I'm Afraid That I've Thrown It All Away
Chapter Eight
The next morning Noelle woke up with a sore throat and crusty eyes from all the crying she did. She hopped out of bed and made her way to the kitchen to find Jaime already sat there. He had a sad expression on his face. He looked up when he heard her walking over and opened his arms for her. She obliged and they hugged for a while, not saying a word. She finally pulled away and poured herself a cup of coffee.
“I’m sorry I never told you about it” Noelle said quietly.
“its okay sweetie, I get why you wouldn’t want to tell anyone” He reassured. She stood between Jaime’s legs as he sat on the kitchen stool holding her in his arms.
“I should have said something though, about Max. It’s just that when I told him, he reacted like.. Well you read the messages and I know I can trust you but I was scared it would happen again. Plus I’m not like that anymore, I’m better so I didn’t think I needed to” She said with her forehead leant against his.
“Noelle, it’s fine. But we’re going to sort it out alright? We’ll get you a new number so he can’t get to you and he’s the one that lives in LA so he doesn’t know where you work or live. It’ll be easy to sort this okay?” He had that comforting tone in his voice again.
“Thank you. I love you” Noelle said and planted a loving kiss on Jaime’s lips. He kissed back and they stayed like that for a while, just kissing each other back and forth. Noelle had a day off and the pair was going to go the zoo to take their minds off all the negative shit that was circling around at the minute.
Before they left for the zoo they were sat in Noelle’s bedroom getting ready when Jaime said something Noelle was not expecting.
“I know this is going to sound weird, but I would totally understand if you forgave Tony. I would understand if you ever wanted to leave me and go back to him. I don’t want you to because I love you so much but I would understand and I’d be okay with it.” That was extremely difficult for him to say. He doesn’t want to lose Noelle but he could see how much Tony meant to her. He knows they’re not in love anymore but they still have something there and he just wants Noelle to be happy.
“Jaime, I’m not going anywhere. I love you too much and I’m happiest when I’m with you. I don’t see Tony like that anymore. I stopped loving him 5 years ago. It took me a long time to get over him but I am, 100%. I guess, despite what he did and how much I hate him, he’ll always have a place in my heart because he was my first love and we had something special. But like I said, HAD. We’re never going to be something like that again. I am trying with the whole friendship thing but I will never be with him again. I love you and I don’t plan on ever giving you up.” She wasn’t hurt by what Jaime said, in fact it made her admire him because she knew it must have been hard for him to say but she also knew that she was never going to leave him, for anyone. They may have only been together 3 months but she does love him and she doesn’t want that to change.
“Good, because I couldn’t bear to see you with anyone else” He giggled and pulled her onto his lap to kiss her. They got up and headed to the zoo.
They spent hours at the zoo, doing what people that go to zoos do. They walked around with their fingers laced all day. They ate ice creams and took goofy pictures. They were happy. Noelle had almost forgotten that the night before she had a breakdown. Nothing but what was going on in the time she spent with her boyfriend mattered to her.
On their way home they stopped at the phone shop and got Noelle a new phone and number. She could have just changed her number but she’s been meaning to get a new phone for a while since the one she had was cracked quite badly. She swapped all her numbers over, deleting Max’s and sent out one massive group text letting all her contacts know that she has a new number. She felt a weight being lifted off her shoulders. She didn’t quite know why she never did it before since Jaime was right about her ex not knowing where she lived or worked. I guess sometimes the most obvious things are too close for us to realise.
“I’m sorry I never told you about it” Noelle said quietly.
“its okay sweetie, I get why you wouldn’t want to tell anyone” He reassured. She stood between Jaime’s legs as he sat on the kitchen stool holding her in his arms.
“I should have said something though, about Max. It’s just that when I told him, he reacted like.. Well you read the messages and I know I can trust you but I was scared it would happen again. Plus I’m not like that anymore, I’m better so I didn’t think I needed to” She said with her forehead leant against his.
“Noelle, it’s fine. But we’re going to sort it out alright? We’ll get you a new number so he can’t get to you and he’s the one that lives in LA so he doesn’t know where you work or live. It’ll be easy to sort this okay?” He had that comforting tone in his voice again.
“Thank you. I love you” Noelle said and planted a loving kiss on Jaime’s lips. He kissed back and they stayed like that for a while, just kissing each other back and forth. Noelle had a day off and the pair was going to go the zoo to take their minds off all the negative shit that was circling around at the minute.
Before they left for the zoo they were sat in Noelle’s bedroom getting ready when Jaime said something Noelle was not expecting.
“I know this is going to sound weird, but I would totally understand if you forgave Tony. I would understand if you ever wanted to leave me and go back to him. I don’t want you to because I love you so much but I would understand and I’d be okay with it.” That was extremely difficult for him to say. He doesn’t want to lose Noelle but he could see how much Tony meant to her. He knows they’re not in love anymore but they still have something there and he just wants Noelle to be happy.
“Jaime, I’m not going anywhere. I love you too much and I’m happiest when I’m with you. I don’t see Tony like that anymore. I stopped loving him 5 years ago. It took me a long time to get over him but I am, 100%. I guess, despite what he did and how much I hate him, he’ll always have a place in my heart because he was my first love and we had something special. But like I said, HAD. We’re never going to be something like that again. I am trying with the whole friendship thing but I will never be with him again. I love you and I don’t plan on ever giving you up.” She wasn’t hurt by what Jaime said, in fact it made her admire him because she knew it must have been hard for him to say but she also knew that she was never going to leave him, for anyone. They may have only been together 3 months but she does love him and she doesn’t want that to change.
“Good, because I couldn’t bear to see you with anyone else” He giggled and pulled her onto his lap to kiss her. They got up and headed to the zoo.
They spent hours at the zoo, doing what people that go to zoos do. They walked around with their fingers laced all day. They ate ice creams and took goofy pictures. They were happy. Noelle had almost forgotten that the night before she had a breakdown. Nothing but what was going on in the time she spent with her boyfriend mattered to her.
On their way home they stopped at the phone shop and got Noelle a new phone and number. She could have just changed her number but she’s been meaning to get a new phone for a while since the one she had was cracked quite badly. She swapped all her numbers over, deleting Max’s and sent out one massive group text letting all her contacts know that she has a new number. She felt a weight being lifted off her shoulders. She didn’t quite know why she never did it before since Jaime was right about her ex not knowing where she lived or worked. I guess sometimes the most obvious things are too close for us to realise.
Notes
Short chapter. I'm currently trying to work out where I want this to go. I have a few ideas so I hope they work well.Thank you again to everyone that has read and subscribed to this so far.
9/16/13