I woke up to an odd silence that lingered in the house, and the fact that Casey wasn't against me.
Oh no... It's coming...i can feel it. The sudden energy that allows me to run towards the bathroom and throw up nothing but liquid. Oh this life wasn't very suit for me, but hey no one but myself went to open my legs. Casey still doesn't know, it's actually been a lot easier to avoid drinking with the guys.
Vic, on the other hand is very cautious with me...he's always reminding me about taking care of myself.

Tony and I are not in very good terms, we've pretty much avoided each other for a month. It honestly kills me because it's like were strangers, but he knows my biggest secret...I've come to realize that he doesn't hate me as much as I would think because he hasnt spilled my beans. Mike is really on edge about my behavior but he's way to high to even figure out that I have someone growing inside me.

It's on odd feeling, knowing that you literally have someone inside of you. And everything that you do can affect him or her in every single way. Knowing that any little mistake and I can ruin it all for my child. I let myself down in a sense, I'm going to be 19 and already be a mother...Casey's a bit older and I don't think he even has had the thought of a baby, yet alone the subject has never been brought up between us.

I don't have plans on telling my father either, he's been a shitty father and I'm sure his ways wouldn't change with his first grandchild on the way. I'll let him find out by surprise. As I am leaned up against the toilet spitting up my damn soul, Casey walks in.
"Babe you okay?" He asked with worried eyes.
"Food poisoning I think" I managed to say with a raspy voice.
"Vic's the same way...no more Chinese food" he shook his head and he head up my hair and patted my back. Ugh if only he knew the real reason why I'm throwing up.

Scared, terrifed....mortified even to let him know we've created something, I'm not entirely sure how he will react. I'm scared he'll up and leave me to deal with it all alone. Hah...maybe I've seen one too many movies. I just don't want to fuck up...not this time. Regardless I have to suck it up and tell him before I start showing it a lot more and it starts to get around. Whether he stays or leaves I will toughen up for my baby. Plus I know he or she will have uncles who will love them unconditionally.

Wiping off off the slime from my lips, I coughed and gathered the strength to get up on my two feet.
I brushed my teeth and washed my face, loved the cool minty feeling in my poures. I walked down stairs to find Tony and Mike chatting at the table while eating and being on their phones. Tony looked up to me and rolled his eyes...I think he's fed up of me. Mike smiled and I smiled back. As I went down the stairs I realized that in a few months I would have a lot of trouble going up and down them.

Walking towards the kitchen I Tickled Vic from the back.
"Hey good morning" he chimed.
"Morning" I chimed back.
"How you feeling?" He asked in a low voice.
I chuckled a bit, but took a deep breath as the smell of pancakes didn't settle in very well.
"Hanging in their" I shrugged as I grabbed the lemonade out the fridge.

As I poured my juice and rested against the counter I decided I'd tell Mike first, then land the news to Casey on our own private time when he and I are out the house. How would I tell Mike without making things so obvious? Great, I didn't think this far ahead.
"You talking to yourself again?" Mike asked from behind me, causing me to jump.
"Huh?" I asked with furrowed eyebrows.
"You kept nodding your head and making these weird hand gestures" he chuckled.
"Sorry" I shrugged as I glided through him and made my way up the stairs

Prepare yourself Casey....you're about to get the biggest news of your life.

Notes

So Rose is about to tell Casey, predictions on his reaction?
Will he be happy? Sad? Angry?