I walked towards the park, dragging my feet.
Can I be anywhere but here? I asked.

I was constantly wiping the small tears from my eyes.
I had to pull myself together, before I lose it completely because I'm bound to go insane.

Just as little things started to look on the bright side, happiness wasn't going to last forever.
The streets seemed empty, or maybe I just imagined them that way.

The wind was blowing ever so lightly.
The sky was filled with fluffy marshmallow like clouds.
The crows soared through the sky.

Winter was always my favorite season, but I had a feeling it would haunt me forever.

I could see the park from afar.
Empty.

Thats what the park was, empty.

It made the scene even more saddening.

I reached the sidewalk of the park that led me to the dying green grass.
the rusted garbage cans, the semi broken signs.

I sat on table waiting on Tonys arrival.
I showed up earlier than the time we had actually planned to meet.

My mind needed free oxygen, inside I'm completely tearing apart everything I thought was happiness.
but I'm physically still and numb.
Just when I thought I had hope to believe in something or someone, I'm taken away from it all.

I couldn't wrap my head around what I was told.
after everything, why go back to repeat history.

I wanted this black hoodie I wore to suffocate me, take me away from the trouble that comes.

"Calm down Lissett" I kept repeating.
Sure it was pretty cold out, but everything I was feeling made me feel hot, I'm sure by now my cheeks had to be rosy.

I took deep breaths controlling everything inside my conscience.
i ended up throwing the hoodie off me, it sat directly across me on the grass.
or what was left of it.

My knees met my chest and dug my head into my arms.

"Babe?" A sweet voice interrupted.
I glanced up slowly to meet the happiness my world revolved around.
Tony.

"Hey" I smiled softly.
"Did I make you wait too long?" He asked, hugging me and kissing my cheek.
"No, I just got here like 10 minutes ago" I lied.
"Oh" he giggled.

He took a seat next to me, quickly going to hold my hand.
These moments, where I'd run for a while just to see him would be the moments I'd miss the most.

"Aren't you cold?" He questioned.
"Uh no, I actually like this weather" I smiled and leaned my head on this shoulder.
this is all I want, all I'm asking for...is to stay young with him and have no worries of the world.
Here in the moment of young love, nothing more.

"So what did you want to talk about?" He question, reminding me of the pain behind this meeting.
"Oh" I mumbled.

"Is everything okay? Did I do something bad?" He said.
"No, this is about me" I mumbled again.

"Oh, we'll take your time" he commented.
By now, my heart was pounding and my hands became shakey and my vision would get blurry.

No, I can't cry...at least not now...I'm too weak to speak...but I have to say it sooner or later.

Notes

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