“Not going to share this one, Austin?” Alan winked at me and I looked down at Austin’s mop of brown hair. I didn’t want to ask but I knew I had to.

“What does he mean?”

“He’s talking about us with the same girl.” He raised his eyebrows and I knew he didn’t need to elaborate what they did together.

“Oh.” I frowned and slipped from his lap and got under the sheets. “I’d like to sleep now.”
“Taylor…” Austin reached out and I could see myself glistening on his fingers still. I blushed in shame. I’ve never done something like that and I hated myself even more.

“Leave, Austin.” I said and made a point of turning over and lying down. I heard him sigh and he left the bedroom. The light was switched off and I heard the conversation outside on the stairs.

“Why aren’t you sharing her?” Alan whined.

“She’s…different, Alan. I don’t know why. I can’t explain.”

“Is it because she’s a cutter?” I cringed as I heard that statement. It made me want to crawl up in a ball and die.

“No! It’s not because of that. She’s not like the other girls.”

“Oh, so she wasn’t letting you get her off then? You’re saying if you offered to fuck her she would say no?”

“Shut up.” Austin hissed.

“Come on, Austin. They only want your dick.”

“I said shut up.” I could hear the fury in Austin’s voice and I had to get out of bed. Alan said something that I didn’t hear but when I opened the door Austin was going to punch him.

“Stop it.” I said and grabbed his forearm. He turned to me and I flinched at the rage in his eyes. It almost immediately disappeared when he saw me. “Don’t hit your best friend.”

“He’s an asshole.” Austin glared at Alan who was looking at us. I ignored him and reached up to cup Austin’s face in my hands and made him look down at me.

“Ignore him. Please, for me?”

“Why are you going to leave me tomorrow? I wish you could stay with me.” Austin whispered before he rested his head on my shoulder and placed a kiss there.

“When you’re back in London I’ll come see you again. Promise.”

“Come finish our tour with us.”

“I can’t. I have college.” I would love to take him up on his offer but I needed to complete my college course before I could get anywhere in my miserable life. “You need to sleep. So do I.”
I urged his head up and turned back into the bedroom and closed the door on his frowning face. I crawled into bed and closed my eyes. I couldn’t sleep very well because I had a certain brown eyed man on my mind.

***

I woke up and rolled into a warm bed. I was instantly awake. I pushed myself up in the bed and stared at Austin’s sleeping body then at the clock. Six am.

I turned to back Austin. His mouth was open and little snores were coming from his body. I crawled from the bed and into the robe beside me. I noticed Austin’s lounge pants on the floor beside the bed. That must mean he was naked. The temptation to slip the sheets lower and take my fill of his naked body was huge but I didn’t.

I quickly rushed from the bedroom and down the stairs. The only one awake was Phil and he was on the phone.

“I love you too, baby.” Phil smiled at me as he hung his phone up. “Izzie, we’ve been together for almost four years now.”

“Congratulations. I’ve been with myself for eighteen years.” I joked and opened the fridge. Orange juice was sitting in the side so I grabbed it and poured a glass before passing the box to Phil.

“We’re not allowed to drink that. It’s Alan’s.”

“So?” I said as I took a sip and sat on the leather sofa.

“We’re supposed to buy our own food and shit. Since Alan has this weird thing about sharing food then we’re not allowed to touch his stuff.” Phil explained as he put the box back in the fridge.

“I’m only here for another hour or so then I’m back home.”

“Not if Austin had his way.”

“Huh?” I turned to Phil who’d sat next to me. He was a little shorter than Austin and had past the shoulder length dark hair. His eyes were dark too and he seemed to always have a grin on his face.

“Austin’s really taken a liking to you.”

“Probably a pity case.” I didn’t want to delve deeper into my inner demons so I decided to change the subject. “Why is he in the bed? I thought he said he’d be sleeping on the sofa.”

“The poor guy couldn’t sleep. We offered ours beds to him but he said he’d only be able to sleep in his bed.”

“He’s naked.”

“He sleeps naked.” Phil answered with a smirk. “You like him.”

“No I don’t.” I denied and looked out the bus window. They could see out but we couldn’t see in. Like my soul. I felt like my demons were screaming to be let out and only I could see them but no one else could.

“Don’t worry. He wouldn’t hurt you.” Phil placed a comforting hand on my shoulder with his ever present smile. Austin stumbled down the stairs, scratching him stomach with only one eye open.

“Someone isn’t a morning person.” I said in a sing-song voice to him.

“You’re drinking Alan’s juice.” He grumbled and sat on the sofa beside me. Phil stood and placed two pieces of bread in the toaster. A few moments later it was placed on the table in front of Austin. He took the glass away from me and drank some of the juice before licking his lips. My eyes tracked the movement and he grinned at me.

“You know I love you, Phil.”

“Of course you do, Aus.” Phil stretched his back before opening one of the many cupboards in the bus and heading to the bathroom with clothes in hand.

“So they’re like your slaves?”

“Huh? No. I and Phil have known each other since kindergarten. I’m hopeless near electronics and I can’t cook for shit.” Austin wiped the crumbs from his cheeks and smiled his cheeky smile. “I hope you didn’t mind seeing me in bed this morning.”

“It is your bed.”

“True.” Austin nodded and stood again. “Would you like some breakfast?”

“No, thank you. I need to get home.”
Inner me, I know you are killing me from inside.
“I was waiting for that.” Austin whispered and knelt in front of me, his hands reaching under the gown and stroking the bandages. “Can’t I convince you to stay?”

Notes

Title Cred : Of Mice & Men

This is my first fanfic that I've ever published. Is it good? Ahh I dunno :I On the other hand I love writing it so tell me what you like don't like?