiled a toothless smile back and rose from my position. I finished putting away the last few items from my suitcase. I sigh with relief and shut the drawer. I lay down on my bunk and look towards Jaime but he's already staring at me. I open my mouth to talk but then Tony walks in, stopping me.

“Hey Skylie, wanna have a movie marathon?” He says crouching down beside my bunk. I think for a moment and decide on my answer.

“Sure, just let me change real quick.” I say and he gives me a thumbs up before going back into the living area.

I reach down into my drawer and pull out a pair of yoga shorts along with a band shirt and zebra slippers. I pull my shirt over my head and undo the clasps of my bra letting it drop before remember that Jaime is in the bunk directly across from mine. I turn to see him staring at me with eyes full of lust. “Shit!” I say and pull my blanket up to my completely bare chest. “Sorry Himes.” I give him a soft smile.

“It's fine.” He says softly.

I turn towards my bunk a tiny bit and let my blanket drop. I pull my band shirt over my head before grabbing my shorts and starting for the bathroom only to be stopped by Jaime's arms around my waist. He pulls me to him and I go without resistance. He quickly pulls me into a hug and kisses my neck, slowly trailing up to my lips. He kisses me passionately and we kiss slowly, but meaningfully for a few moments before we pull away. Without a word, he lifts me off of him and smiles before going into the bathroom. I smile as well thinking I might finally have a chance with the love of my life. I run my fingers across my lips then stand and remove my pants just to pull on my yoga shorts. I slip on my slippers and leave the bunk area.

I walk into the living area and greet Tony as he puts in the first movie. I sit on the couch and we walks to take the seat beside me. He wraps his arm around my shoulder and I rest my head on his chest. I try to remind myself that it's Tony not Jaime and try to focus on the movies but I can't help but think of Jaime and what's happening between us.

Notes

So I guess a lot happened in this chapter and it's kinda rushed. I'm sorry. Anywhore. Next update should be someday this weekend So yay. Oh and Comments= Faster updates. I really really appreciate your guises' comments and thoughts and suggestions. I love every single one of you. Okai. Bye babes. <3