“Alex! How are you, dude?” Austin hugged Alex Gaskarth and I almost melted to be honest. Two of the hottest men hugging was so damn sexy.

“Not bad, man. I’ve heard a lot about your girl. Finally nice to meet her.” Alex stepped away from Austin and gave me a hug. I hugged back and saw someone bouncing up behind Alex.

“Pictures do not do you justice, honey.”

I blushed and smiled up at Austin who was smiling down at me.

“Alex we’re not Talex. We’re supposed to be Jalex.” Jack Barakat pouted at me and Alex. Alex turned with a laugh and hugged Jack.

“Don’t be a pussy, Jack.” The cameras demanded Alex and Jack’s attention so I shuffled away and bumped into another person.

“Fuck.”

“What polite language, Taylor I believe?” I looked at the checked shirt in front of me then looked up.

“You’re Oli Sykes.”

“I sure am. You’re Taylor right? Austin’s girlfriend…or fiancée I see.” His eyes were drawn to the hand that was brushing through my hair. I snapped it down and fiddled with the ring.

“Please don’t tell anyone.”

“Secret is safe with me. Want to get in the booth?” He pointed to the picture booth over in the corner and I nodded. He pulled me inside at the same time another man jumped into it. I landed on their lap.

“Shit, sorry.” Vic Fuentes.

“Taylor! Nice to meet you.” He kissed me on the cheek and shuffled over with me on his lap so Oli could get inside. I tried to stand but he put his hands on my waist. “You’re fine there, dear.”

“Smile!” Oli pushed the button and I smiled. We ended up making stupid faces by the time the four pictures had been taken. I slipped out of the booth laughing my head off. I tripped over the ledge and into Austin’s arms.

“Having fun?” He grinned at me and I nodded.

“Austin get in here!” Vic yelled from inside. He kissed my cheek before climbing in the purple booth. I leant against the wall and took a deep breath. Someone tapped me on the shoulder and I turned to look at them.

“Hi, I’m Gustav Wood.”

“I know. You’re the lead singer in Young Guns. I’ve seen you live.”

“I thought I recognized you from somewhere. I think I fell on you and the people you were with.”

“Heh, yeah you did. It was a great night though.” I smiled at him and he smiled back. I heard Austin laugh in the booth and lifted my foot up.

“Do you want to sit down? Those shoes, amazing looking as they are, look like they’re hurting a bit.”

“Yes. Where do I go?”

“Follow me?” He held his arm out and I wrapped mine around his. He led me inside and into the room full with about fifty tables. He lead me to the table he was situated and I met the rest of the band.

We were talking about them doing their next tour when Austin put his hands on my shoulder. I jumped and looked at him.

“You scared me.” I said.

“Ditto. I didn’t know where you’d disappeared to. I don’t who you went with.” His hands gently squeezed my shoulders as he glared at Gus.

“Sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you.”

“Come, we’ve got to take out seats. They’re about to start.”

“It was lovely meeting all of you.” I waved to them and Austin led me to the table with the rest of the band. I sat down with a frown. I felt Austin was unhappy with me.

“Are you okay?”

“Fine. I just didn’t like not finding you outside when I came out of the booth. Or finding pictures of you and Oli practically kissing…” His fist was bunched on the table and I rested my hand over his even as he pulled the offending pictures from his jacket pocket and tossed them on the table in front of me.

“We were just having fun and we weren’t actually kissing.”

“I know how much you like him.” He growled and I stood before sitting on his lap with a frown at him.

“You honestly think I’d cheat on you?” I frowned at him as the rest of the band emerged at the table.

“Taylor…” he buried his face in my chest and sighed.

“Do you?”

“No.” He mumbled against my breasts. I stood and sat down on his lap before he bent across and kissed me gently with a smile.

“I love you.”

“I love you, too.”

“Good.” He winked and sat back in the chair. The room was filled with so many famous people I didn’t know where to look. Once it got to the Best International Newcomer I was holding onto Austin’s hand. His band was up for this.

“And the winner is…”

“Kiss me.” He said as he turned to me. I kissed him as soon as the announcer said who had won.

“Of Mice & Men.” He pulled away with huge grin and the rest of the table was practically screaming. They all stood up and made their way to the stage. It wasn’t long before they came back and Austin was holding a giant letter K in his hand.

“Congratulations, Austin.” I whispered as he sat next to me. It was a short while later that all the awards were handed out and someone tapped Austin on the shoulder. It was a blonde lady, she looked pretty enough and wasn’t interested in Austin I could see that because she kept looking at Alan.

“Yes?”

“Is it possible to borrow you for an interview?”

Austin turned to look at me and I smiled at him and nodded. He kissed my cheek and pulled Alan closer with a warning look at him and then a look in Oli’s direction.

“Keep an eye on her for me.”

“Not a problem, buddy.” Alan saluted Austin as he walked away. He slung his arm around my shoulder and grinned down at me. “Was last night good?”

“Alan!” I blushed and looked down at my feet.

“Come on. I won’t tell anyone.”

“It was amazing.” I blushed even harder as he smiled at me. He gently tugged on my hand and I followed him to a room. I spotted Austin sitting on a leather sofa as the woman asked him questions. He would smile occasionally and then nod a few times.

“Come on. You’ll hear him if you come closer.” Alan tugged me again by my hand and we stood behind the giant speaker that was in the room.

“So, tell us about the new album?”

“Well, it’s a follow-up to the flood so expect it to be ground breaking.” Austin smiled and fingered the silver K that was sitting in front of him.

“We expect it to be. Will you explain this picture to us?” A picture of us came up on screen and then a zoomed in shot next to it showed my engagement ring. I clutched Alan’s arm and he rubbed my arm in comfort.

“Don’t worry about it.” Alan whispered.

“Come out, Taylor.” Austin said and crooked his finger at me. I shook my head and he stood up. He bent down and hoisted me over his shoulder. I squealed and hit at his back but he just laughed at me. He swung me around in a wedding hold and sat down on the sofa. I tried to get off his lap but his hand clamped on my waist.

“So? Will you explain?” The pretty blonde smiled at me and I bit my bottom lip and looked to Austin to explain.

“It’s exactly what it looks like. We’re getting married.” He turned to look at me before brushing his knuckles down my cheek.

“You’re a very quiet girl, Taylor.”

“No one usually wants to hear my opinions so I keep quiet.” I smiled at her and she looked over at Alan again. I fiddled with a button on Austin’s shirt as he kissed the side of my head.

“I love you.” He whispered in my ear.

“Ditto.”

“Are you happy that you landed one of the best looking rock stars this year?” She asked.

“Why wouldn’t I be happy? I should be ecstatic that he even settled for me.” I fiddled with a bracelet on my wrist as the interviewer frowned at me.

“You shouldn’t say that about yourself.” Alan popped his head around the corner to say.
“Why not? It’s true. Look at him and then look at me.”

“You’re stunning. Austin is so fucking lucky to have you.” I looked up at the unrecognised voice and frowned at him. Mike Fuentes stood next to his brother in the doorway. He had a whiskey in his hands and was holding the award his band had won earlier tonight.

“He’s right you know. Any of us would love for you to be ours.” I turned my head again to see Oli Sykes standing there.

“Well you’re all wrong.” I stood and toed my shoes off. “Who would want someone who does this to themselves?”

I reached under my dress and pulled the tights off to reveal all of the scars that were over my legs. I even licked my finger and wiped some of the foundation I’d put on my arms to cover a particularly hideous scar.

“I’m a freak.” I wanted to shout but my eyes welled up with tears and it ended up coming out as a whisper. Austin stood up so fast that the chair pushed back a few inches. He stood in front of me and clasped my face in his hands. Rage was fanning a fire in his eyes and I found it hard to look away from him.

“Don’t talk like that. Ever. You’re amazing and beautiful and everyone here thinks so too. Why can’t you get that through your head, Taylor? I wouldn’t be with you if I didn’t think that. You’re everything to me. Everything.”

“Why? I’m a mess.” I wiped my eye with my finger and a tissue appeared from over Austin’s shoulder. I took it and wiped my eyes.

“We’ve all been there.” Oli walked up to me and lifted his shirt to show me his stomach. All I saw was tattoos at first but then I looked a little closer and noticed the scars across his stomach and then he lifted his shirt sleeve up and I saw the raised scars under his tattoos.

“Me too.” I looked over and noticed Vic and dropped his trousers. Dozens of scars littered his thighs and one looked especially nasty.

“I was a drunk.” Danny Worsnop popped into the room and smiled at me.

“I get panic attacks.” Alex said. The small interview room was getting crowded and I felt embarrassed. All of these stars had problems and I was making an idiot out of myself.

“I suffer depression and tried to kill myself a few times.” Gerard Way popped his head in to say and smiled. “I and my wife think you’re very beautiful. What do you think Bandit?”

I watched as a little girl came rushing towards me and hugged the bottom of my legs with a smile.

“I think you’re pretty. I want to look like you.” She smiled and ran away to her daddy with a smile.

“I have bulimia.” I saw a blonde head peek out from behind Danny before Juliet Simms stood in the room. I wasn’t surprised to hear she had an eating disorder with how skinny she was.

“All of these people have been where you are, Taylor. I love you so please don’t put yourself down. You’re perfect. You’re getting better.” Austin said.

“I’d fuck you.” Danny grinned and then winked. I blushed and looked away up at Austin. He stroked his hand down my cheek with a smile.

“If you touch my girl I will shoot you in the fucking balls, Worsnop.” Austin glared at Danny and he just smirked.

“She probably wouldn’t go near me with a barge pole.”

“I would. You’re a really handsome guy.” I smiled as I sat on the chair and rolled my tights up my thighs again. When I looked up all the guys were looking at me. I frowned and tucked a stray piece of hair behind my ear.

“We weren’t looking at your scars.” Oli cleared his throat as Austin put a protective arm around my shoulder.

“Personally I was looking at what a good rack you had when you were bending over.” Danny winked and I glared at me.

“Okay you’re kind of a douche.” I put my shoes on and stood.

“It was the legs I was looking at. You’ve got a nice pair.” Alex leant against the speaker with a smile. I couldn’t be angry at him. He was too cute. Kind of looked like a chipmunk.

“Stop being perverts.” Austin pulled me closer to him with a glare at all of the guys in the room. I ran my hand across his back and put my hand in the back of his jeans.

Notes

Title Cred: Papa Roach

Ahh, I dunno what to write here. Hi lalalala :P