**** Tony's Pov ****

I woke up on the couch with a pounding headache. I remember having a pretty decent night with the guys. I sat up, rubbed my eyes and stretched. I went to the toilet to do my business and brush my teeth before walking out to the kitchen to be met with Mike and Alice sitting around helping each other with breakfast. I walked through the kitchen to the cupboard that holds the glasses and grabbed one, filling it with water and grabbing some painkillers. I took them and drank half of my water. I turned round to see Mike glaring at me.

"What?" I asked and heard Alice sigh.

"You don't remember?" He asked. I shook my head and he sighed, "I'll leave you two to it..."

"What happened babe?" I asked and Alice shook her head, rubbing her temples.

"Sit down."

I did as told and tried to take her hand but she pulled away. I sighed lightly and figured I must have really pissed her off.

"Look, Tony, this has got to stop." She said holding back her tears, "I really am fed up of the things you say to me whilst you're drunk. Fuck, Tony, last night you told me I should've kept my legs closed. Who fucking does that? Who actually says that to their pregnant, hormonal girlfriend? This isn't my ideal way of being pregnant because ideally, I'd have liked to be married for a few years, be financially stable and the only thing I do have that is ideal is this gorgeous house. I didn't want things to happen this way, and I feel so fucking bad about it every day, I actually hate myself for this, but knowing there's a part of you that feels the same obviously breaks my heart."

I was completely dumbfounded, I had absolutely no clue what to say or do. I didn't even realise I'd said this. I guess, sometimes, in my lowest times I do feel that way, but it's definitely not permanent. It's definitely not the way I feel all the time. And knowing I'm breaking her heart, breaks my heart even more. And honestly, what a fucking disgusting thing for me to say to the love of my life, totally disgusted in myself.

"Do you even have anything to say Tony?" She asked and I looked up, seeing a tear fall from her eye.

"I..." I started, "I don't know what to say, I'm completely disgusted in myself, I can't imagine how heartbroken you must be. I'm so, sorry baby. I can't actually believe I said that, you're right, who the fuck does say that!"

"I can't forgive you right now though, but I will in time."

"I understand baby." I sighed, grabbing her hand and kissing it, I was actually surprised she let me. She gave me a soft smile and I smiled back, "Go have a lie down and I'll clear up here and give the living room a tidying and things. I love you."

She nodded, and I won't lie, it hurt a little bit when she didn't say she loved me back, but if I'm honest, I wouldn't love me right now either. She got up and softly smiled at me one last time and went upstairs for her lie down. Time to try make everything up to her, I guess.

Notes

Title credit: Sorry - Sleeping with Sirens.

sorry I haven't updated this much, I've had so much to catch up on with school, including multiple tests I've had to do which I so wasn't ready for, but oh well! thank you all for sticking with me and staying subscribed during this more than annoying time. I also just did this on my iPad so any spelling mistakes there is, my apologies! :p

will try to update my other stories tonight, I love you all!