I was crying. Why do I came to this stupid party? I don't even like parties. I was alone. I came here with my best friend, Sarah, but some random guy said to her that he liked her, so now they were making out at some corner. I felt terrible, because someone actually liked her, but nobody likes me. I'm some freak with pink hair and scars, I'm mentally fucked, it's obvious why nobody likes me. My biggest problem of them all, was to dealing with my own thoughts. My brain bullied me, and I couldn't do anything about it. I tried to kill myself multiple times, without success. And it frustrates me, I can't even kill myself right.
I wanted to go away badly, but Sarah was the one who took me there in her car, and she was the one to drive me home again, so I was stuck there. I knew my face was a mess, so I crossed the entire place just to reach to the bathroom. I locked myself in there, and cried. I cursed myself because I didn't have my blades with me. After a big while, I was done crying, I cleaned my face, I fixed my make-up and went out again. I sitted in a couch in a balcony outside, far from all the people having fun. It was cold, but I didn't care. I had a short black dress and a coat, so I was cold, especially my knees.
I was sitting there, with my head resting in my hands, when someone came to me. I looked up, and jesus christ, it was Mike Fuentes himself. I kinda freaked out on the inside, but I tried to look calm. Even though I have a friend on Pierce The Veil, Jaime, who was the one who invited Sarah and me to the party, I never met any of the other guys. And, for being honest, Mike was my famous crush since I started listening that band. He sat next to me, his right leg completely touching my left leg. ''Hey'', he said.
''Hi'', I said nervously, and smiled.
''You're Gina, Jaime's friend, right?''
Oh my fucking God, he knew my name. ''Yeah'', I was dying, but I tried to look normal.
''Shit, you're fucking cold'' he said, and wrapped me with his right arm, while he rubbed my leg with his free hand, trying to warm me a little bit. There were a few seconds of silence, which for me it seemed like hours, until he finally said ''I'm sorry if this is weird, but I saw you crying in the bathroom, what happened?''. What the fuck? He saw me crying in the bathroom? Oh, I understand, the huuuuge window there. Shit. I looked terrible while crying. And what he was doing looking at the bathroom? I had a confused expression in my face. I was NOT going to tell him why I was crying, he would thought I'm an attention seeker, so I limited myself at smiling and just say ''Nothing, I'm fine.''
''Don't fuck with me, you were crying your eyes out in there, what happened?''. He was caring about me. I couldn't believe it. Again, my mind told me that he didn't mean it, he just felt sorry about you, and once you left, he won't even remember who the fuck I was. ''Nothing, I'm kinda fucked up, it just shit of mine...'' I finally said.
''Well, I'm not gonna put more pressure on you, but know that I'm here if you need to talk.'' I melted. ''And I know this doesn't work, but don't be sad, you'll be okay.'' and squeezed me a little bit harder. I smiled like a stupid and said ''thanks'', because it was the only thing I managed to say.
He stayed there, next to me, trying to give me warm, without saying a word.
After a big while, of maybe not that big, I'm not really sure how much time we stayed there speechless., but it was a lot for me, he laughed ''we should kiss, just to break the tension''. My heart stopped. I was dying for doing it. But I didn't even looked at him. I wanted to look at him, to find out if it was true or not. But I knew he was just kidding. He couldn't be. I was fucking horrible, it couldn't be true. There's no possible way that somebody wanted to kiss me. I didn't say a word, I just stood there, looking at the floor. He didn't do anything either.
Moments later he asked me if I wanted to go inside, to dance. ''No, but go if you want. There's no need for you to stay here like an idiot while everybody's having fun...'' I said.
''No way, I'm not gonna leave you here.'' he said quickly. I smiled. I was happy. But I knew he was just fooling around with me, he didn't mean it. Or at least, that's what my mind said me.

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It was around 5.30am and Sarah wanted to leave. I said goodbye to Mike, and thanked him. Before I leave, I found Jaime, who looked at me with a funny look and a smirk. I asked what was going on, and he told me that he noticed that Mike and I were very affective and close the whole night. I smiled and told him that I really liked him since always, and he was just comforting me.
''And you're not doing anything about it?'' he asked.
''What do you mean?''
''Yeah, like, you're not telling him you like him?''
''Nah, I don't think so. He's not into me, I'm sure. Nobody likes me, I don't think that my prince charming is the exception.'' I sighed.
''You'll never know if you don't ask him...'', he said. I wanted to, but I knew he was going to reject me. I didn't want to be embaraced. I wouldn't be able to stand it. Not again.
''I don't think so...'' I laughed. Jaime looked at me with an accomplice look. I thought for a second the hours of cold and isolation we spend together, so I finally said ''Okay, okay. Would you pleaaaaase, tell him I like him?''.
''Why don't you do it yourself?'' he raised an eyebrow.
''No, never, no, please, you do it, please, I'm too fucking shy, I can't.'' I said fast.
''Alright. You sure?''
''Yolo'' I laughed, as Sarah grabbed my arm and took me away. Jaime smiled.
About half and hour later, I was already in my house, obviously, alone. My phone buzzed, it was a message from Jaime that only said ''Done.''. My heart raised and I smiled. I undressed and put on an old big shirt to sleep. I grabbed my coat. It still have his smell. I smiled and throwed me in the bed. I hugged the coat while I smelled it. I fell asleep with a smile on my face... for the first time in years.

Notes

So, well, I know it's kinda shitty, I'm sorry if my writing is very poor, english is not my first language, and this is my very first fanfic.
I hope you guys liked it. I'm gonna keep writing as fast as I can (:
And feel free to leave comments with suggestions, writing tips and/or anything you want :D