*4 weeks later alanas pov*


its been 4 weeks and god i miss grace shes been in a coma for 4 FUCKING WEEKS. I miss my best friend so much. i was clean with the boys and now i cut every day and i hate myself for getting back in to that habit. the boys don't know yet and it hurts. I've been visiting grace every day i talk to her the doctors say that she can hear me but i don't know. hime snapped me from my thoughts
"hey you ready to go" he asked
"yah i guess" i said.
we pulled up to the hospital again i was filled with the same hope that grace would wake up today.
We walked up to room 537 i had memorized that number so well.
"i'm gonna give you some time while i go get some breakfast."
"ok thanks" i said.
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"hey grace today its been exactly 4 weeks now." i croaked out trying not to cry.
i looked around her room it was littered with gifts from friends, family, and some even from fans.
"we all miss your presence so much."
"mike misses you almost as much as me" it was strange they weren't officially going out but he acted like they were.
"himes asked me out" it was true he did we were happy together but neither of us were "happy"
sometimes i sing to grace that was the only time she showed and signs of life except for the steady beep of the monitor.
"hey grace i'm gonna sing today" i got out my guitar and started to sing


Drag my hand behind you
Like a chain behind a truck
Sparks over your carpet
While I chase you through the darkness
Somebody's supposed to fall in love
But nobody even calls
Somebody's supposed to tear this place apart
Until you find me hiding
Silently I wait
You'll be excited just to see me someday
Everything's okay
Summer in gold
Fall the colors at the dock
A mother tells her son
Darling, look at the sparks
You hold my attention
Without even trying
A beautiful reflection
From firework eyes
But never means forever
Desperation and hanging in the backyard
Somebody's supposed to fall in love
Tear this place apart
Until you find me hiding
Silently I wait
You'll be excited just to see me someday
Everything's okay
Don't forget to bleed
So slowly
Haunted hearts we melt over
The fabric of your forearm
I'm holding her just like she's gold
But I've been running from the sun
Oh, no, no
And if I ever catch the ones who hurt you
I, I'm hoping that God looks away this time
Why would I let you go?
Why would I let you go? Let you go
Tear this place apart
Until you find me hiding
Silently I wait
You'll be excited just to see me someday
Everything's okay, yeah

"that was beautiful Alana" i jumped and jerked around.
"sorry didn't mean to scare you" vic said.
"its not a problem" i replied.
"i didn't know you could play or sing" he ask/stated
"iv'e only ever sang for grace" i said blushing.
"well your voice is beautiful."
"thanks." i mumbled.



graces pov

i woke up to hear alana singing

You'll be excited just to see me someday
Everything's okay, yeah

"that was beautiful Alana"
"sorry didn't mean to scare you" vic said.
"its not a problem"
"i didn't know you could play or sing" he ask/stated
"iv'e only ever sang for grace" she said.
"well your voice is beautiful."
"thanks." she mumbled.


all of the sudden i was having trouble breathing
"sorry to interrupt but can someone help me breathe?" i said.
"OH MY GOD GRACE" they both screamed simultaneously.
"YOUR OKAY" Alana started crying.
"oh my god i thought i lost you" she said crying into my shoulder.
"well i'm here now but still having trouble breathing"
"oh yah NURSE NURSE"
soon later i was breathing normally and turtle and hime-time came everyone was happy until i started thinking about that night.
i was scared i could only vaguely remember what happened.
i remembered someone raping me again. i remember a bottle and smashing it to cut myself i looked at my wrists and legs and saw them covered in gauze i could only wonder who did it was it ethan again? and i could only wonder how deep i had gone?




but i knew one thing cutting was now an addiction and after this i knew it was a habit it would take a lot to break.

Notes

heres a long chapter for you guys (at least i think it was long)

i hope you liked it this took me 3 hours to write

listen i'm not getting a lot of interest in this story
so do you guys like it?


i lov all u little fuckers ~(^-^)~