Somebody Who Deserves You Most

First of all, Im sorry if you are none of said people in the invite. Please throw away this invite and we wont bother you. But if you are, I bet you're all wondering when this happened but I guess I dont know either, it just did. I also bet you're wondering why we've invited you, after nearly 2 years of not speaking or see we still consider you to be close friends of ours and nothing would make us happier if you came. You're still are bestfriends and Tony, somewhere, deep down, I still love you and I'd like if if you gave me away, nothing would make me happier, so if you're going to come please called me on 0894356728 so we can arrange things. I love you guys, so does Rebecca,
Emily xx

'Ok, I'm confused' Was all I could say, the sudden shock of this sure had sobered me up. 'I dont get it... What?'
'Your just as confused as us. We've thought about it and have decided to go, we'd understand if you didnt and Im sure the girls would too' Vic put his hand on my shoulder, reassuring me. I honestly cant think right now. The woman I love is getting to her best friend. I cant help but feel a little bit angry, I'd always wanted to be the one waiting at the end of the aisle, not the one walking her down it. But I should be happy that she's happy, right? wrong. How could I be happy? When she left my life went with her because she is my life. Nothing has ever meant to more to me then Emily. 'We'll leave you alone to think, call us when you've made up your mind' I said a simple goodbye as the 3 men left me house.
I kept reading the invite over and over again, it still hasnt quite sank in. I have to go though, I havent seen her in nearly 2 years, I havent even heard her voice. I pick up my phone and dial the number, after 4 rings she picks up. 'Hello?'
'Is this Emily?'
'Yes, it is. Who are you and how did you get my number? I tell you now, if you're another Pierce The Veil fan askin...' I cut her off.
'No, Emily, Its me, Tony'
'Oh my god, you actually called, I didnt think you would'
'Why wouldnt I? Congrats by the way, how did it happen? I mean, you and Rebecca'
'Well, after we left, she told me she was in love with and had been for a while' That would explain why they where so close 'And she asked me to be her girlfriend and I thought, you know what, why not and now, where enaged'
'Well thats awesome, Im happy for you two, you always had a special friendship' She signed down the phone, I heard moving and a door close on the other end. 'Your not though, I know your not Tony. You still love me and I still love you, somewhere inside I do' I tried taking all this in as she was talk but it doesnt seem really. 'To be honest I dont know but I love you and Rebecca. I have a soul mate and a best friend in the both of you, but I just so happened to choose the latter. Tony?'
'Yeah?'
'Will you walk me down the aisle? I know I asked on the invite but it feels better to as this way. Since I always saw you at the end of the aisle, I at least want you to walk me down it, nothing would make me feel better'

'Of course I will! I always saw the same though.'
'Im miss you Tony. I really, really do'
'I miss you too'
'I've got to go, call me again tomorrow, I love you Tony'
'I love you too' and the line went dead. If I was confused before then god know what I am now. She still loves me and I still love her, then why is she marrying Rebecca? Hearing her voice again brought back all the memories I thought I'd drunk out of my system. The voice that head turned into my conscience was just on the other side of the phone. Im completely shock, did I say that already? I just, I mean, I dont even know any more. I text Vic telling him I was going, he seemed shocked but happy.
As the memories began to pile back into me head, I began to cry. I cant tell if its happy crying or what but its crying nether the less. Through the memories I get one thought. My legs carry me up stairs and to the bedroom we shared, I havent been able to step inside since she left, the felt eerie without her here, It felt dark and empty and the only noise I could hear was the beating of my heart I'd once thought she'd taken with her. She brightened up this room, this house even, its nothing without her. I pull open the wardrobe and pull out something I thought Id never be able to bring myself to touch again, Her guitar. I bring it over to the bed and sit with it in my lap. I havent slept in this bed either since she left. After a little tuning, its ready to play. And I play the first song I ever played to her, the first song that we played together. You had me at hello by blink 182.

After I played the last line. I laid back in the bed and cried until I drifted into a deep sleep. The only proper sleep I've had since she left.

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