The Thing I Think I Love, Will Surely Bring Me Pain.
Chapter 21.
"WE'RE PIERCE THE VEIL! MEET US AT THE TABLE IN HALF AN HOUR! WE LOVE YOU!" They all threw their picks and sticks out to the crowd.Tony was the first to run off stage and wrap me in a tight hug.
"Tony, you're sweaty." I said and giggled.
"Sorry.." He said, still gasping for air as he grabbed a towel. I felt Mike pick me up from behind and I screamed in surprise.
"So.. I hear you're dating a certain somebody?" He whispered in my ear. I rolled my eyes and smiled at Tony.
"Yeah, lucky me." He laughed and gave me a kiss on the cheek before letting me go. Jaime and Vic gave me quick hugs before pushing me towards Tony, making me bump into him. I blushed and my head whipped around to them.
"I hate you all."
"You don't hate me... right?" Tony asked pouted. He looked so cute, that I couldn't help but laugh.
"Of course not." He smiled and kissed me.
"Come on lovebirds, we gotta get back to the bus and change before going to the meet and greet." Vic said. I groaned against Tony's lips and pulled away before wrapping my arms around his torso.
"Do I HAVE to go?"
"Yes." They all said. I sighed and walked we walked to the bus, with Tony's hand in mine.
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While the guys changed, I debated if I should, just staring at my suitcase, slowly shuffling through it. I felt a box under all of the clothes and furrowed my eyebrows. I pulled it out to see it was my cigarettes that Dave had bought for me. I know I should have thrown them away, but I don't think I can quit or anything, especially when things get rocky. I heard the bathroom door open and the back lounge door was thrown open. I jumped up and slipped the carton in my pocket.
"Whoa, someone's jumpy." Vic said and raised his eyebrows. I shrugged.
"I just get scared easily." He frowned slightly and nodded.
"I see. Well, we're all ready."I nodded and walked out, Vic following behind me to the guys who were brushing their hair. I rolled my eyes and they smirked.
"You ready?" Tony asked. I nodded and we all headed to the Meet and Greet table.
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"She's gorgeous Tony, I'm happy for you." A girl said as she walked up to the table. Tony took a hold of my hand under the table and smiled shyly at her, whispering a 'thanks'. That was about the 10th fan in 5 minutes that had said something like that to us, and honestly, it made me so happy how supportive their fans were. They signed posters and took pictures, all of them just having fun and meeting everyone. The girl who was next in line gave me a dirty look and I raised my eyebrow.
"You know, you were meant for Steph. She's nothing like your type, she's quite ugly actually." She spat.
"Things didn't work out between Steph and I because we decided it would be better if we split. You don't have the right to tell me who I should and should not date."
"Yeah, if you were a true fan, you'd accept it." Mike added. She rolled her eyes.
"Whatever, it just seems like you're dating her for pity. I mean, look at all of her bracelets, I'm guessing she cuts?" She said with a smirk. I felt my heart break, knowing everything she was saying was most likely true and I was too stupid to realize it. I got up from my seat and went to walk away, but the guys jumped up and wrapped me in a hug.
"Sit down Adds, please." Vic whispered.
"Let me go." They sighed and obeyed. I ran off before they had the chance to grab me again and ran behind a building. I slid down the side of it and put my head in my hands.
God why was I so stupid? I mean, I told him everything, I told them all everything. They're only hanging with me just for laughs and pity.
I pulled out the cigarettes, silently thanking myself for bringing them as I shakily pulled one out along with a lighter that was stuffed in with it and put it up to my lips as Iit the cancer stick. I closed my eyes and inhaled the smoke, feeling myself relax as I did so. About halfway through my cigarette, I heard footsteps stop next to me, ripping the cigarette from my fingers and putting it out. I looked up at Mike and rolled my eyes.
"What."
"Since when do you smoke?"
"Does it matter?"
"Well, smoking kills." I laughed sarcastically and shook my head.
"Coming from you, that's hilarious. We live to die Fuentes." I said and took another one out. "Now leave me alone." He sighed and sat next to me. Does he not get the hint that I want to be alone? The last thing I need is to be around someone who is just using me.
"You can't believe everything they say babe. There's hateful people everywhere, you just gotta learn not to give a fuck." I rolled my eyes and took a puff.
"You seem to forget just how emotionally fucked I am to begin with. I can't just ignore them, especially if it's the truth." His jaw dropped and he looked at me.
"Addie, what the hell? How can you say that? Did you hear how many people congratulated you and-"
"Yeah well, I guess it takes one person to be brutal for me to wake up and realize those other people are full of shit."
"Adeline, you gotta stop being so down on yourself.."
"I don't want to talk about this right now. Not now, not ever, and not to any of you guys who are with me for shits and giggles. Just leave, you have fans to attend to." I spat, trying to hide my sadness with anger.
"No, I'm not going anywhere Add. The guys and I love-"
"Don't want to hear it. Leave."
"No." I rolled my eyes and stood up.
"Fine, I'll do it for you." I said and put my cigarette to the toe of my converse, putting out the flame and walking away. I wasn't sure where I was going, but I couldn't be near anybody, at least not anybody that I couldn't trust. Who am I kidding, I couldn't trust anyone. I needed to snap out of the whole 'having feelings' and 'getting attached', but I knew I couldn't be left alone.
I sighed and scrolled through my contacts until I found Jack's number.
To: Jack Barakat
Hey, I need someone.
Minutes later I received a reply.
From: Jack Barakat
Yeah sure. We're actually in the dressing room. You okay? You want me to meet you somewhere?
To: Jack Barakat
I'll just meet you there.
From: Jack Barkat
Okayyy! I miss you, get here soon xx (:
I smiled and put my phone back in my pocket, just in time to see a blur of blonde hair with a metal rod in their hands. I had no time to react before I was hit. The last thing I remember was the cracking sound that rang through my ears as my head hit the pavement before blacking out immediately.
"Tony, you're sweaty." I said and giggled.
"Sorry.." He said, still gasping for air as he grabbed a towel. I felt Mike pick me up from behind and I screamed in surprise.
"So.. I hear you're dating a certain somebody?" He whispered in my ear. I rolled my eyes and smiled at Tony.
"Yeah, lucky me." He laughed and gave me a kiss on the cheek before letting me go. Jaime and Vic gave me quick hugs before pushing me towards Tony, making me bump into him. I blushed and my head whipped around to them.
"I hate you all."
"You don't hate me... right?" Tony asked pouted. He looked so cute, that I couldn't help but laugh.
"Of course not." He smiled and kissed me.
"Come on lovebirds, we gotta get back to the bus and change before going to the meet and greet." Vic said. I groaned against Tony's lips and pulled away before wrapping my arms around his torso.
"Do I HAVE to go?"
"Yes." They all said. I sighed and walked we walked to the bus, with Tony's hand in mine.
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While the guys changed, I debated if I should, just staring at my suitcase, slowly shuffling through it. I felt a box under all of the clothes and furrowed my eyebrows. I pulled it out to see it was my cigarettes that Dave had bought for me. I know I should have thrown them away, but I don't think I can quit or anything, especially when things get rocky. I heard the bathroom door open and the back lounge door was thrown open. I jumped up and slipped the carton in my pocket.
"Whoa, someone's jumpy." Vic said and raised his eyebrows. I shrugged.
"I just get scared easily." He frowned slightly and nodded.
"I see. Well, we're all ready."I nodded and walked out, Vic following behind me to the guys who were brushing their hair. I rolled my eyes and they smirked.
"You ready?" Tony asked. I nodded and we all headed to the Meet and Greet table.
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"She's gorgeous Tony, I'm happy for you." A girl said as she walked up to the table. Tony took a hold of my hand under the table and smiled shyly at her, whispering a 'thanks'. That was about the 10th fan in 5 minutes that had said something like that to us, and honestly, it made me so happy how supportive their fans were. They signed posters and took pictures, all of them just having fun and meeting everyone. The girl who was next in line gave me a dirty look and I raised my eyebrow.
"You know, you were meant for Steph. She's nothing like your type, she's quite ugly actually." She spat.
"Things didn't work out between Steph and I because we decided it would be better if we split. You don't have the right to tell me who I should and should not date."
"Yeah, if you were a true fan, you'd accept it." Mike added. She rolled her eyes.
"Whatever, it just seems like you're dating her for pity. I mean, look at all of her bracelets, I'm guessing she cuts?" She said with a smirk. I felt my heart break, knowing everything she was saying was most likely true and I was too stupid to realize it. I got up from my seat and went to walk away, but the guys jumped up and wrapped me in a hug.
"Sit down Adds, please." Vic whispered.
"Let me go." They sighed and obeyed. I ran off before they had the chance to grab me again and ran behind a building. I slid down the side of it and put my head in my hands.
God why was I so stupid? I mean, I told him everything, I told them all everything. They're only hanging with me just for laughs and pity.
I pulled out the cigarettes, silently thanking myself for bringing them as I shakily pulled one out along with a lighter that was stuffed in with it and put it up to my lips as Iit the cancer stick. I closed my eyes and inhaled the smoke, feeling myself relax as I did so. About halfway through my cigarette, I heard footsteps stop next to me, ripping the cigarette from my fingers and putting it out. I looked up at Mike and rolled my eyes.
"What."
"Since when do you smoke?"
"Does it matter?"
"Well, smoking kills." I laughed sarcastically and shook my head.
"Coming from you, that's hilarious. We live to die Fuentes." I said and took another one out. "Now leave me alone." He sighed and sat next to me. Does he not get the hint that I want to be alone? The last thing I need is to be around someone who is just using me.
"You can't believe everything they say babe. There's hateful people everywhere, you just gotta learn not to give a fuck." I rolled my eyes and took a puff.
"You seem to forget just how emotionally fucked I am to begin with. I can't just ignore them, especially if it's the truth." His jaw dropped and he looked at me.
"Addie, what the hell? How can you say that? Did you hear how many people congratulated you and-"
"Yeah well, I guess it takes one person to be brutal for me to wake up and realize those other people are full of shit."
"Adeline, you gotta stop being so down on yourself.."
"I don't want to talk about this right now. Not now, not ever, and not to any of you guys who are with me for shits and giggles. Just leave, you have fans to attend to." I spat, trying to hide my sadness with anger.
"No, I'm not going anywhere Add. The guys and I love-"
"Don't want to hear it. Leave."
"No." I rolled my eyes and stood up.
"Fine, I'll do it for you." I said and put my cigarette to the toe of my converse, putting out the flame and walking away. I wasn't sure where I was going, but I couldn't be near anybody, at least not anybody that I couldn't trust. Who am I kidding, I couldn't trust anyone. I needed to snap out of the whole 'having feelings' and 'getting attached', but I knew I couldn't be left alone.
I sighed and scrolled through my contacts until I found Jack's number.
To: Jack Barakat
Hey, I need someone.
Minutes later I received a reply.
From: Jack Barakat
Yeah sure. We're actually in the dressing room. You okay? You want me to meet you somewhere?
To: Jack Barakat
I'll just meet you there.
From: Jack Barkat
Okayyy! I miss you, get here soon xx (:
I smiled and put my phone back in my pocket, just in time to see a blur of blonde hair with a metal rod in their hands. I had no time to react before I was hit. The last thing I remember was the cracking sound that rang through my ears as my head hit the pavement before blacking out immediately.
Notes
Okay this sucked. I'm sorry, I'm exhausted, but I can't sleep, if that makes sense xDBut shieett. Poor Addie):
More soon. Love ya. xx
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:D YUSSS OMF I CAN' WAIT. lel fuck yeah.
10/14/13