As we got to the zoo, Tony insisted that he pay. Of course, I wasn’t particularly happy about that but oh well, it’s really sweet that he wants to pay. I then promised after that, that’d I’d be paying for lunch and things. We walked round the zoo together, hand in hand and smiling at each other. I just loved being in Tony’s company, and I was going to cherish every minute I had with him until he had to leave. The thought of him leaving made me very anxious, but also just sad. I don’t want to be away from him. I seen the tigers and ran, dragging a chuckling Tony behind me.

“Aren’t they just so beautiful?” I gushed as I looked at the magnificent big cats. I’ve always been a cat lady, but tigers I think are just gorgeous. I just love animals anyway.

“Uh, they’re kinda scary Alice…” he said, laughing nervously.

“Oh shoosh, they’re behind a cage. They can’t get you.” I said, staring intently at them. I smiled, I got so lost into the animals and what they do whenever I came to the zoo.

“Alice, you’re seriously so beautiful. You’re so passionate about animals. I love that about you.” Tony said, cuddling me into his side. I smiled, giving him a quick peck on the lips before looking intently at the tigers again. Tony took a picture of us using his front facing camera, posting the photo to Instagram with the caption ‘seeing my girl’s favourite thing at the zoo today :-) @aliceisn0tinwonderland’. I smiled, liking the photo as the notification came up on my phone. We walked around for a long time before we decided to get lunch. It was extortionate at the zoo, so we decided to just go elsewhere. I buckled myself into my seat and hummed along to the songs that were playing. I had my hand on Tony’s thigh and everything just seemed so perfect, if I’m honest.

A Pierce the Veil song came on and it reminded me of Tony having to go on tour soon. I frowned, Tony quickly noticing my change in demeanour.

“Are you okay baby?” he said, taking my hand in his and giving it a little squeeze.

“You have to go on tour soon. I’m sad; I don’t want you to go. I like having you here. And, I guess, I know I shouldn’t say this, but I’m insecure about you going. I just don't want you to leave me...” I lowered my voice at the last bit. I partly didn’t want him to know I was insecure, but I partly was scared of the way he’d react.

“I know baby. I’m sorry, it’s my job though. When we get back, we’ll be looking at houses together, remember!” he said, smiling at me. “It’s only for a little while my baby, and you have nothing to be insecure about. I’ve learned my lesson. I ain’t ever letting you go again, gorgeous.” He said, placing a kiss on my hand. I smiled, feeling slightly more reassured.

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Tour time came around quicker than anything and I’ve decided; no time with Tony was enough. I wanted him to be with me all the time. I’d helped him out with packing the night before and I was hardly letting him take anything with him, wanting to keep it all to wear to bed. I couldn’t help it. I just needed stuff to remind me of him and that smells like him. His scent on my bed sheets would soon wear off and that made me even more upset – it won’t be the same without him in my bed or me in his. It’ll be a very lonely couple of months. Yeah, phone calls and texts will be shared but it won’t be the same. I won’t get to wake up to his beautiful face, I won’t get good morning and good night kisses. It just sucks. I wish I could’ve gone with him, but I can’t. I have work. I hugged Mike, Jaime and Vic goodbye as they set up in the bus. I weakly smiled at Tony, the tears already threatening to fall. I hugged him and he wrapped his arms round my waist, burying his head into the crook of my neck. I sighed, breathing in his scent for the last time in a while. I felt his tears hit my neck and it felt like my heart sunk into my stomach.

“I guess if you’re gonna cry, I will…” I smiled through my tears, playing softly with his hair as he cried into my neck.

“I just don’t want to be away from you.” he mumbled, wiping his tears away with his sleeve and giving my neck a quick kiss. I huffed, feeling like he shouldn’t be leaving. It just sucks so much, seriously.

“I don’t want to be away from you either baby.” I pouted, him kissing my sad lips. I wiped away my tears and smiled. “We’ll be okay. We’ll speak to each other every day, we’ll be great! It’ll be okay. I’ll be okay. You’ll be okay.” I reassured, mostly trying to reassure myself though. “I love you so, so much Tony, I’ll see you in a few months, okay honey? I can’t wait. I love you. Now go.” I said, shooing him away. It hurt to see his sad face.

“I love you so much Alice, never leave me.” he sighed, before wrapping me in one more cuddle, allowing me to get one last hug from him. He then kissed my lips so passionately, as if he was afraid he was never going to be able to do it again. It made my heart flutter, but then again, most of Tony’s kisses do that to me.

He stepped away, holding my hand for as long as he could. He gave me a weak smile, trying not to cry again. I wiped away tears with my spare hand and waved. He got into the bus, waving one last time and the bus soon left. I waited until I couldn’t see it anymore and huffed, grabbing Cassie’s hand and going inside our house. I sat down on our couch, sighing loudly.

“Just us two babe.” Cassie said.

“Just us two.” I said, weakly smiling at her before turning some shitty TV show on.

Notes

Title credit: Million Dollar Houses - Pierce the Veil.

I'm so sorry I haven't updated in so long, I've been so busy! And then I had writers block. I kind of know where I'm going with this, just not entirely decided yet. I've decided this will end at 25 chapters! I think that'd be a good place to end. There's plenty of drama coming up.

What will happen whilst Tony's on tour? Will he stay faithful? How will Alice cope?

I hope you all enjoyed this, sorry I'm a bit rusty right now! Thank you all for reading, you're all amazing! <3