The flight back to New York was insanely long. It got delayed and we had to sit around for a few hours waiting. Which was terrible. The good thing was that they both woke up normal. Like nothing had happened. It actually scared me. Papa Fuentes seemed optimistic too, they were all unusually happy for their mother and wife passing away. They do believe she is in a better place though, so I guess that's the real reason.

Getting back onto the tour was a scary moment for everyone I think. Most people just didn't know how to act around Mike and Vic. Hell if I hadn't spent the last three days with them then I'd be in denial about how to act. Like I said though, they are their normal selfs again... like nothing even happened.

I felt my phone buzzing in my pocket. It was a text from Kats sister to say they were in the hotel. They came a day early, decided to go for a spa day then the surprise tomorrow. I was excited about it, I just can't wait to see how happy Jeremy is when he sees what we all done for him. Heck I'm excited to see how it turns out.

I was currently sitting with Jenna filling her in on the details from San Diego. "So he came out and said Vic still loves you?" Jenna asked with shock on her face.

"Yep" I said popping the P. "I don't know if I should tell Vic about it though".

"I don't know Hayley, do you want to persue it?" She questioned.

"Honestly, I don't know. It's all so complicated and weird. We would be building a relationship ontop of an already fucked up one. I mean he cheated on me Jen" I explained.

"I know but you obviously still have feelings for him" She shrugged.

"Maybe tiny feelings" I lied. "Anyway would you take Tony back if he cheated on you?".

"If I could see how sincere he was in the apology then yes. It would need work, a lot of it but I don't think I could risk fully losing him Hayley" She said with hopeful eyes. "What if one day you wake up and realise he is all you ever wanted in life, all you need and he is happily married?" She asked.

"I don't know" I muttered.

"Exactly, the clock is ticking. You're nearly 27, he's 32 you guys are made for each other okay" She smiled.

"You like to make everything into a fairytale just because you found your perfect man at 23" I laughed.

She nudged me playfully. "Come on, let's go see said men perform and secretly fangirl" She giggled and stood up. She helped me off my feet and we linked arms as we walked off the bus and through the parking lot. "So do you think Kat will be huge yet?" She asked.

"Probably she is like six months pregnant. I can't believe Jeremy is going to be a dad" I laughed.

"I know, he's just the most innocent little guy ever. I swear that kid will run rings around him" Jenna giggled.

"Tell me about it" I smiled.

We walked on until suddenly someone bumped into us. "Sorry" He muttered.

"It's okay" I laughed. I looked at him and seen the hat. Memories and thoughts flooded my head. "Patrick" I said slowly.

Jenna looked at me strangely then laughed. "She's a little ditsy today Patrick, sorry man" Jenna pulled me along. I looked back at Patrick who stood there with a defeated look on his face.

"What was that all about?" She asked as we entered the side-stage area.

"Nothing" I said quickly. She looked at me for a minute then her eyes widened. "No way".

I just buried my head in my hands. "I mess everything up don't I?" I mumbled.

"No you don't" She said wrapping her arm around me. I hugged her tightly.

"I don't know what I want anymore Jenna. I love Vic but I like Patrick a lot" I said pulling back.

"Who do you see yourself with in the future?" She asked.

I sighed dramatically. "I have no idea" I whispered.

"Well remember, if you love someone but like someone else too, pick the second one because you obviously don't love the first person as much as you thought" She said softly.

Maybe Jenna is right. I nodded and we continued to the side-stage area. "Let's watch the boys" I smiled.

The intro began and Vic walked up to me with his mic in his hand. "THIS IS A STREET YOUTH RISING UP" He screamed. "THIS IS A STREET YOUTH RISING UP. THIS IS A STREET YOUTH RISING UP" He was staring into my eyes. I looked at Jenna quickly and she just shrugged. He winked at me quickly then ran out onstage in time for the end of the intro. "What's up New Jersey!"

I watched his hands gracefully slide over the guitar and his eyes dance between the audience and his guitar. His lips held a small smile as he sung his heart out. Jumping backwards and playing his guitar forcefully, he spun around and stumbled back over to the microphone and sang on. He looked over and winked me me and my heart done backflips.

After a few songs I decided to go find Patrick. I went straight to the Fall Out Boy bus. I knocked on the door and waited patiently. It opened and Patrick walked out. "Oh hey" He said with a small smile.

His smile made my heart melt a little. "Hi, can we talk?" I asked.

"Sure" He smiled and closed the door. He stood infront of me. "What's up?".

"Things have been a little confusing recently and my heads all over the place with you being married and..." He cut me off by holding his hand up. He pointed to where his wedding ring used to be. "Wait what?".

"We split up. While you were away, I spoke to her, ended it. She was pretty casual about it" He shrugged.

"Well that's interesting" I said raising my eyebrows.

"It depends how you take it Hayley. You gotta decide what you're doing okay? I know things aren't easy at all. After hearing about your suicide attempt, I feel like you need space to reflect but I'm here okay. When you're ready discuss us then I'll be here" He smiled.

I pulled him in for a hug. "Thank you Patrick. This is what I needed" I whispered.

"What are friends for?" He said and kissed my head.