You've Got Your Head in the Clouds
I Know I'm Not That Perfect
I ran the eyeliner over my eyes a few more times before pushing the cap back on. My finger smudged over the corners so it didn't look too sharp and I was finally done.
"Are you almost ready?" Mike said as he walke out of our closet buttoning his white shirt. I smiled when I noticed the buttons weren't matched up correctly.
"Yep. I just have to get dressed." I smiled and walked up to him, untucking his shirt once I reached him.
"Doesn't that come AFTER the date?" he smirked down at me.
"Bub, your buttons are mismatched." I smiled as I buttoned the shirt correctly for him.
"I can't even remember to button my shirt correctly " he laughed and the doorbell rang at the same time.
"That must be Vic." I mumbled to myself and ran downstairs to answer the door. When I swung the door open, it wasn't Vic waiting on the other side.
"Hey" Tony flashed his sheepish little smile as he rocked on his heels with his hands shoved deep into his pockets.
"Tony what are you doing here? He'll kill you if he sees you!" I panicked and closed the door enough so Mike couldn't see Tony from the top of the stairs.
"No, he asked me to come over and pick up Luna?" he said with a confused look on his face. "I thought you guys were going on a first date or something."
"Ye-yeah. Come in." I pushed the door aside and let him step into the house. "I just thought he called Vic..."
"It's cool. We're okay, calm down." he said as I shut the door. I nodded silently and turned to go back upstairs, only to be blocked by Tony wrapping his arms around me. I relaxed into his hug and pulled him closer to me.
"I'm so sorry Tony." I whispered.
"Stop it. I deserved a lot more then a hit to my jaw" he laughed.
"Idiot" I laughed heading upstairs to put my outfit on. "Tony's downstairs." I said as I replaced my yoga pants and t shirt with the outfit I chose earlier.
"Cool. I'll go get Luna." he said leaving the room. I let out a noise of frustration and let my hair down from it's bun, leaving it in the waves it fell in. He couldn't even tell me they were talking again? I was driving myself crazy thinking of ways to answer Luna when she asked for him. "Ready?" mike said walking into the room again. I nodded and followed him downstairs and out to the car, not saying a word. "You know, I may not remember a lot of things, but I still know when you're mad."
"Where are we going?" I said coldly.
"You'll see. Why are you mad?"
"I'm not"
"Victoria, come on. I'm not stupid."
"It's because of Tony isn't it?" I could practically hear him smirking. He did this on purpose.
"Why didn't you tell me you were talking to him again?" I shot at him.
"I didn't see a reason to." he shrugged and made a right. "Did you see a reason?"
"No. It just would've been nice to know." I grumbled crossing my arms over my chest.
"Must have slipped my mind." he said cheerily after parking the car and getting out in front of the sushi place he proposed to me in.
"Asshole" I mumbled as I stepped out of the car.
~
My eyes were fixed on the candle and the rose that sat in the middle if the table. I was I a terrible mood. I wanted this to be happy, not some sort of competition to see who could piss each other off more. That's exactly what tonight had turned inti though.
"More wine?" the waiter said stopping in front of our table.
"Yes please, you could actually leave the bottle." I smiled up at the blue eyed man who did exactly as I asked.
"Why dont you ask him for his number?" Mike said rolling his eyes.
"Would you like me to? We could all hang out. Me, you, our waiter, and Marilese. It could be such fun!" I smiled sweetly as I took a sip from my wine glass.
"You are such a bitch" he said laughing bitterly.
"Well it's just perfect then because you're a dick." My eyes narrowed as I spoke.
"Are you done eating? Can we go?" Mike groaned.
"Of course. Let's get out of here."
The car ride home was filled with tension and silence. Both of us wanted to wring the others necks. Neither of us were happy. When we got home Mike and I went straight up to our bedroom to change. Once I had my pj's on I returned to the living room by myself.
"Victoria?" Mike said standing in the doorway of the living room.
"What?" I answered without letting my eyes leave the tv.
"I don't think-" he made a noise and ran a hand through his newly wet hair. "I can't do this. I don't remember falling in love with you again after you left. I don't remember anything. It's not working. I don't want this for us Vicky. You're my everything but I can't remember why. All we do is fight now. I dont want us to be unhappy together for the rest of out lives. I'm so sorry." he shook his head as he finished speaking.
"Mikey we always fought... This isn't anything new we just need to work it out-" I felt tears stinging my eyes as I spoke.
"Victoria, we can't keep doing this. I'm sorry." he turned from me and walked closer to the door.
"Don't you dare leave like this!" I screamed getting off the couch and walking towards where he stopped in the doorway. "How dare you give up on us! After ten years? What the fuck!What about Luna! She's your daughter Michael! You can't just leave her!" my tears were falling from my eyes at a steady pace and I wiped them away angrily. "Mikey...Mikey what about me?...What am I supposed to do?" I whispered.
He turned and shut the door behind him, leaving without a word. My breathing got harder and harder and I found myself on the floor with my head between my knees sobbing. What just happened? My shaking hand typed out Leo's number and his send. It rang four times before her voice came through the speaker.
"What's up buttercup?" she said cheerily.
"L-Leo he's g-gone" my chest heaved up and down as I struggled for breath.
"Baby where are you? Are you home?" she sounded worried now. I nodded, then realized she couldn't see me.
"Yes. He j-just left. Leo I can't breathe."
"Take deep breaths darling I'm on my way. I'll be there in five minutes."
"Alright"
I leaned against the bottom stair and gazed out the storm door in the direction Mike's car had gone. He left. He really left. He didn't even want to try to remember. He didn't want to be here. My body shook and I started crying even harder as I realized that.
"Oh no no no no no" Leo said as she pulled the door open and wrapped her arms around me. "Shhhh you're gonna be okay. It's okay" she whispered as she stroked my hair.
"Why did he do this?" I sobbed. "I need him Leo he can't leave. I love him so much"
"He loves you too honey he just needs time to himself"
"No" I shook my head and tried continuing a sob. "He said he doesn't want to live his life unhappy. That's why he left. He doesn't love me Leo."
"It's okay baby. You'll be okay. Let's get you some strawberry ice cream"
Leo wrapped my arm over her shoulder and walked me to the couch while she got me what she thought I needed. The truth is, nothing was going to fix me this time.
"Are you almost ready?" Mike said as he walke out of our closet buttoning his white shirt. I smiled when I noticed the buttons weren't matched up correctly.
"Yep. I just have to get dressed." I smiled and walked up to him, untucking his shirt once I reached him.
"Doesn't that come AFTER the date?" he smirked down at me.
"Bub, your buttons are mismatched." I smiled as I buttoned the shirt correctly for him.
"I can't even remember to button my shirt correctly " he laughed and the doorbell rang at the same time.
"That must be Vic." I mumbled to myself and ran downstairs to answer the door. When I swung the door open, it wasn't Vic waiting on the other side.
"Hey" Tony flashed his sheepish little smile as he rocked on his heels with his hands shoved deep into his pockets.
"Tony what are you doing here? He'll kill you if he sees you!" I panicked and closed the door enough so Mike couldn't see Tony from the top of the stairs.
"No, he asked me to come over and pick up Luna?" he said with a confused look on his face. "I thought you guys were going on a first date or something."
"Ye-yeah. Come in." I pushed the door aside and let him step into the house. "I just thought he called Vic..."
"It's cool. We're okay, calm down." he said as I shut the door. I nodded silently and turned to go back upstairs, only to be blocked by Tony wrapping his arms around me. I relaxed into his hug and pulled him closer to me.
"I'm so sorry Tony." I whispered.
"Stop it. I deserved a lot more then a hit to my jaw" he laughed.
"Idiot" I laughed heading upstairs to put my outfit on. "Tony's downstairs." I said as I replaced my yoga pants and t shirt with the outfit I chose earlier.
"Cool. I'll go get Luna." he said leaving the room. I let out a noise of frustration and let my hair down from it's bun, leaving it in the waves it fell in. He couldn't even tell me they were talking again? I was driving myself crazy thinking of ways to answer Luna when she asked for him. "Ready?" mike said walking into the room again. I nodded and followed him downstairs and out to the car, not saying a word. "You know, I may not remember a lot of things, but I still know when you're mad."
"Where are we going?" I said coldly.
"You'll see. Why are you mad?"
"I'm not"
"Victoria, come on. I'm not stupid."
"It's because of Tony isn't it?" I could practically hear him smirking. He did this on purpose.
"Why didn't you tell me you were talking to him again?" I shot at him.
"I didn't see a reason to." he shrugged and made a right. "Did you see a reason?"
"No. It just would've been nice to know." I grumbled crossing my arms over my chest.
"Must have slipped my mind." he said cheerily after parking the car and getting out in front of the sushi place he proposed to me in.
"Asshole" I mumbled as I stepped out of the car.
~
My eyes were fixed on the candle and the rose that sat in the middle if the table. I was I a terrible mood. I wanted this to be happy, not some sort of competition to see who could piss each other off more. That's exactly what tonight had turned inti though.
"More wine?" the waiter said stopping in front of our table.
"Yes please, you could actually leave the bottle." I smiled up at the blue eyed man who did exactly as I asked.
"Why dont you ask him for his number?" Mike said rolling his eyes.
"Would you like me to? We could all hang out. Me, you, our waiter, and Marilese. It could be such fun!" I smiled sweetly as I took a sip from my wine glass.
"You are such a bitch" he said laughing bitterly.
"Well it's just perfect then because you're a dick." My eyes narrowed as I spoke.
"Are you done eating? Can we go?" Mike groaned.
"Of course. Let's get out of here."
The car ride home was filled with tension and silence. Both of us wanted to wring the others necks. Neither of us were happy. When we got home Mike and I went straight up to our bedroom to change. Once I had my pj's on I returned to the living room by myself.
"Victoria?" Mike said standing in the doorway of the living room.
"What?" I answered without letting my eyes leave the tv.
"I don't think-" he made a noise and ran a hand through his newly wet hair. "I can't do this. I don't remember falling in love with you again after you left. I don't remember anything. It's not working. I don't want this for us Vicky. You're my everything but I can't remember why. All we do is fight now. I dont want us to be unhappy together for the rest of out lives. I'm so sorry." he shook his head as he finished speaking.
"Mikey we always fought... This isn't anything new we just need to work it out-" I felt tears stinging my eyes as I spoke.
"Victoria, we can't keep doing this. I'm sorry." he turned from me and walked closer to the door.
"Don't you dare leave like this!" I screamed getting off the couch and walking towards where he stopped in the doorway. "How dare you give up on us! After ten years? What the fuck!What about Luna! She's your daughter Michael! You can't just leave her!" my tears were falling from my eyes at a steady pace and I wiped them away angrily. "Mikey...Mikey what about me?...What am I supposed to do?" I whispered.
He turned and shut the door behind him, leaving without a word. My breathing got harder and harder and I found myself on the floor with my head between my knees sobbing. What just happened? My shaking hand typed out Leo's number and his send. It rang four times before her voice came through the speaker.
"What's up buttercup?" she said cheerily.
"L-Leo he's g-gone" my chest heaved up and down as I struggled for breath.
"Baby where are you? Are you home?" she sounded worried now. I nodded, then realized she couldn't see me.
"Yes. He j-just left. Leo I can't breathe."
"Take deep breaths darling I'm on my way. I'll be there in five minutes."
"Alright"
I leaned against the bottom stair and gazed out the storm door in the direction Mike's car had gone. He left. He really left. He didn't even want to try to remember. He didn't want to be here. My body shook and I started crying even harder as I realized that.
"Oh no no no no no" Leo said as she pulled the door open and wrapped her arms around me. "Shhhh you're gonna be okay. It's okay" she whispered as she stroked my hair.
"Why did he do this?" I sobbed. "I need him Leo he can't leave. I love him so much"
"He loves you too honey he just needs time to himself"
"No" I shook my head and tried continuing a sob. "He said he doesn't want to live his life unhappy. That's why he left. He doesn't love me Leo."
"It's okay baby. You'll be okay. Let's get you some strawberry ice cream"
Leo wrapped my arm over her shoulder and walked me to the couch while she got me what she thought I needed. The truth is, nothing was going to fix me this time.
IM CRYING I CANT EVEN WITH THIS STORY THE FEELS OMFG .
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