*Tony’s POV*

Damn it. I screw everything up. I hate how I acted. But I did mean to punch that kid in the face and break his FUCKING RIBS! Calm down Tony. Calm the fuck down.

Ugh. Now Copeland hates me. She really hates me. She wants me dead and never wants to see me again. Did she really mean that? I hope not. I…I don’t think I should die now. Should I? I won’t let that get to me.

But what I will let get to me is that fact that he slapped her and she said that he didn’t do anything. Who the fuck covers up for that shit?! That’s abuse! And she said that she still liked him? HA! I would never cover up for some whore! If a bitch hit me, I would dump her fake ass and move on. That’s not a relationship. But she said they weren’t dating.

I want to apologize so badly. But for what? I didn’t do anything. But I think I ruined their friendship.

I’m wasting my time. She doesn’t want to see me. I can’t text her, call her, or anything. She won’t take any action of replying or answering her calls anyway so why try?

It’s a Sunday afternoon and I have nothing to do. I guess I’m going to just practice some notes on my wonderful guitar I bought last year. This green and black guitar really matches my love for turtles. And……and the pajamas I let…I let Copeland borrow.

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It’s been 3 weeks and she still hasn’t talked to me. I haven’t been able to visit her either. I tried calling her and she won’t answer. I texted her a couple times and she hasn’t texted me back. I went over her house during the night a week ago. I snuck at her window and threw a stone, but she didn’t budge to even come by the window to see who it was.

I don’t know what to do. Maybe it’s time for me to apologize. BUT I DIDN’T FUCKING DO ANYTHING! Why do I keep assuming I did something so damn wrong when I didn’t. I was trying to protect her from getting her ass beat to death. One slap was nothing. But if he hits her once, what’s gonna stop him from hitting her harder again? Nothing.

*Copeland’s POV*

It’s been 3 weeks and I still didn’t want to talk to Tony. He really pissed me off that day. But why can’t I forgive him? Something is stopping me from forgiving him.

I went to school like nothing happened with me and Bryan. He yelled at me and pushed me away. So he hates me now.

For two weeks straight, every day, I had a shitload of people come up to me and ask for an autograph! So my fucking secret is out. He told everyone he knew. I can’t believe he did that even when I apologized a billion times. I didn’t do anything to him. And it’s all because I didn’t kiss him. But it didn’t feel right. It makes me sad that he went and told everyone. But now I don’t mind that much.

The school students come up to me on and off asking for autographs from me and my dad. I go home each day and ask my dad to make like 20 signatures for them. He doesn’t mind making them but his hand gets tired after a while and we start up again hours later.

Yeah, so Bryan doesn’t like me at all. He gives me dirty looks when he’s with his friends. Either if he’s sitting with them at the lunch table or walking down the hall. It’s always dirty looks. But I see something else when I look in his eyes. He’s not mad. He just looks disappointed, that’s all. He acts like every single girl is expected to say yes or kiss him back. It doesn’t work like that. Not everyone feels the same. But I still like him…I want to forget about him because he doesn’t talk to me now. But what if I can’t forget him? He runs in my mind all day long. I'm staring to forget about him slowly.

I hate this. I wish I could just go back and kiss him and everything would be perfect.
We’d probably be dating and having a cute relationship like everyone else in the school. I’m so lonely and I have no one. I can’t even turn to Tony anymore because of what happened.

It sucks. But the other day, I saw Bryan holding hands with a girl I didn’t know. She was super gorgeous and very attractive. I’m just saying. I could see why he liked her. She had long dark hair that included a different color bow everyday to match her expensive looking outfits. She would wear these short tops that showed her lower stomach. She was skinny and had a perfect body. Her jeans were so tight on her legs. So I guess she’s rich but I could be wrong. But I’ve been wrong before…and it was proven 3 weeks ago.

Tony was right. Boys really are assholes. Especially Bryan. Why didn’t I see it coming? He tried to make a move on me that night at the party. And all because I didn’t kiss him back, he slaps me? I’m not taking that shit anymore.

I think it’s time that I apologize to Tony. I can’t stay mad at him forever. I was wrong and he was right. And I never meant what I said about him dying or never seeing him again.

Oh my god. I JUST REALIZED SOMETHING. The reason I didn’t kiss Bryan is because…is because….I’M SO IN LOVE WITH TONY! That’s why I felt so guilty if I kissed him! That’s why I don’t care if Bryan ever talks to me again. I have Tony! Tony is the reason why I get the fuck out of bed everyday! He’s the reason why I keep going everyday! I love Tony Perry! So damn much! Why didn’t a catch this before?! I’m so stupid for not realizing this sooner.

I just have to apologize now! I’m not waiting any longer. Ok, I’ll have to wait till morning because it’s late.

I’m concerned that he’s not going to accept my apology. I’m a little scared. But he told me not to be scared if I ever have to tell him something. Yup, I’m going to tell him. Now I’m confident that he’s going to take the news well. The news that I was wrong and he was right! I should've listened to him. I am still a child. I'm a terrible person.

I can't wait to tell him though. But I’m going to have to wait until tomorrow.

Time to hit the sack, as Jaime would say. I love my friends. And by that, I mean Pierce the Veil.

Notes

*Caraphernelia reference:3