"There is not a single word, in the whole world that could describe the hurt. The dullest knife just sawing back and forth and ripping through the softest skin there ever was oh how were you to know, how were you to know" I sighed, frustrated and confused. I had sung this song so many times in the past 2 days. I had to learn all the songs we had on our setlist that I didn't know. There were only about 5 i didn't know and they were easy to learn. Maybe because deep down I do know them. I picked up my phone and decided to look through it. Jeremy said Vic picked it up when he saved me and forgot all about it. I got given it 30 minutes ago and I guess I'm too scared to find some stuff. Oh well here goes. I went to my text messages first and seen the last person I text was infact Vic. I looked through the text and it went back Two years. A lot happened within the texts, arguments, make-ups, cute moments and some obvious flirting. A part of me wishes I would just remember him but I can't and it saddens me. I looked through some other texts and found out that Jenna was definitely my best friend. I moved onto my pictures. I had a lot, mainly funny pictures of tour moments. There were a lot of me and Vic, no surprise there. He looked insanely happy and so did I. I really wish I could find out what happened. Maybe I should asked him? I debated it for five more minutes until I heard a knock on the bus door. I stood up and walked over to it. Outside was Tony and Jenna. I let them in and they smiled nervously at me as we all sat down in the lounge area. "What's up?" I asked. They looked at each other and then back at me. "We feel like we have been avoiding you since the accident. Now we feel terrible and we want to try and make it up to you. You don't even remember us and that makes us sad but we want to try and help you get some of your memories back" Jenna explained. I nodded slowly. "It's okay, I'm not easy to be around just yet so I appreciate your effort okay" I smiled happily. "Okay well since you haven't much help in the remembering we thought we'd try something" Tony said slowly. I watched him pull a small box out of his pocket and hold it out for me. "Look at this". I took the box out of his hand and slowly opened it. It was a beautiful engagement ring. "Okay, it's an engagement ring... what about it?" I asked. "Nothing? No memories?" Jenna questioned. I shook my head no. "Are you sure? Just keep looking at it". I looked more intensely at the ring but nothing. "God why can't I just remember" I exasperated loudly. "Just calm down and let it come to you" Jenna smiled. The colours of the ring gleamed against the light, so beautiful. It looked exactly like a ring that would be perfect for me. Then I suddenly remembered. I was in a bedroom, Vic was infront of me on his kness. Asking me to marry me. I looked up at Tony and Jenna. "It's mine" I whispered. "Yeah. It is" Tony nodded. "When was this?" I asked. "Christmas Day 2013" Tony said. "What happened?" I asked curiously. "That's something you need to talk to Vic about" Jenna shrugged. "I don't want to" I mumbled. "Then you may never know Hayley" Tony smiled. They both stood up and walked out. I looked at the ring one more time and sighed. I stood up and walked off the bus. I needed to know the truth and only one person would tell me it. I found the Pierce The Veil bus, most people were out today doing stuff in the city so I hope that Vic decided to stay on the bus. I walked up to it and knocked on the door. After a few minutes the door slid open and a tired looking Vic stood on the other side. "Hi" I smiled up at him. He rubbed his eyes and grumbled a tired "Hey". He let me in the bus and I sat down on the couch. He walked over and sat down across from me. The silence was deafening. "So were you sleeping?" I asked. He looked up and nodded. "Haven't been sleeping too good recently so I decided to take a day to myself and sleep for as long as I can" He explained. "Did I wake you?" I asked feeling bad. "Yeah but it's fine" He shrugged. "So what can I help ypu with" I pulled the engagement box out of my pocket and showed him. "Jenna and Tony brought me this today and it triggered some memories" I explained. His eyes widened and he smiled. "What did you remember?" He asked. "All I can remember was you proposing in your bedroom" I told him. He nodded knowingly. "Yeah that's how it happened" He said looking at his feet. "I just wanted to ask why it didn't work out?" I asked. "I cheated on you" He replied quickly. "Oh... right" I replied. For some really strange reason that made my heart hurt. I feel sick and disgusted and betrayed. "I fucked up, you were upset obviously but you eventually forgave me. Things got a little messed up but you were really mature about it" He explained. "Did you really love me?" I asked moving on. "More than anything and I still do" He said softly. "That's all I need to know" I said. I stood up and walked over to him. I held my hand out for him and he took it instantly. He stood up and smiled down at me. I led him to his bunk and we both climbed in. "Let's just take this slow and we can see how things go?" I said. He nodded in the darkness. "Good, nothing too big, I want to remember things before anything happens" I sighed. I felt his arms around my waist and his lips softly kissed the top of my head. It felt warm and settling. I was at home... or at least as close as I was ever gonna get.