Izzy

Terror and anxiety was coursing through my pale blue veins, this cannot be happening. I had kept that secret for so god damn long, one trip to the bloody supermarket had changed all of that.

Running down the street past concerned members of the public, I pushed my way through all of them desperate for an easy path back to my apartment. People weren't budging though, they just stood there, some even tried to grab my wrist. They wanted to ask me questions to find out what was wrong, but I didn't need anyone's sympathy.

My beat up blue vans continued to hit the uneven pavement, in sheer despair I checked over my shoulder whilst I was running away. Counting my lucky stars every time I checked, being reassured no members of Pierce the Veil were following me.

However my luck very quickly ran out when I bumped into the one person, the one person who caused all of this in the first place...Tony fucking Perry. His head was down, his dark brown eyes concealed underneath the snap back lying on his head; he mumbled a short sorry before trying to shuffle past, that was until he noticed I hadn't moved in pure fear, that was when he looked up at me.

"Izzy what's....I mean sorry Isabelle! Have you, have you been crying? Listen I think we need to talk -"

Shit did he know? Had Hime really got him that quickly? Well I suppose he was engrossed on his mobile phone before he collided with me. The paranoia in me rose to destructive levels and out of nowhere I shouted at Tony before I had time to think of what I was saying.

"LEAVE ME ALONE, I'M SORRY OK? WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT FROM ME! I'M NOT COMING ON TOUR BECAUSE I CAN'T STAND TO BE AROUND YOU!"

The tears started to leak more freely from my eyes red raw from before, crying seemed nearly impossible from the pain it was causing me right now. Through blurred vision I pushed forcefully into Tony's shoulder before once more running from my problems, attempting to run the fastest route back to my apartment
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Once I had turned the corner closest to me, away from everyone's prying eyes. I broke down, full on sobs came out of nowhere. Sliding down the brick wall, my jumper catching sharply on the jagged brick edges. I curled up into a ball hoping everything that had happened in the past couple of months, would just disappear..but I knew that would never happen.

In all honesty I was only a few blocks away from my apartment, I could just run straight back there. However I knew TJ would be home, he now had no business thanks to me and no job with the guys because of my screwed up life. Plus if I went back to the apartment in this state, he would know something is up. When TJ knows something is up, he never gives up until he gets everything. That's one quality I hated about him sometimes.

"Come on stop crying please, I hate to see you like this"

Without even looking up through my blurred out blue eyes, I simply allowed the person who addressed me to help pick me up gently. Once I wiped the tears away it was then I saw the black vans, they belonged to the one person a few minutes ago I pushed away from me.

"I thought I told you to leave me alone?"

"I can't leave you alone like this Izzy please"

Pushing him away from me, I stormed away as fast as I could down the street. Desperately trying to blend into the forming crowd and disappear from everyone who mattered's view, however it wasn't as easy as I expected. Crashing into people and getting in their way just held me up and eventually his grasp found its way around my wrist.

"Please just let me take you home"

Looking up at him I noticed for the first time in a long while how much he had changed, he was wearing a vest top his arms, chest and neck all covered in colourful ink. My tear soaked eyes became mesmerized with all of them, not just the neck one i noticed when i saw him first, I couldn't peal my eyes away.

Making my way up towards his face I noticed a single piercing just underneath his left eye, he had changed a hell of a lot his hair was a lot shorter for starters. However I still couldn't deny the butterfly's that erupted in my stomach once I had taken him all in, I still found him attractive.

"It's not a good idea, I'll be fine just please leave me alone...how many times do I have to say it?"

"You'll have to say it forever, I left you once I'm not doing that again. Plus I'll decide if it is a good idea to take you home or not"

"You can't promise stuff like that Tony, you did it to me once before, you promised me you would take me away from here and you didn't!"

Once again I burst into tears, I thought I had done my fair share of crying today but clearly I hadn't. Tony pulled me towards his chest before I had a chance to fall to the floor yet again, this was when I realised he had gained a fair bit of muscle too over the years.

"Come on let's get you home and maybe I can explain everything to you, if you let me?"

Weak from the whole days events I simply shrug my shoulders in response, Tony chuckled lightly before we both walked in a slow pace back towards my apartment, me giving directions as we went. The following couple of hours ahead causing dread to drive throughout my body. Does he already know? Did Hime really get to him already?

15 short minutes later and we were at my apartment, silently I was hoping TJ wouldn't be there but the other half of me needed him to be there. However as I opened the door and dropped my brown, leather handbag down on the laminate flooring, I noticed the apartment was completely silent.

"Looks like we are on our own, great"

I muttered underneath my breath but just loud enough for Tony to hear it, he sighed inwardly and I crashed down on the couch. I signalled that he could join me, even though I really didn't want him to. I just wanted to hear what lame excuses he had, tell him to be on his way and never have to see him again. No matter how good he looked, although at the moment he looked like me, like shit.

"I have a lot of explaining to do Izzy...Isabelle. I know you probably will never ever forgive me and I get that, I do. I just need to get my side of the story out"

"It's not just all my fault Tony though, you can't blame all this on me!"

"I'm not I just need to tell you what happened okay?"

Not saying a word, I just shrugged my shoulders yet again. I was determined to keep verbal communication, if any communication at all to the bare minimum.

"Well I guess I should go back to your party..."

Closing my eyes tight, I shuddered at the memory of my party, one which I wouldn't like to be reminded over. However I guess he needed to tell me why...

"I know you don't want to listen but I need to tell you, I never got the chance to before. Anyway you knew my feelings for you back as teenagers and you knew what happened at my party meant everything to me, you may not think it but it did"

He was speaking very quickly without hardly pausing for breath, it scared me a little to say the least.

"Well once we had sex, it hurt me when you just left not mentioning it again. I wanted to be with you so badly afterwards I wanted to look after you Isabelle, but you wouldn't let me. I guessed you wanted to remain friends, because whenever I brought it up you would change the subject"

Sighing to myself I realised things would have been a lot different perhaps, if I had not of ran away from everything like I usually do.

"Anyway I did hook up with a few girls I don't know whether you knew or not, I was upset and I know that's not really an excuse but I didn't want you to find out what I was up to. So I used to do it behind your back..."

"I knew Tony, word travelled fast around our school"

"Why didn't you say anything about it?"

"I was just your friend right, it wasn't my place to say anything I wasn't your girlfriend. You were free to do what you wanted to, I didn't own you Tony"

"But it bothered you right?"

Taking in a huge breath, I contemplated my answer honest or lie?

"I wasn't bothered I just hoped they weren't true"

"Why did you hope they weren't true, you just wanted to be friends after what happened"

"Just carry on Tony, I haven't got all day"

I snapped, he studied my facial expressions for any hint of what I was thinking. I gave nothing away...

"I got no pleasure from any of them girls honestly, I just wanted them to be you all the time. But I knew that was never going to happen, then it came to the night of your 17th. Everyone was intoxicated and I just wanted to tell you, I was fed up of pissing about with other girls. I knew that when Cassie came up to me, she was one of the girls I used to hook up with. She tried to throw herself at me and that's when I realised, I only wanted you I brushed Cassie off and was determined to find you, that's when I saw you and Max and all I wanted to do was protect you. Once he had left you passed out on the couch, so I went to your room and stripped off to sleep. About 15 minutes later I felt the bed dip and because it was dark I thought it was you, but it wasn't it was Cassie. I told her to fuck off because I just wanted you, but she forced herself on me and kissed me. She even made my lip bleed because I tried to pull away. Anyway that was when..."

"That was when I walked in, fuck Tony"

"I know and I can't say sorry enough, but you didn't give me chance to explain because you ran like you always did. I knew something was up because you were crying before you found us, something had happened. But it was too late you were out of the door. I told Cassie to get out and never speak to me again and she left. I was going to call your Nan but she would only worry about you, so I waited for you to come back. I started to clean up and a broken beer bottle slipped and well cut me, after that you know what happened. All I can say is it made me not feel anything, not guilty, not sad not nothing. I know you were really mad I know you were, I promised you and I broke that. Dad forced me back home literally, but Isabelle please come on tour with us, I promised I'd take you away from here and I intend to keep that promise, I won't leave you again just please trust me"

"Everything could have been so different Tony, so fucking different. I did like you I liked you a lot I just got so scared after the night we, you know. I panicked and ran, it was only when I talked to my Nan the night I ran off on you that she made me realise. However when I got back home it was too late"

"Isabelle please just let me prove it to you, come on tour with us"

Dipping my head low I desperately tried not to cry, I'd done enough of that to last me a lifetime. My head and heart were conflicted, my heart was screaming at me to go because deep down I hated to admit it but them feelings were still there. However my head was saying don't do you'll only end up hurting one another yet again.

"This doesn't mean we are friends ok Tony Perry, you have a lot to make up for"

"YAY THANK FUCK"

Shooting both our heads towards the door of the appartment we laughed, Mike, Jaime, Vic
and TJ were all jumping around like idiots. However out of the corner of my eye I noticed Hime's concerned glare, this was going to be a long fucking 3 months

Notes

Holy shit I have so much to say!

Firstly I am really really really sorry I took so damn long to update! I'm hopefully moving soon and sorting all that shit out has took up the most of my time. Plus I came to a block with this chapter so it is really not my best atm. If anyone wants to help me co-write message me please :)

I appreciate all the ratings/comments and subscribers in all that time though! Love you all :D