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I need to hear your voice, I can't do this on my own.

Two.

I woke up early the next morning, deciding I would go out for a jog. I rolled out of bed & changed into athletic clothes, a light cought the corner of my eye. I looked over and saw Christian's phones going off. I walked over and looked at the name, I did not recognize it but I saw it was a girls name which made me overly jealous. I ignored the call and even though it's wrong, I decided to snoop, I needed to find out who this Cassandra girl was.

-Cassandra
'does that bitch still think you go to work everyday? Xx'

-Christian
'lol yes! She's so stupid I swear, I can't wait to meet up with you and have that glorious ass of yours babe ;)'


Tears started falling from my eyes, I dropped the phone and ran out of the house, I had no clue where I was going, I was just running, I needed to be away from him and that house. I watched as all these happy couples passed in cars, I just stopped and fell onto the ground, bawling uncontrollably. How could he do this to me? We've known each other since 10th grade, started dating when we were 19 and now he cheats on me? How, I thought he loved me. I got up & started walking until I couldn't take it anymore. I went into a diner and asked if I could have a cup of water, luckily it was free.


I ran back to house to confront Christian only to find out he had already packed his things and left. I walked into the bathroom and saw a note on the mirror in eyeliner that read

"took you long enough" I broke down, fell onto the floor and cried until I was out of tears. I couldn't take it, I lost my boyfriend of 6 years. I wanted to feel numb, I didn't wanna take it anymore, I ran out and took out a little box in the back often closet, a box that hasn't been pulled out in 4 years. Inside was filled with razors, I had struggled with self harm since I was 14 and Christian drove me away from the addiction. I ran into the bathroom, shut the door and slid down the wall. I twisted the blade in between my fingers just thinking about the past with christian and I. I caved in and staged the blade across my wrist, not just once but about 25 times. I never went too deep, I liked having more Little ones than 2 bigs ones.

I decided It was time to stop seeing about 30 cuts on my wrist, blood dripping my my fingers onto the tile. I got up and washed my wrist off, wrapping it in gauze. Walking out of the bathroom I saw the time was just about 6. Fuck it, I'm getting hammered tonight. I walked back into the bathroom and turned the water on, stripping myself for my sweaty, bloody clothes.

"JESUS FUCKING CHRIST" I screame out forgetting how bad fresh cuts stung in the shower, I just ignored the stinging sensation and continued to shower. I hopped out wrapping my hair in a towel, walking out naked. Hell, I could now, no one is here to stop me or tell me I look fat. Fuck you christian.

I walked over to my cleat and pulled out my sexiest dress I had, it was a right baby blue dress that hugged my curved in the right places. I picked out a pair of simple black heels and slipped them on. I curled my hair until it bad am the perfect bounce to it and apples a gorgeous smokey eye. For how much I hate myself, I looked sexy as hell.

I remembered the cuts I had inflicted myself earlier, I sighed and grabbed a black leather jacket to cover them.

I arrived at the club and downed shots Almost immediately, feeling drunk about a half hour.

"Give me a shot of the hardest shit please" the bartender just looked at me and shook his head, oh well. I'm sure he wasn't going through a heart break.

"You better watch it there pretty lady" I turned around to see none other than Jaime Preciado standing right behind me.

Notes

Ok I'm writing on a phone, & these chapters really suck. DRUG ABUSE IN THE NEXT CHAPTER WOO.

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7/31/13
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