Too Young To Live This Way
Clothes On The Floor, And Your Eyes Are On Me
I stood and he wrapped his arm around my shoulders before walking me outside. Not before I caught a glimpse of Alan and the blonde going at it on the sofa. I watched for a moments before Austin gave my hand a pull.
“Sorry.” I whispered.
“No worries. He’s something to watch when he gets going.” Austin smiled at me and I smiled back. We walked to the little café. Austin was lead to the back and we sat on the stairs waiting for the interviewer. When she arrived a camera was set up and I stood up allowing the tattooed woman to take my place.
I stood off to the side and watched. They were halfway through the interview with Austin laughing and joking. The interviewer kept touching him and I felt angry. He was mine no other woman should be touching him.
When Austin didn’t make an attempt to stop her I knew I had to leave before I got really angry at them both. I slid down the alley and onto the street. I wasn’t sure where I was going to go but I had to get away from Austin. I was in Pensacola. This was where Austin was born.
I walked down the street with my hands in my pockets and kept my head down. I didn’t know if anyone would recognize me and I didn’t want the attention my way. I ended up at the beach. The sand was lovely, almost white.
I slipped my shoes off and sat on the hot sand. The sand sunk between my toes as I wiggled them. There were many deck chairs dotted around the beach but I liked where I was. I was under the wall so no one could see me.
I didn’t know how long I was there but my phone had rung multiple times, each call from Austin. Seven texts too, all asking me where I was. I just needed to be alone for a while. I was so used to be alone that it was different now.
The sun was slowly starting to set so I knew I had been her for a long time. I didn’t want to move though. I heard a commotion above me and I craned my head to look up. It was Austin, Alan, Phil, Tino and Aaron.
“She couldn’t have gone far, Aus.” Phil said to him and placed a comforting hand on his shoulder.
“She must be getting cold by now.” Austin said and shoved his hands in his pockets. I winced because I could see how worried he was. I knew I needed to let them know I was here. The next words stopped me though.
“What if she’s gone? She can’t leave me now.” I watched as a tear slipped down his cheek and he put a hand over his heart. I’d seen him do that when he was worried. I stood and brushed the sand from my butt and picked my shoes up.
“Austin!” I shouted up and he looked over the wall. He smiled and jumped off the wall before hugging me so tight I dropped my shoes. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders. He was shaking so hard. I felt so bad. “Austin.”
“Why did you fucking leave?” he stepped back and I saw the anger in his stare.
“Oh, maybe because you were practically eye-fucking the interviewer.” I pushed away from him and walked further down the beach.
“Taylor. Stop.” He chased after me and tried to grab my wrist. I pulled away from him.
“I get it. You’re famous. You’re not going to settle down so…I just want to go home.” I looked away from him as I felt him run his hand down my arm.
“Please don’t go.” Austin pulled me to his chest and I wanted to resist. I really did but I couldn’t. He made me feel safe. Like nothing could touch us. “Please don’t leave me.”
“I’m no good for you.”
“You’re fucking perfect for me. I saw the inbox.” I sniffled as I realised I must have left my Tumblr logged on. He rubbed his nose against my neck. “I love you, Taylor. The interviewer was a bitch. I told her after that I was in love with my perfect girl and that I never wanted anyone else.”
“That’s what you said about Gielle.”
“I know I’m right this time. Trust me.”
“Promise?”
“Forever with every single beat of my broken heart.”
“I’m sorry.” I said as I turned to face him. His eyes were so sad and I felt terrible. I kissed his chest and felt his heart under my lips. I vowed to myself I would have that tattooed on me. He pulled me closer and kissed me. I kissed him back.
When I looked back up to the wall I saw Alan had a video camera in his hands. I frowned up at him
“What is he doing?”
“That’s my video camera. I was going to make a video of us. To take on tour with me when you’re not with me. So I can see your face whenever I’m thinking of you.” Austin reached up and cupped my face and kissed me again. We made our way back up to the wall and Austin took the camera from Alan.
He held it above him and whispered to me. “I love you.”
“I love you, too.” I kissed his cheek and smiled before batting the camera away. He hugged me tightly as we walked to his home. Everyone had said they were happy to have found me and left to their own homes.
“Would you let me film us having sex?” Austin asked as we closed the door to the house.
“What? No!”
“Why not?” Austin pouted and put the camera on the table. “What about when you are sucking me off?”
“No. They always end up online.” I kicked my shoes off again and sat on the sofa with my feet on the coffee t able. Austin still had his pout on and he came and climbed above me. He put his knees either side of my hips and supported his weight on them. With him being 6’4 I had crane my neck up slightly to see his face.
“I promise it would be for my eyes only. Swear my life on it.” Austin ran his fingernails through my hair and I made a moaning sound. It sent tingles of pleasure down my spine. I glared up at him and he smirked at me.
“I’ll think about it.”
“Mm, I love seeing your pretty lips stretched around my cock.” He husked in my ear and stroked a finger down my zipper. I shivered and glared at him as I flushed at the same time.
“Do you know who you’re going on tour with next?” I asked trying to distract him from trying to get dirty with me. I wanted to but I feared that we hadn’t spoken much.
“Yep. We’re going with Bring Me the Horizon.”
“Oh God! Will you come get me on Thursday? So I can come with you. Please.” I was so excited that they were going to be touring with them because then I may actually have a chance of seeing another of my favourite bands play live. And then possibly meet Oli.
Austin swung over me and sat beside me. He nodded and I saw him frown.
“What?”
“Nothing.”
“You’re lying to me.”
“I know you like Oli.” Austin looked straight at the TV and I curled up beside him. He wrapped his arm around me and I hugged closer to him.
“Now you know what I was feeling.”
“So you’re not denying that you like him?”
“No, I’m not. I can look at them but I will never touch.” I fingered the zipper on his hoodie. I didn’t even realise he’d put one on until now. He kissed my hair and I unzipped his jacket. His black shirt was stretched tight across his stomach and I reached my hand under it.
“Then we’re going with Paramore.” I frowned into his jacket. I hated that woman and I don’t know why. She’s seems perfectly nice but she also hit on every male member of every band. I knew she’d tried it on with Austin before.
“Do you like her?”
“Who? Hayley?”
“Yeah.”
“No. She tried to fuck me at Warped but I wasn’t having any of it.” Austin stroked my hair and I stroked his stomach.
“I know nothing about you.” I said.
“Of course you do.”
“No, I know the public Austin Carlile. I don’t know the private one.”
“What do you want to know?”
“I’ve seen that game in your cupboard.”
“What game?”
Instead of answering him I stood up and opened one of the cupboards in the living room and pulled a board game out. Get to know your partner. I tossed the game on the coffee table and sat crossed legged on the floor. He smirked at me and sat the opposite side. It was simple roll the dice game and take a card.
I rolled and took one of the cards before reading the question out. “What is your first memory?”
“I was lying in bed and I’d just woken up from a nightmare. My Mom came in the bedroom followed by my dad. My dad was wearing this red cape around his shoulders. He told me that he was going to be my superhero and that no evil monsters would ever touch me again.”
Austin smiled as he recalled that memory. He picked a card up and grinned. “Who was your first kiss with?”
“You.”
“Really?”
“Yep.”
“Awesome.” I smiled shyly and rolled the dice. I picked the card up and licked my lips nervously. “Wh…What is your favourite thing to do…in bed?”
“Hah. I’d have to say…fucking and going down on you. I mean everyone says they love fucking because they do but I love the taste.”
“I wouldn’t know.”
“Mm, my little virgin.” Austin knocked the cards away and jumped over the table. I squeaked as he pushed me onto the floor and straddled my stomach. “Wanna fix it?”
“Fix what?”
“Your virginity. Want it gone?”
“Yes. Not yet though.”
“I’m not putting any pressure of you, angel.” Austin nuzzled my chest and licked his lips. “How old were you when you started?”
“Fourteen.” I whispered into his hair. He nodded and unconsciously rubbed one of the scars on my arms. I watched his lift my hoodie and shirt and kiss my stomach again. I stroked his hair and he sat back up and kissed me gently. “Will you sing for me?”
“Anything you want.”
“Sorry.” I whispered.
“No worries. He’s something to watch when he gets going.” Austin smiled at me and I smiled back. We walked to the little café. Austin was lead to the back and we sat on the stairs waiting for the interviewer. When she arrived a camera was set up and I stood up allowing the tattooed woman to take my place.
I stood off to the side and watched. They were halfway through the interview with Austin laughing and joking. The interviewer kept touching him and I felt angry. He was mine no other woman should be touching him.
When Austin didn’t make an attempt to stop her I knew I had to leave before I got really angry at them both. I slid down the alley and onto the street. I wasn’t sure where I was going to go but I had to get away from Austin. I was in Pensacola. This was where Austin was born.
I walked down the street with my hands in my pockets and kept my head down. I didn’t know if anyone would recognize me and I didn’t want the attention my way. I ended up at the beach. The sand was lovely, almost white.
I slipped my shoes off and sat on the hot sand. The sand sunk between my toes as I wiggled them. There were many deck chairs dotted around the beach but I liked where I was. I was under the wall so no one could see me.
I didn’t know how long I was there but my phone had rung multiple times, each call from Austin. Seven texts too, all asking me where I was. I just needed to be alone for a while. I was so used to be alone that it was different now.
The sun was slowly starting to set so I knew I had been her for a long time. I didn’t want to move though. I heard a commotion above me and I craned my head to look up. It was Austin, Alan, Phil, Tino and Aaron.
“She couldn’t have gone far, Aus.” Phil said to him and placed a comforting hand on his shoulder.
“She must be getting cold by now.” Austin said and shoved his hands in his pockets. I winced because I could see how worried he was. I knew I needed to let them know I was here. The next words stopped me though.
“What if she’s gone? She can’t leave me now.” I watched as a tear slipped down his cheek and he put a hand over his heart. I’d seen him do that when he was worried. I stood and brushed the sand from my butt and picked my shoes up.
“Austin!” I shouted up and he looked over the wall. He smiled and jumped off the wall before hugging me so tight I dropped my shoes. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders. He was shaking so hard. I felt so bad. “Austin.”
“Why did you fucking leave?” he stepped back and I saw the anger in his stare.
“Oh, maybe because you were practically eye-fucking the interviewer.” I pushed away from him and walked further down the beach.
“Taylor. Stop.” He chased after me and tried to grab my wrist. I pulled away from him.
“I get it. You’re famous. You’re not going to settle down so…I just want to go home.” I looked away from him as I felt him run his hand down my arm.
“Please don’t go.” Austin pulled me to his chest and I wanted to resist. I really did but I couldn’t. He made me feel safe. Like nothing could touch us. “Please don’t leave me.”
“I’m no good for you.”
“You’re fucking perfect for me. I saw the inbox.” I sniffled as I realised I must have left my Tumblr logged on. He rubbed his nose against my neck. “I love you, Taylor. The interviewer was a bitch. I told her after that I was in love with my perfect girl and that I never wanted anyone else.”
“That’s what you said about Gielle.”
“I know I’m right this time. Trust me.”
“Promise?”
“Forever with every single beat of my broken heart.”
“I’m sorry.” I said as I turned to face him. His eyes were so sad and I felt terrible. I kissed his chest and felt his heart under my lips. I vowed to myself I would have that tattooed on me. He pulled me closer and kissed me. I kissed him back.
When I looked back up to the wall I saw Alan had a video camera in his hands. I frowned up at him
“What is he doing?”
“That’s my video camera. I was going to make a video of us. To take on tour with me when you’re not with me. So I can see your face whenever I’m thinking of you.” Austin reached up and cupped my face and kissed me again. We made our way back up to the wall and Austin took the camera from Alan.
He held it above him and whispered to me. “I love you.”
“I love you, too.” I kissed his cheek and smiled before batting the camera away. He hugged me tightly as we walked to his home. Everyone had said they were happy to have found me and left to their own homes.
“Would you let me film us having sex?” Austin asked as we closed the door to the house.
“What? No!”
“Why not?” Austin pouted and put the camera on the table. “What about when you are sucking me off?”
“No. They always end up online.” I kicked my shoes off again and sat on the sofa with my feet on the coffee t able. Austin still had his pout on and he came and climbed above me. He put his knees either side of my hips and supported his weight on them. With him being 6’4 I had crane my neck up slightly to see his face.
“I promise it would be for my eyes only. Swear my life on it.” Austin ran his fingernails through my hair and I made a moaning sound. It sent tingles of pleasure down my spine. I glared up at him and he smirked at me.
“I’ll think about it.”
“Mm, I love seeing your pretty lips stretched around my cock.” He husked in my ear and stroked a finger down my zipper. I shivered and glared at him as I flushed at the same time.
“Do you know who you’re going on tour with next?” I asked trying to distract him from trying to get dirty with me. I wanted to but I feared that we hadn’t spoken much.
“Yep. We’re going with Bring Me the Horizon.”
“Oh God! Will you come get me on Thursday? So I can come with you. Please.” I was so excited that they were going to be touring with them because then I may actually have a chance of seeing another of my favourite bands play live. And then possibly meet Oli.
Austin swung over me and sat beside me. He nodded and I saw him frown.
“What?”
“Nothing.”
“You’re lying to me.”
“I know you like Oli.” Austin looked straight at the TV and I curled up beside him. He wrapped his arm around me and I hugged closer to him.
“Now you know what I was feeling.”
“So you’re not denying that you like him?”
“No, I’m not. I can look at them but I will never touch.” I fingered the zipper on his hoodie. I didn’t even realise he’d put one on until now. He kissed my hair and I unzipped his jacket. His black shirt was stretched tight across his stomach and I reached my hand under it.
“Then we’re going with Paramore.” I frowned into his jacket. I hated that woman and I don’t know why. She’s seems perfectly nice but she also hit on every male member of every band. I knew she’d tried it on with Austin before.
“Do you like her?”
“Who? Hayley?”
“Yeah.”
“No. She tried to fuck me at Warped but I wasn’t having any of it.” Austin stroked my hair and I stroked his stomach.
“I know nothing about you.” I said.
“Of course you do.”
“No, I know the public Austin Carlile. I don’t know the private one.”
“What do you want to know?”
“I’ve seen that game in your cupboard.”
“What game?”
Instead of answering him I stood up and opened one of the cupboards in the living room and pulled a board game out. Get to know your partner. I tossed the game on the coffee table and sat crossed legged on the floor. He smirked at me and sat the opposite side. It was simple roll the dice game and take a card.
I rolled and took one of the cards before reading the question out. “What is your first memory?”
“I was lying in bed and I’d just woken up from a nightmare. My Mom came in the bedroom followed by my dad. My dad was wearing this red cape around his shoulders. He told me that he was going to be my superhero and that no evil monsters would ever touch me again.”
Austin smiled as he recalled that memory. He picked a card up and grinned. “Who was your first kiss with?”
“You.”
“Really?”
“Yep.”
“Awesome.” I smiled shyly and rolled the dice. I picked the card up and licked my lips nervously. “Wh…What is your favourite thing to do…in bed?”
“Hah. I’d have to say…fucking and going down on you. I mean everyone says they love fucking because they do but I love the taste.”
“I wouldn’t know.”
“Mm, my little virgin.” Austin knocked the cards away and jumped over the table. I squeaked as he pushed me onto the floor and straddled my stomach. “Wanna fix it?”
“Fix what?”
“Your virginity. Want it gone?”
“Yes. Not yet though.”
“I’m not putting any pressure of you, angel.” Austin nuzzled my chest and licked his lips. “How old were you when you started?”
“Fourteen.” I whispered into his hair. He nodded and unconsciously rubbed one of the scars on my arms. I watched his lift my hoodie and shirt and kiss my stomach again. I stroked his hair and he sat back up and kissed me gently. “Will you sing for me?”
“Anything you want.”
Notes
Title Cred: Sleeping With SirensWhat's Austin going to sing to her? You'll have to find out tomorrow because it's almost 1am and I'm tired. 200 views. I love you guys!
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10/28/16