I could Sing You A Song
Don't You Get It?
ELLI P.O.V
It has been about a month since Adrianna started radiation and she has lost all of her hair. I just can’t get over how strong she is, She has the strength to get out of bed every day and put a smile on her face. I am glad that she has Evan he treats her so good and I honestly couldn’t imagine her with a different boy.
“Hey sweat pea how are you feeling?” I asked while sitting down with my lunch
“I am doing good, I just hate going to radiation it sucks.” She sighed and I couldn’t help but let sadness creep into my heart. Adrianna has been battling cancer since she was 10 and I have never really felt that it was a bad thing because I am a strong believer in the saying ‘everything happens for a reason’, but now for some reason I feel like it shouldn’t be happening. I hate how radiation makes her so weak and how she has to deal with people that don’t know what she is going through I wish I could take all of her pain away.
“I know you do but I promise sweaty you only have to do it for a few more months and then its all over for a little while” She began to cry.
“Yeah that’s all it will ever be just a little while. I will stop radiation long enough for me to grow back my hair and then have to start again. I hate this I just want it to end.”
“I know that you don’t like it but radiation is the only thing that will help you get better” I tried to reason with her.
“Don’t you get it? Nothing, Nothing not even radiation or the love of our family is going to help me get better! I am NEVER going to get better! I am only going to get worse and before you know it I will die! THE ONLY THING ABOUT MY FUTURE THAT I AM CERTAIN OF IS MY DEATH AND IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN SOONER RATHER THAN LATER!” I was crying now at the outlook she had on her future. Before I could say anything she ran to her bunk and left me.
I sat with my head in my hands crying for what seemed to be hours. I couldn’t believe that Adrianna felt that way. I thought she was aware and trying to forget the fact that radiation could only do so much to help her get better. I felt a gentle hand on my shoulder.
“Hey what’s wrong are you okay?” I looked up to see Jaime. I shook my head and he wrapped me in a hug.
“No Jaime, Adrianna just yelled at me and told me the only thing that she is certain of is her death and she says it’s going to happen sooner or later” He kissed the top of my head and rubbed my back just like he used to when I was a teenager.
“Oh Elli she is just going through a tough time in her life and you need to be there for her and help her through it”
“Yeah I would if she would just talk to me”
“I will go see if she will talk to me okay” I nodded and Jaime soon left me.
ADRIANNA P.O.V
Why doesn’t anyone get it through their heads that when they look at me they are looking at a girl who is going to die at any time? I ran to my bunk and curled up next to Evan.
“Hey baby what’s wrong?” Evan asked as he wrapped his arms around me.
“I just wish that I didn’t have cancer that way I wasn’t such a burden on anyone”
“Hey you are not a burden on anyone. Everyone on this tour loves the fuck out of you. Yeah you have cancer and that sucks but everything happens for a reason” He turned to look in my eyes.
“Yeah but I hate it I just want it to end I want to go to sleep and never wake up” I let out tears that I didn’t think I had left to cry.
“In the words of Austin Carlile ‘Life will never put you through more than you can handle” I giggle at this because that is my favorite quote that Austin Carlile has ever said.
“Curse you for knowing my favorite quote” I smacked his arm lightly.
“I only know it because I love you” He kissed my nose and the curtain to our bunk was opened.
“Oh um hey I was just coming to talk to Addy but I see that you beat me to it” Uncle Jaime laughed.
“Yep he sure did but thank you anyway Uncle Jaime” I gave him a hug before he left.
“No problem Addy” With that he left. I rolled back over to Evan.
“I love you baby”
“I love you too Evan” Before I knew it I was being pulled on top of him and into a kiss. I wasn’t afraid to let this go far because I had talked to my dad and I think I was finally ready.
Clothes were being shed and kisses were being given, I felt like I was the most loved person in the world.
“Are you sure you want to do this?” Evan asked and I nodded my head.
“I have never been so sure about anything in my entire life just don’t hurt me” He kissed my lips and entered me.
I Adrianna Perry Just lost my virginity to the love of my life and I don’t regret it one bit.
Evan and I were lying under the blankets talking about things and what had just happened. I love this boy and I had a feeling that I was going to be with him for a very long time.
“I love you Adrianna, you may not realize just how much I love you but One day you will” Was the last thing I heard before falling asleep in Evan’s arms
It has been about a month since Adrianna started radiation and she has lost all of her hair. I just can’t get over how strong she is, She has the strength to get out of bed every day and put a smile on her face. I am glad that she has Evan he treats her so good and I honestly couldn’t imagine her with a different boy.
“Hey sweat pea how are you feeling?” I asked while sitting down with my lunch
“I am doing good, I just hate going to radiation it sucks.” She sighed and I couldn’t help but let sadness creep into my heart. Adrianna has been battling cancer since she was 10 and I have never really felt that it was a bad thing because I am a strong believer in the saying ‘everything happens for a reason’, but now for some reason I feel like it shouldn’t be happening. I hate how radiation makes her so weak and how she has to deal with people that don’t know what she is going through I wish I could take all of her pain away.
“I know you do but I promise sweaty you only have to do it for a few more months and then its all over for a little while” She began to cry.
“Yeah that’s all it will ever be just a little while. I will stop radiation long enough for me to grow back my hair and then have to start again. I hate this I just want it to end.”
“I know that you don’t like it but radiation is the only thing that will help you get better” I tried to reason with her.
“Don’t you get it? Nothing, Nothing not even radiation or the love of our family is going to help me get better! I am NEVER going to get better! I am only going to get worse and before you know it I will die! THE ONLY THING ABOUT MY FUTURE THAT I AM CERTAIN OF IS MY DEATH AND IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN SOONER RATHER THAN LATER!” I was crying now at the outlook she had on her future. Before I could say anything she ran to her bunk and left me.
I sat with my head in my hands crying for what seemed to be hours. I couldn’t believe that Adrianna felt that way. I thought she was aware and trying to forget the fact that radiation could only do so much to help her get better. I felt a gentle hand on my shoulder.
“Hey what’s wrong are you okay?” I looked up to see Jaime. I shook my head and he wrapped me in a hug.
“No Jaime, Adrianna just yelled at me and told me the only thing that she is certain of is her death and she says it’s going to happen sooner or later” He kissed the top of my head and rubbed my back just like he used to when I was a teenager.
“Oh Elli she is just going through a tough time in her life and you need to be there for her and help her through it”
“Yeah I would if she would just talk to me”
“I will go see if she will talk to me okay” I nodded and Jaime soon left me.
ADRIANNA P.O.V
Why doesn’t anyone get it through their heads that when they look at me they are looking at a girl who is going to die at any time? I ran to my bunk and curled up next to Evan.
“Hey baby what’s wrong?” Evan asked as he wrapped his arms around me.
“I just wish that I didn’t have cancer that way I wasn’t such a burden on anyone”
“Hey you are not a burden on anyone. Everyone on this tour loves the fuck out of you. Yeah you have cancer and that sucks but everything happens for a reason” He turned to look in my eyes.
“Yeah but I hate it I just want it to end I want to go to sleep and never wake up” I let out tears that I didn’t think I had left to cry.
“In the words of Austin Carlile ‘Life will never put you through more than you can handle” I giggle at this because that is my favorite quote that Austin Carlile has ever said.
“Curse you for knowing my favorite quote” I smacked his arm lightly.
“I only know it because I love you” He kissed my nose and the curtain to our bunk was opened.
“Oh um hey I was just coming to talk to Addy but I see that you beat me to it” Uncle Jaime laughed.
“Yep he sure did but thank you anyway Uncle Jaime” I gave him a hug before he left.
“No problem Addy” With that he left. I rolled back over to Evan.
“I love you baby”
“I love you too Evan” Before I knew it I was being pulled on top of him and into a kiss. I wasn’t afraid to let this go far because I had talked to my dad and I think I was finally ready.
Clothes were being shed and kisses were being given, I felt like I was the most loved person in the world.
“Are you sure you want to do this?” Evan asked and I nodded my head.
“I have never been so sure about anything in my entire life just don’t hurt me” He kissed my lips and entered me.
I Adrianna Perry Just lost my virginity to the love of my life and I don’t regret it one bit.
Evan and I were lying under the blankets talking about things and what had just happened. I love this boy and I had a feeling that I was going to be with him for a very long time.
“I love you Adrianna, you may not realize just how much I love you but One day you will” Was the last thing I heard before falling asleep in Evan’s arms
Yeah I am not sure when but I will. I have been really busy lately sorry for the wait I will try to post sometime this weekend
8/31/13