Drink after dring after drnk after drink. Drinking dosen't make anything better. Shit, if anything it makes it worst. Yet here I am, going to get another drink. Drinking my life away...........Trying to drink my problems away.


I poured the remainder of the whisky out of the bottle and onto the cup. This is my third.....fourth.....fifth bottle. I think I'm officially an alcholic

It's been three days since I've sent the video on to them. I was going to kill myself that day. Then I looked online and saw that they cancled there shows because they quote "Have a family emergency to attend to and shows will be cancled into it is sorted out.

Now I don't know how to feel. Should I be happy that they care so much. Or should I be angry because I yet again has managed to cause people pain.

"That's I've done lately is caused pain." i whisper as tears roll down my face."You cause pain......you recive pain."

I walked to the bathroom, my blade was already sitting in the sink. I grabbed it and looked at my arms. I literally have no room to cut, every inch of my arm is covered with cuts.

"Well shit!" I yell out hitting the wall "I'll just burn myself then."


I walked to the kitchen and turned on the stove. I grabbed the metal stick and put it on the pellet. Once it was hot I engraved SM. I smiled as the metal sizzled against my skin. The sting sent shivers down my spine.

"Selfish Machine." I croaked "That's all I am is an selfsih machine."

I walked to the cabinet and grabbed yet again another bottle of alchol. my liver is going to have one hell of a night. I sit on the couch a take a swig. My throat burned as the harsh liquid slid down my throat.

"KNOWONE WANTS TO HERE YOUUUU, KNOWONE WANTS TO SEE YOUUUUU...." my cell phone rang

I starred at my phone. The past few days I haven't given a shit anytime my phone rang, but today is different. I have an urge to answer it. I pick it up and pressed talk

"Hello!"

Notes

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