I didn't know how many days passed but one day I finally opened my eyes. I could see what was around me. I pressed the nurse button. She came in instantly. "Oh my god" She said she ran out and got the doctor. I didn't know what was going on. The doctor came in. "How are you feeling?" He said. "I don't really know." I replied. "How long have I been in here?" "About 8 weeks." "Has anyone came to visit me or was it all just in my head?" "Yes people did come to visit you, there were four boys who came everyday. They brought you flowers every week. They usually come around 4:00 pm." I smiled. "Really?" "Yup" The doctor replied. "What time is it now?" I asked. He looked at his watch. "Its about 3:13 pm." I smiled "I'll call them now to tell them your awake." "Thank you." I smiled again. He said there were four boys who came? Who were they, I remembered Vic but who were the other 3? I tried so hard to remember the other 3 but I couldn't, I remember hearing there voices, but I forgot what they looked like or exactly what there voices sounded like or who they were. Sadly, I only remembered what Vic's voice sounded like. I had not clue on what he looked liked. It made me sad. I don't want to hurt them by not knowing them. I called the doctor back in "Don't call them can I just get out of here now?" "Yes let me just run one more test on you to make sure your fine and then you can check out." "okay." "Your okay to leave now, just take these pills and you will be fine." "Heres a doctors not, You do not have to go to school until November 5th." I looked at the note. That was in a week. "Okay thanks." I said I got up and grabbed my back pack that was next to me and checked out. I didn't know where to go. "Well I guess I could just start my new life.." I looked in my wallet. I had a lot of money because of my mom, She worked hard for this money, I miss my mom. I tried to shake the thought out of my head that its been about 8 weeks since she isn't here anymore. Shes in my heart. I was walking until I noticed a hotel. I walked into it. "Hi how much is it to rent a room for a week?" "130 dollars and 50 cents." The man at the front desk said. "But the only rooms we have left are suites." "Oh, how much would it be then?" I asked looking my my wallet only having 200 dollars in it. "Well since there is only suites left we can let you pay the 130 dollars and 50 cents." "Sweet!" I said. The guy gave me the keys to my room and I paid for it. "Room 1601 top floor." "Thanks." I said and walked to my room. I went in and saw how nice it was. I shut the door and put my back pack on the floor. I flopped down on to the bed sighing. "Fuck what am I going to do about clothes?" I sat there for a while trying to figure out what I was going to do without any car, with out a real home, with out any clothes. But then I remembered I wasn't broke. I had money, I could probably rent a house close to my school I could probably rent a cheap car, And I could go shopping right now." I got up grabbed my cell phone back pack and hotel keys and left. I called a couple of places on the way to see if I could rent a house. I finally remembered that I had my moms house. I was going to stay at the hotel for a week and then leave to my house. I called a store to rent a car they said they wanted 200 dollars a month. Thats pretty good and I think I can afford that all I have to do is use part of the money I've been saving for my whole life, or use my moms money and then get a job to pay for everything else I need. I was walking looking down at the ground. I ran into some one. "Watch where your going you stupid fucking cunt!" The guy said that was standing in front of me. I looked at him. "First of all I'm sorry I ran in to you, Second of all call me a cunt again and see what happens." I got angry I felt my eyes darken like I was possessed or something. I was pissed. The guy in front of me started to speak. "Oh emo fag, what are you going to do about it.?" I instantly got a memory of who this guy was. It was Casey. I grabbed him by his throat and pushed him against the wall. "Don't fucking ever, ever! talk to me like that again okay you prick." I said. He spit on my face. That made me even more pissed off. I wiped the spit off my face with my free hand. I got in his face, "Look you mother fucker you don't know what has happened with me and both of us probably don't want to find out, I just have the urge to rip your throat out right here and right now, But i'm not going to fucking do it." He pushed kicked me. I didn't fall. "You know what you bitch? Your a pussy your not going to do shit!" He said taking a deep breath. I grabbed him again by his throat and threw him against the wall. He fell down. I got close to him. "Fuck you! Next time I have the chance I will rip your lungs out, Shove them so far up your fucking ass you will breathing shit. And how would you like that? Huh? Breathing your own shit, Living in your own shit. It may hurt like hell but since you love to pick on people with all your bullshit, why don't you just live with it.? I never did any thing to you and you want to play games with me. Calling me a cunt, bitch hitting a fucking girl! You have bullied me since I was in first grade until now. Its been 9 fucking horrible years, because I had to deal with your bullshit. Maybe its time for some payback.." I looked him in the eyes. I could tell he was scared beyond belief. "Now you better get up and start running, because I swear if I ever see you bullying some one else, ever hear some bull shit coming from your mouth I will find you and I will hurt you." I backed away from him. He got up as fast as he could and ran. I didn't know what happened to me. I used to be so afraid. Maybe it is because of being abused, and bullied its finally changed me. I calmed down a little bit. I saw about 3 people coming near me. 2 girls and a boy. They saw me looking at them. "Hey you!" The girl said walking faster towards me. I didn't know what they wanted. She came up to me. "Its about time some one said something to that mother fucker!" she said. "I guess." I replied not really knowing what to say. "Hah! My names Isabella but I prefer to be called Izzy, That's Scarlet but you can call her scar, and that's Mitch." She said pointing at each of them as she said there names. "Hi nice to meet you. I'm Chloey." "Yea we've seen you around school campus before hanging out with Vic, Tony, Mike and Jaime, but you haven't been there lately and we were to afraid you wouldn't want to talk to us and shit." Scar said. I kinda laughed. "I'm not trying to be mean or anything but I don't really remember you guys at all, I bet we have seen each other around.." "Its fine." Izzy said. "So why haven't you been in school for a while." "Its a really long story..." "You can tell us we have time." Mitch said. I smiled. "I don't really wanna talk about it out in public." "Oh..." Mitch said. "We can go to my hotel room? I can probably sneak you guys in?" I smiled. I made new friends and since I didn't think Vic is my friend anymore I decided to try and make new friends. "Sure." They all agreed. We walked an talked on the way to the hotel. "Go to the back door and ill let you guys in." "Okay cool." They headed to the back door. I went in the hotel and looked around to make sure there was no one around. I went to the door to open it for them. I opened the door and they came in. We ran up the stairs and went to my hotel room. "Damn nice room you got here." Izzy said as I closed the door to the room. "Yea I guess I've only been here for about 20 minutes then I left then I ran into you guys." "haha yea." Scar said. We all decided to sit on the floor. "So tell us why you haven't been at school?" Scar said. "Well, I was going through a really hard time, I lost my mother, my step father killed her... Then I didn't want to be alive, I stopped cutting for about a day or two I forget. But razor blades fell out of my back pack and I thought I got rid of them all. But they were calling my name. I cut my self on my legs really badly. And I ran away. I was staying with Vic and some one else. I don't remember, I ran away to the park. But some one found me bleeding out and took me back to Vic's house. Then the next day, I tried to kill my self I got in the car and crashed it, or that's what I remember right now. I got a concussion and I can't remember a lot of things right now.." "Damn, sounds like a pretty tough time..." Scar said. "I'm sorry you lost your mom... Your lucky you had a mom while you did though, My parents abondoned me when I was 3 years old. Left me and my brother on the streets. My brother was older than me, about 13 he left me. I don't know where he is.. I don't know where my parents are.." "I'm sorry.." I said looking down. "Yea, But its okay, shit gets better I guess." She replied. "Yea.." "When are you coming back to school?" Mitch asked. "in a week." I sighed. "Oh that sucks." He said. "Yea.." "But look on the bright side, since you told off that fag Casey things will be better." I laughed. "Yea I guess so." I said. "I'm gonna go to the bathroom." Izzy said and got up. While she was gone I asked them "Who were the other guys besides Vic that I hung out with? I don't remember there names, faces or barley anything about them.." "Tony, He had small gauges, sort of tall shortish longish hair, Jaime had spiky-ish hair with blonde in his bangs, And Mike usually wore a hat, he has longish hair like straightened like Vic's hair.. That's how we can pretty much describe them." Scar said. Izzy came back, she was fixing her jacket and then this baggy fell out of her pocket. I looked down at it. It was a baggy filled with some white powder in it. Everyone was quiet just staring at the baggy. "Is that cocaine?" I asked. "Uhm no.. It's meth.." Izzy said looking horrified that I saw what she had to hide. "Oh." I said. "I'm sorry." Izzy said to me. "Its fine.. I don't really care" I said, and It was the truth I really didn't care.. They looked shocked, "Why are you guys just staring at me? I'm not going to kick you guys out.. I mean we have made it this far I mean I already trust you guys by telling you about what happened right?" "uhm yea.." Izzy said. "Its fine I'm serious." I picked up the baggy and looked at it. I was tempted to try it, I've always wanted to try some drug. I mean I have smoked weed but that's a plant not a drug. I wonder what its like to get high on meth? hmm... Mitch and them were all staring at me still. I handed Izzy the baggy, I decided that if she had meth I could bring out some weed that I hid in my back pack that no one could find. I grabbed my pipe and a container and a lighter. "Do you mind if I smoke in here?" I asked. "Do you mind if a do a line in here?" Mitch said looking at the meth like he craved it. "Like I said, I don't give a fuck." I smiled. Well good start Chloey, you made friends that are rebels, I guess you can fit in now you druggie I thought negative thoughts to my self. But I was only trying to have things in common. "Have you ever done meth?" Scar asked me. "No, but I've always kinda wanted to try it.." "Do you want to try it today?" Izzy asked. "I guess so." I said. She pulled out a straw and a credit card. "Do you have a book or anything flat and solid?" She asked me. I got up and grabbed a square hard wood coaster. I handed it to her. I didn't want to ask if it would hurt because I've heard that it does a little bit for about a minute or two but then it goes away. She made me a little line not to long not to short. I knew how to do this I've seen Anthony (step dad) do it before. I put the straw in my nose while I held the coaster with the meth on it and snorted it. It burnt my nose, It felt like there was a flame beginning in my nostril. The burning sensation went away. It felt different, weird perhaps, but I kinda liked it... We hung out doing lines and smoking weed, They crashed the night at the hotel with me. I guess you could say it was fun, we talked and learned more about each other, They tried to help me remember Tony, Mike and Jaime but it didn't help really. We couldn't sleep because of the meth. The morning time came and we were still talking. I was sort of tired but not so much to sleep. "Are you guys gonna go to school today?" I asked them. "Yeah we better we skipped almost the whole week last week." Izzy said. It was 7:35 am. "We better get going" Scar said. "Yeah." Izzy agreed. "Here's my number text me or call me or what ever if you want to hang out again." I said and put my number in Izzy's phone and she sent my number to Mitch and Scar. "Thanks dude." Izzy said. We all got up. They didn't care if they went out the front door they usually don't remember faces that well. "Okay well we shall text you soon, I left you a present." Izzy said pointing at the baggy next to my pipe. "Thanks" I said. I think I was becoming addicted. In one night? I asked my self. I don't think it could happen this fast. But I craved it a lot. They closed the door and left. I was mad at myself kinda for trying it but I liked it. I decided to leave the hotel and go shopping for some clothes. I spent about 150 dollars and got more money out out the ATM machine there. I was gone for about 3 hours It felt nice to get out from being up all night. I finally came back to the hotel. I did another line because while I was out I wanted one so fucking bad I had to have it. I had to..

Notes

Her clothes she bought today. Hope you like this chapter c:
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