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We Celebrate the way the night hides scars

The baby bump.! (: (or the lack thereof)

In a couple days it’ll be 5 months since Charlie had passed, and we got her stuff packed up and sent home to Utah for her parents to fight over. The guys left to Europe on tour, and I found out I was officially pregnant. I’ve been into the doctors and had the Nuva ring removed and I get regular check ups to see how everything’s coming along. The baby is coming long great, I’m still not showing but they can now hear a heart beat. They said that I’m one week away from being able to do the paternity test and the same day I get to find out the gender. Yeah, I know that I can already find it out, but I want to wait to figure out the gender the day that I can take the test, so by the time I get the results I can figure out a name; and I also decided to save the baby shopping for when I find it out. I had talked to Vivian about it and she said that if it was Mikes, she would make sure he would take care of it, but she has no doubt that he will, willingly. She said that she could see how much he loves me and that he’d do anything for me. I just nodded along as she went on about how much he’s talked about me. But that was almost a week ago when we had talked. It was now December 14th, shit, that reminds me it’s Mike’s birthday, I’ll have to call him or skype them or something. The boys are getting home on the 21st and I have the test scheduled for the 20th. The doctor said that I’d be able to get the results the 24th. Wouldn’t it be a great Christmas to find out that you’ve helped create a new life form? I think it would be amazing if I were a guy. But, if I was to find out I was pregnant on Christmas and been in this predicament with the ‘father’ position, I would think it was the worst day ever.
But, I’m not just finding out. I’m currently sitting on my bed eating fruit, drinking bottled water and doing my online Christmas shopping. I want my baby to be completely healthy, so I’m sticking to a strict diet of nutrition and drinking nothing but purified bottled water. I still haven’t told my mom that I’m pregnant; I don’t want to because then she’ll pack up her scatter brained self along with Jack and Becca to come here visiting. Personally, I don’t want any of them in my life or around my child. I also wanted to wait to tell Dakota about it because I didn’t want him to ask about the dad and freak out since I didn’t know.
Other than still keeping the secret and somehow, managing it pretty well, it’s going pretty good. I’m ¾ the way through my last year of classes for my vet tech license, I only have another month or so till I can graduate my 5th year of vet school/college. The only reason I’m so ahead is because I graduated high school with my associates in animal science and anatomy. So that was something great, I’ve been working a lot more now that I don’t really have much holding me back. I’ve told Jensen about the baby thing and he promised to keep it a secret, even from the fellow artists until I say otherwise.
I think some people are thinking something’s up, cause I don’t go out with my usual drinking/party buddies from campus. I’ve kept my life mellow since the boys left, (well as mellow as possible) Austin hangs out with me more now; he wants to make sure that I’m off my feet 98% of the day and eating healthy. He wants my baby to come out just as perfect as I do.
Hmm, Austin, I have a feeling that I’m suppose to do something with him, but I don’t know what. But also, he left on tour like a week ago and doesn’t have a home show until… I pulled up my calendar on my phone and BAM!
Meet Austin at soma, 4:30pm for home show
I knew I had something to do today. I looked at the time, Shit! It’s already 3:30? Shit!
I got up and rushed around the apartment slipping on a casual but cute outfit and my makeup. It was now 4:15; I had 15 minutes to make a half an hour drive… great.
I ran down the stairs of my apartment building after locking up and ran to Vic’s car. He was letting me use it while they were on tour until we could go and pick up my 66 impala from my grandparent’s house in Idaho. I sped all the way to soma; when I finally got the security guard to let me into staff parking and found a good parking spot, it was 4:32. God dammit!
I raced to the door, careful so I didn’t trip and fall. I followed the instructions that Austin had given me and walked right in through the back door that led to a series of hallways. I wandered aimlessly yelling his name for a while. “Austin Carlile! Paging Austin Carlile! Come in Austin Carlile!” I turned the corner and Alan was standing there on his phone, he surprised me so much I jumped back and screamed. He looked up at me, “oh hey! I heard you calling out for Austin; you passed the green room. Come on and I’ll take you to him.”
“Oh, okay. How are you ginger princess?” I smiled and put my arm around his waist as he put his around my shoulders, “Pretty good. I’m super tired though, we haven’t been able to sleep much.”
“Rock and roll all night and party every day?” I smiled
“Sure thing, babe! How are you my Emmysue?” we turned the corner and kept walking, “I’m pretty good. I’ve had a lot of random energy now that I’m eating more fruit. But I’m too lazy to use it.” We both laughed, “Well maybe you can get that energy out tonight during the show, Yeah?”
“Mmm. I don’t know. I’m not really feelin the concert mood today. I just wanted to make sure that I was here for you guys; I’ll probably just hang in the green room.”
“What? And miss all the action?” Alan turned us and all the sudden a door with the sign “Of mice and Women” on the door. I chuckled while Alan opened the door and we walked in. Austin was sitting and talking to his computer, he was probably skyping his dad or something. He heard the door shut behind us and looked up smiling, “Emily! You’re here!”
“Well, where else would I be?” I laughed; he waved me over and offered up a knee for me to sit on. I took the offer and Austin continued talking to his computer (which I was right, it was his dad.) “Look who showed up dad!”
I smiled and waved, “Hey dad!” Since Austin and I had been hanging out a lot more lately, I had become very close with his dad. Just as I was about to talk Alan spoke up, “Hey, we’re hungry we’re gonna run and get some takeout or something. You two want anything?” we both shook our heads no so Alan, Phil, Tino and Aaron left.
“Hey, baby girl. How’s everything going? How’s the bun?”
“Pretty, good. I’m still not showing, see.” I lifted up my shirt and patted my tummy, earning a chuckle from both Austin and his dad before pulling it down and sitting once again.
“Wow, how far along are you now?”
“24 weeks and 5 days as of today.” I smiled triumphantly.
“Good, Good. Are you eating healthy?”
“Yeah, how can I not? Austin is the health food Nazi. Everyday before he left for tour he would come over and make all of my meals for me so all I had to do is heat them up. And after he left, he calls me everyday and plans out a menu.” I rolled my eyes at Austin who shrugged, “Hey, I just want to make sure that the Bun comes out perfect, just like you.”
I smiled and kissed his cheek before turning back to the computer, “Dad, your son is such a ladies man. I wonder where he gets it from.” He chuckled, “he learned that stuff from his mother. I had no part in that department.”
“Well, you and mom raised one amazing child. I’m very glad to call him my best friend.” I smiled and leaned my head on Austin’s shoulder; he returned it with putting his on mine.
His dad awe’d, “you guys would be such a cute couple. You just look like you’re meant for each other.”
“Dad, we’re just best friends.” Austin snorted and I did the same, “Why would be anything different? I don’t think we’d be able to spend one full day together without someone getting hurt.”
“Okay, you tell yourselves whatever you want, you two are definitely meant to be together.” He sighed, “Well, I’ve got stuff to do. I’ll talk to you later; have fun you two! And Emily, be careful. Don’t do anything dangerous.”
I laughed, “okay, dad. I won’t I’ll be super careful I promise.”
“Okay, bye kids.” He smiled and Austin and I both said our goodbyes. I blew a kiss at the camera before he hung up.
~-~-~
It’s been about 5 ½ hours and OM&M just went on. I decided to watch side stage, there’s nothing really dangerous about being side stage. Is there? They sang a few songs and just before the last song started, he looked at me and smiled. I thought he was going to start the song, but he talked instead, “how are all our beautiful fans tonight?” the crowd roared and made his smile grow wider, “That’ great. Hey, so I have a really good friend here tonight, her name is Emily.” Oh, god. Please don’t pull me on stage; I will completely freeze.
“Just before the show, her and I were on skype with my dad and he told us that we would be a perfect couple. But there’s just one catch to it, Jaime Preciado has Dibs on her. He beat me to her, 3 years ago in Reno Nevada. It was Pierce The Veils headlining tour, so I just decided to be nice and let them have her for the time being.” He sat down on the stage cross-legged and kept talking, where is he going with this?
“Ya see, she was only 18 at the time of that and Jaime and Tony, being completely wasted at the time, spiked her drinks so she got hammered. The next day some drama happened and I gave her my number before she flew home to salt lake city. After a few days I still hadn’t gotten a call or text. So I figured she was just busy. Lets just say that I hadn’t talked to her since a little over 4 months ago, we lost contact for 3 years. And I am so happy that we’re talking again.” he looked at me and waved me over, “Why don’t you guys Give Emily an amazing greeting?” the crowd cheered and roared as I just shook my head no at Austin. He gave me a stubborn frown and got up, talking in the microphone. “I’ll be right back, she refuses to come on stage so I’ll have to go get her.” He set the mic on the stand and started for me, the crowd laughed the entire time and I almost cried, “Austin please don’t make me do this! I have horrible stage fright, I am so going to tell dad on you if you make me do this.” He just laughed and picked me up and carried me bridal style, the easiest way to carry me without shoving his shoulder into my stomach. I laughed and cried as he carried me out. When he reached the mic stand he set me down and held my hand so I couldn’t run anywhere, “This is Emily, my best friend. She currently hates me because I made her come on stage and I’m making her eat healthy food lately. She has terrible stage fright, should I make her sing Second and Sebring with me? Or should we do a different Duet?” the crowd started chanting that we do a duet so Austin agreed, “Okay, it doesn’t have to be our song. Would someone suggest one?” Austin gave me the Mic and talked into my ear, “since I’m making you do this, you can choose the one that we do.” I smiled and took the microphone. Once I had it in my hand, all of my nerves disappeared and I listened to the crowd. I looked for the perfect person; the one that you could tell was there for the music and not anything else. The one who was crying because of the meaning of it to them. After a few minutes, I found her. I pointed to her, “you! The girl with the long brown hair, glasses, For All Those Sleeping shirt, shorts and a Dermal under your right eye. What’s the song you pick?”
I couldn’t hear her because everyone was complaining about me not picking him or her and it was really ticking me off. I looked at Austin for permission and he nodded. I turned my gaze to the crowd once again and pulled the mic to my mouth, “Hey! I can’t hear the pretty girl! Everyone shut the fuck up so I can find out what song I’m singing.” No one did so I just decided to bring her up, “Ya know what Hun, people are being ass holes, why don’t you come up here to tell Me.” her eyes lit with happiness and she tried shoving through people. I told them to part but they wouldn’t. Well, they didn’t until Austin signaled for them to. The girl ran up to the barricade and a security helped her hop up on stage. She cautiously walked over to me, most likely scared out of her wits. I just smiled and offered an arm out and put it around her shoulders once she was close enough, “what’s your name, Hun?”
I held the mic up to her, “Emily.”
“Cool! That’s my name too! It’s a pretty awesome name; only awesome people get named Emily. I mean, why do you think Austin got named Austin? He’s not as cool as us.” I smiled as I felt her loosen up a bit under my arm, I’m glad she’s getting comfortable. “So what Duet would you like us to sing? Well, it doesn’t even have to be a duet, just a song that we can make into a duet.” I smiled and held the mic to her mouth again, “Can you guys do, Carry on my wayward son?”
“Sure thing!” I looked at Austin, he put the other mic that was brought to him up to his mouth, “This may seem pretty lame, but I don’t remember that one.”
She half smiled, “okay, it’s okay. I’ll choose another one.” I stopped for a minute and thought, “What made you pick that song, may I ask?”
“Oh, my dad just used to sing it to me every night. Today is the one year anniversary that he’s been gone.”
Just when she said that, it pulled on my heartstrings. I looked at Austin and pulled the mic to my mouth, “I know this one by heart. My brother used to sing the lullaby to me growing up. Can I sing it? It’s only a couple minutes long. Not even that, then maybe we can do another song? Like an Encore?”
Austin’s smiled grew, ear to ear. He nodded and got a stool so the girl could sit down on it. I requested an acoustic and a stool. I got both so now I was sitting and adjusting the mic stand. After a few minutes I got fully situated and strummed a few chords getting use to it again. “Sorry if I mess up guys, I haven’t played in a while.” I smiled and looked over at Emily, she was crying as she looked at me. That is what got rid of my stage fright; I was making someone happy. I started strumming the chords and started singing,
“Carry on my wayward son, there’ll be peace when you are done.
Lay your weary head to rest, don’t you cry no more.
Once I rose above the noise and confusion,
Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion.
I was soaring ever higher, but I flew too high.
Though my eyes could see I still was a blind man,
Though my mind could think I still was a mad man.
I hear the voices when I’m dreaming,
I can hear them say…
Carry on my wayward son!
There’ll be peace when you are done.
Lay your weary head to rest,
Don’t you cry no more…”
I sang it ever so softly and to the best of my abilities. When I finished, I could feel slow tears run down my cheeks. I looked over at Emily, who was now full blown crying. I swung my guitar to my back and went over to hug her. She stood up as I took her into my arms, “Your dad would be so proud of you right now. You are such a beautiful girl; please stop hurting yourself, okay? Please do it for me.”
She pulled away for a moment giving me a questioning look, so I looked down at her scar covered thighs and arms and looked back up. She started crying again, “Shhh. it’s okay, and I’ve been where you are. Trust me, it’s perfectly okay.” I pulled up my sleeves, revealing all of my scars that I try to hide with makeup. Her eyes grew wide; “I’ll only do it if you do it.”
I laughed and smiled, “deal.” We shook on it and I kissed her forehead before she was escorted back to her spot in the crowd.
The rest of the show went smoothly after that, Austin and I sang ‘Have you ever needed someone so bad’ by Def Leopard.
I stayed out with them till about 1am and decided it was time for me to go home. I had been on my feet way too much and I didn’t want to risk it anymore. I quickly drove home and got up to my apartment. Right when I walked in I turned and locked the door behind me. Aliyah was already home, she worked from 4 pm yesterday until 10 tonight. I have no idea why she’s picking up such long shifts, but I guess it’s working for her. I went straight to my room and stripped my clothes and climbed into bed, remembering that I had to text Mike, I was already half asleep so I just typed a quick happy birthday text and crashed. I hope what I sent made sense. Oh well.
~-A few days later-~
“Wakey, Wakey, hands off snakey!” Aliyah came into my room and pounced on my bed, waking me up; I groaned in response.
“Come on! Your appointment is today! We get to get another Ultrasound of the babe! Come on we’ve got to go!” she got off my bed and ripped the covers off of me, causing me to shiver from the sudden burst of cool air. “Ugh! Fine, I’ll get up. What time is it anyways?”
“3:15 in the afternoon. You’ve got two appointments today, one for the ultrasound to find out the gender at 4 and another at 5:15 at the university for the Paternity test.” Aliyah went over to my closet to pick out a lazy outfit. (Outfit)
When she picked it, she threw it at me, “Get dressed, we don’t want to be late.” And walked out of my room. I groaned and went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and whatnot. Once I was ready I grabbed my glasses that I finally found the other day after months of searching, putting them on and grabbed my phone and went out into the living room to get Aliyah. She was sitting on the couch drinking coffee and reading a magazine, “I’m ready, lets go.”
She set the magazine down and jumped up following me out the door and to the car, “when did you find your glasses?”
“The other day when I was going through my closet.” We both hopped in the car and went straight for the doctors.
“How did they get in there?”
I laughed, “I have no idea.”
After a long drive we finally made it to the doctors. By the time we got there we were 5 minutes late; so we were ushered into the exam room as soon as we made it to the check in counter. I went through the routine, and got ready for the doctor. Aliyah stood next to me and waited, after about 15 minutes Dr. Nesbit came into the room, “Hello, Emily. How are you feeling today?”
“I’m great, just tired. Aliyah woke me up at 3:15, if she wasn’t there I wouldn’t have made the appointment.” I laughed as he sat down next to the equipment we were about to use.
Dr. Nesbit got everything set up and got out the ultrasound gel, “Okay, I’ll need you to pull up your shirt now.” I did as my doctor said and he put the gel on my stomach. I slightly gasped, “Why can’t you guys heat up the gel, it’s so cold.” We all chuckled and Dr. Nesbit turned the monitor screen so we could see it and put the wand on my stomach. “So Emily, do you hope for a certain gender?”
Both Aliyah and I smiled, “It doesn’t matter what gender it is, it’s going to be perfect either way.”
“Well, That’s good. Not many new parents say that any more.”
“I’m not those parents.” I laughed
Dr. Nesbit looked at me and smiled, “Would you like to know the gender of your baby?”
Aliyah grabbed my shoulder and squeezed it in anticipation, so I nodded and smiled.
“Well, I hope you’ve been thinking about boy names.”
“Really?” I was so happy I started crying, I looked up and so was Aliyah.
“Yepp. See, look right there.” He pointed to the screen and showed me. My smile grew from ear to ear, “I still can’t believe that I’m having a baby. What on earth am I going to do?”
After another half hour of marveling over the ultrasound it was time for us to leave. I kept thanking Dr. Nesbit over and over again for doing the ultrasound for me, and walking me through the steps of my baby’s development so far. After we checked out, we had just enough time to eat. Well Aliyah did anyways; I wasn’t sure if I was allowed to eat before my next appointment, so I just got a bottle of water and sipped it until we got to my next appointment.
The time flew by as I was poked and prodded, getting the DNA from my ever-growing baby. A little over an hour later we were able to leave, which meant I was able to eat. Our drive home was filled with chatter about names for him, what kind of clothes we should buy, what he’ll look like; ya know the usual baby talk. We got back to the apartment, hung out for a couple hours, watched movies and ate. It caught me off guard when Aliyah brought up Dr. Nesbit while we were watching TV and snacking, “Why did you insist on him being your doctor?”
It wasn’t an angry caught off guard though; it actually made me smile. “He was the doctor that delivered me. He was fresh out of medical school, age 27. I was actually the first baby he got to deliver on his own.”
“But you were born in Utah, how did he get here?”
“Well, I was born in Idaho but my mom’s doctor was here in California cause we were living here at the time. We were on a trip to Idaho to see family; So Dr. Nesbit flew to Idaho and delivered me. Soon after I was born we moved to Utah.”
“That’s cool, so now Bentley is going to be delivered by the same Doctor.”
I laughed, “Since when was I going to name my child Bentley?”
She smiled, “Since I’m going to be the god mother.”
“Oh whatever, you may be the godmother, but I am not letting you name my child that. If anything I’m going to name them after my grandpa, Gwen Cavill Vogel.”
Aliyah snorted and rolled her eyes, “You just want to set them up for kids to make fun of him. Do you know how horrible of a childhood he’s going to have?”
I gasped, “No I’m not! My grandpa got very far in life and didn’t get made fun of, for your information.”
“Yes, but your grandfather also went by ‘Chub’ not, Gwen. If someone called him Gwen he wouldn’t even acknowledge his or her existence. Plus, this is the 21st century.”
I chewed my lip, “yeah, I guess you’re right. I don’t know; I don’t want to name him something that’s too over used. I want to name them something unique, not really heard of in the U.S.”
“Well, I don’t really know what to tell ya.” Aliyah folded her arms and looked forward, I did the same and we both started brainstorming about baby names.
~-~-~
I sat on my bed with my legs crossed, listening to music and skyping Vic. “So how’s everything going so far?”
“It’s been great! I finally got to cross the Rome coliseum off my bucket list today.”
“Really? That’s great! I’m officially jealous of you!”
Vic chuckled, “Don’t be, I mean it’s great being here but I’m missing home really bad.”
I gave him a sympathetic smile, “Well, one more day and you’ll be home.”
Vic groaned into his hands, “I know and it’s going so slow! I just wanna be in my own bed already.”
“I wish I could get out of mine already. I hate that I’ve been sleeping so much lately; I mean I love sleep but not as much as I’ve been getting.”
“Well, have you been eating healthy?”
“I’ve been living on nothing but healthy food. And today, Aliyah woke me up at 3:15. I slept in until 3! How crazy is that?”
“You should have a lot of energy then, I don’t see why you’re sleeping that long.”
“Yeah, I-”
Aliyah came bursting into my room, cutting me off, “I’ve got it!”
I sighed “Okay, what?”
“ Axel. How adorable of a name is that?” Just when she said it, my baby jolted so I looked down and laughed, Aliyah noticed so she came and pounced on my bed, making me laugh, “That’s actually really cute; I really like it.”
“Wait, whose name is that?” Vic let out a confused laugh making Aliyah smile, “Well, it depends. Are you alone?”
Vic looked around the bus, “No, Jack is with me but no one else.”
“Jack who?” I asked
“Ya know, Jack Barakat.”
I gave him a confused look and he sighed, “From All Time Low…”
“Oh! That Jack. Okay. Well I still can’t tell you until you’re completely alone.” I smiled and Vic looked past the computer, at Jack I’m assuming? “Hey, go away.”
“But why?” Jack’s voice came from the background
“Because Emily and Aliyah need to tell me something and they can’t until you’re gone.”
“Fine! Tell them that they are not my best friends anymore!” Aliyah and I laughed until we heard the bus door open then slam shut. Vic looked back to the screen, “okay, so what’s the down low?”
“Well…” Aliyah looked at me, “I think you should tell him.”
I smiled and looked back at the screen, “today I went to get the Paternity test and get another ultrasound done.”
“And?” Vic scooted to the edge of his seat and his smile grew.
“I’m having a boy
“Really? Oh my god, Emily that’s great!”
“I know right! So earlier when we got back from the doctors we were brainstorming for baby names and I just barely thought of Axel, so I had to tell her.” Aliyah got up off the bed and started walking towards the kitchen, “And I wanna celebrate the amazing name that I just chose so I’m going to go crack open a bottle of coconut rum and go to my room, I love you both so I bid you goodnight.” After that was said she departed and shut my door, giving either of us time to protest. “Well, I’m glad she’s proud of herself.” I laughed and looked back at Vic who was still smiling, “I am so happy for you, Em. Seriously I am. When do you get the results for the paternity test?”
“Christmas eve; I decided that it’d be a good thing for them to hear. I’m just hoping that they’ll think that as well.”
I heard the bus door open and some familiar voices boom. And then Jaime shouted over them, “Vic, What are you doing? We’re gonna go to the bar for our last night remember?”
Vic looked at him, “I’m Skyping Emily and Aliyah. Well, it was both of them now its just Em.”
All of the boys apart from Jaime chimed in all at once, “Hey Emily!” and then Jaime snorted, “What’s so special about her; she’s not your girlfriend. You can always talk to her once we get home, lets go.”
“Hey, that was un called for! Take it back!” Vic yelled at him as I sat in awe that Jaime had seriously just said that.
“How can I take it back when it’s the truth?”
Vic stood up and went to say something to him and I cut him off, “Vic it’s okay. You can go, Jaime’s right I’m not your girlfriend. He’s just cranky cause his blowup doll didn’t clear customs this time.”
“Oh, you just got burned!” Mike yelled and everyone erupted in laughter, everyone but Jaime anyway. Jaime came over and shoved Vic aside to look at the computer screen, “Bye Emily!” and he shut the computer, cutting off the skype call. I laughed and shut mine. It was now about 11:30pm and I wasn’t tired at all, I guess that if I force myself to sleep right now, I’ll be able to get up in the morning tomorrow. Yeah lets do that.
I quickly showered, got ready for bed and jumped in. I got comfortable and turned off the lamp. I tossed and turned for another hour so I pulled down the covers and pulled up my shirt, exposing my stomach. The moonlight was shining brightly through my window and I stared at my stomach smiling. Even though I wasn’t showing yet, you could see Axel moving from time to time so I watched him move. It would normally freak me out to see someone’s stomach move; but now that it was my own, it calmed me. “My precious baby. I am so excited to meet you, all day I was thinking of names for you and just when your aunt Aliyah said it you moved. So I’m hoping that it meant that you liked your new name.” I kept smiling and sliding my hand over my stomach, feeling the movement. “I love you, Axel.” he jolted once again when I said his name; I’m thinking he likes it. I sighed and started to feel drowsy, finally I could fall asleep.
“My precious Axel, you’re going to be completely perfect.”

Notes

Okay guys! this is probably the time that you've all feared. i believe that i will be ending this story within the next chapter, chapter 30. i think i might make a sequel, but it all depends on if i can come up with a story line. i hope you guys don't hate me! and i hope you all like where the story has started and where it's ending up. i really love you guys though!
<3/Emilio

Comments

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2/4/14

@turtle-wars-babe
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1/19/14

@taylorlovesptv
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@turtle-wars-babe
I MISSED YOU TOO, and dude, my comments are just too damn awesome ;)
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1/19/14