As I sat in my chair in the classroom, I glanced around the room with a look of pure boredom etched on my face.Ms Day going on about something or other to do with science that I really didn’t care about. My best friends chatted happily while I sat behind them, there but not really there. My mind wandered, as it usually did in class when I wasn’t distracted. I shook my self out of my reverie. I shouldn’t think like that again. Especially not at school. Hannah turned around and beamed at me brightly as she and Lily involved me in their conversation. I didn’t hate life like this. Pretending to be blissfully ignorant of everything going on, letting people think I have not a care in the world. But I didn’t like it either.

Fourth period finished and we all piled out of the classroom in a hurry, eager to escape the clutches of learning, even just for a little while. Lily and I walked together as our lockers were in the same direction, briefly breaking to go to the separate areas.
After shoving my books in my locker and loudly closing it, I made my way over to Lily.
“Whaddup Cassie?” Lily asked putting on a voice and waggling her eyebrows at me.
“Looking at some retard being a dickhead.” I laughed. She scoffed and assured me she’s amazing. Days spent like this were great. Acting as if we had not a care in the world and only worrying about what class we had next period. Lily and I walked down to the front of the gym where our group always sat. We were the last to get there and everyone was laughing about something or other when we arrived.

I sat down with Lily on my left and Hannah on my right, Jenna across from me, Emily next to Lily and Jamie next to Hannah. Jenna and I had our usual banter of horrendous Swag jokes and laughing at each other and our conversations full of laughing at our own detriments.
A few of the girls looked at me, as once again I hadn’t brought food for either breaks. I threw the attention off me by laughing at the way Lily at her chips.
Hannah threw me a look as If she knew what I was doing and I ignored it.
I didn’t need to feel self conscious about it if I made it seem like nothing.

Lily, Jenna and Emily announced they needed to pee and Hannah and I decided to stay where we were. I did everything I could to avoid that subject, I was thankful for Hannah not to bring it up. She was good like that, usually over facebook telling me if I don’t eat she’ll shove food down my throat.
Eventually lunch finished and we all went off in pairs or by ourselves.
Lily, Emily and I walked together to our lockers.
I let out a very loud and exaggerated groan.
“I have Food tech, I don’t wanna go!” I complained. Lily and Emily laughed at me.
“Umm mate, we have French, honestly the worst class with Mr. Morse.” Emily explained.I laughed and said my goodbye’s till tomorrow as I wouldn’t see them till then.

As I came to my locker my best friend pounced on me.
“We have Food~” He drawled. I laughed at him.
“You don’t say?!” I retorted sarcastically.

He punched me and we walked towards classroom together.
“So Nath, how’s the girlfriend going?” I asked teasingly. He rolled his eyes.
“Being bitchy and stupid as usual. How’s your boyfriend? Oh wait!” He teased.
I glared daggers at him. He doesn’t realise that just by saying that, it made me think of him.
“You wanna punch?” I threatened.
“From you? Oh yes!” He laughed and I delivered a weak blow.

Class drawled on for what seemed like forever, I truly hate this class. Funnily enough I chose it, bad choice I guess. Finally the bell rang and everyone literally bolted out the door, ignoring our teacher. I walked speedily down the hallways, trying to get to my bus as quickly as possible so that I could get a seat on my bus.
As I jumped on I sighed annoyidly, Nathan appearing behind me as we walked down the aisle.
“Twelvies sitting way to far back, so annoying.” Nathan commented, annoyance laced through out his voice. I laughed and agreed.
I sat down in the same seat I always do, opened up my bag, grabbed my ipod and started listening to music while staring out the window. Same routine a usual. Sometimes I’d think during this time, sometimes my mind just wandered or was blank.

I got home and walked to my room and got changed into black jeans, a grey shirt then a blue hoodie over top and sat down by the heater. I don’t like when I get home. The thoughts start up. The feeling of blissful ignorance starts to fade and I feel empty again. School keeps me distracted, it forces me to keep the façade up. Mum and Dad know clearly something’s wrong.
They know what too, and for parents, they’re not very supportive in the slightest.

I sigh knowing there’s no use in worrying over things you can’t change.
I start listening to music and texting my friends. That’s the great thing about technology; you can have contact with people, but not have to actually deal with them.
Laying down on the couch I eventually fall asleep, only to be woken up an hour later but my phone ringing.

“This better be good” I growled into the phone.
“Oh wah wah you little baby, I have big news!” Lily’s voice rang in my ears.
“You’re pregnant?” I joked. I heard her exasperatedly sigh.
“No, shut up.” I laughed at her.
“You remember how I told you my mum’s brothers son is in a famous band now?” I sat for a bit trying to remember.
“Oh you mean the Mexican dude?”
“Yeah! Well he’s moving back here to San Diego with his band and guess whose the welcoming committee?” She hinted.
“You’re lucky I love you.” I sighed and she laughed.
“I know! Haha well since today’s Friday, he’s decided to move back today, he got a place that’s about 20 minutes from yours, so tomorrow ill come over around 10 and we’ll head over,” she explained. We worked out the details and hung up.

I got up and decided to start doing my chores. I was half way through washing up when I heard my brother come home. I tensed. I forget today he got back from university.
“Finally fucking doing something around the house are we?” He sneered. I just glared out the window, not willing to fight right now. He kept trying to get a rise out of my but I continued with the work when mum finally came home from work.
“Hey mum.” Jack kissed her on the cheek. Suck up.

Since I was done with my chores I went to my room and did my own thing, deciding I wasn’t hungry tonight, and hoping to get away with it. And of course I didn’t have that greater luck.

“Not eating again?” My mum asked angrily. I sighed annoyidly.
“I will later.” I lied. And she definitely did not buy it.
“All I ever do is try to please you and get it thrown in my face! I cook, I clean and do everything for you! And I get fuck all in return! I-“ I zoned her out. I hear this every night so I’m used to it. I like that dad works two hours away and is hardly around, because when he’s here he gets angry, like really angry and sometimes hits me. It’s better when its just mums yelling.

She walks out still ranting, and five minutes later I hear heavy footsteps fastly approaching my room. I sit up knowing who it was. My brother bursts through my door yelling.
“What the fuck is your problem? You never do shit around the house, then have the nerve to treat mum like this?! You’re a fucking waste of space, you should just leave if you’re not grateful!” Jack ranted shaking me hard on the shoulders and slapping me upside the head.
That was it.

“You know what? I fucking will leave! Screw you and her! This isn’t a fucking family, this is bullshit and abuse! You said I should leave? Well fucking bye “Brother,’” I then proceeded to pick up a duffel bag already packed in case I did ever run away. Then I shoved past my brother and stormed out the front door ignoring the yells from him and mum behind me.

Before they can follow I quickly jump in my white Supra and drive off as fast as I can. As I start to calm down I realise what I’ve done.
“I have no where to live…” My eyes widen as the seriousness of what I’ve done hits me. I face palm myself.
Suddenly my phone rings. I quickly pull over and answer.
“Hey Lily,” I try to sound as cheerful as I can.
“Hey Cassie, so just double checking I’m still coming over to yours tomorrow morning right?” I cursed under my breath, I forgot.
“Um yeah I can still come, just don’t come to my house.” I said.
“What? Why? What happened?” Lily hurriedly questioned, her voice laced with concern.
“Aw nah, nothing serious, I just left home.” I laughed.
“THAT’S SERIOUS!” She screamed into the phone. I sighed.
“Where are you going to sleep tonight then?”
“Well, it’s a toss up between a park or my car. But since my car has heating, I think I might stay there.” I joked light heartedly. I swear I heard her growl at me.
“Okay no, that’s stupid. You’re coming to stay with me for a few days while we figure out what to do about you. I’ll look around for someone you ca-“ She stopped mid sentence.
“What?” I questioned.
“Nothing, just get your ass over here!” She hung up. Well that was weird.

I sat for a minute before continuing to drive to Lily’s.
“I wonder how all this will work out…” I wondered to myself.

Notes

Im sorry PTV aren't in this chapter! Its an introduction but Jaime makes an apperance next chapter dont worry! :D Please comment and tell me what you think! xo