*** 2 days later *** I have yet to find out exactly what had happened between Mike and Tony, but right now I just wanted to forget everything and visit some of the sights here in Manchester. I've been avoiding Tony as well, yes I know I have to talk to him but I can't as yet. I'm wandering around Manchester, not knowing where to go. A few people have approached me, asking me for pictures and other things. I will never understand what the big deal is with me. I should ask the guys later on. I gave in on looking around because I knew I'd end up getting lost. Part of me wanted to keep looking so I could have some time alone but I knew I can't be out alone for any length of time on my own. As I arrived back at the hotel, I spotted Mike & Jaime over at the bar. I skipped over, sitting myself between them. “This town is boring.” I groaned as I stole Mike's drink. “Why else do you think we're sat at the bar?” laughed Jaime. The silence between us soon became awkward, eventually making Jaime get up and leave which I was thankful for. Turning my attention to Mike he decided to get up, I grabbed his arm making him stay next to me. “Mikey? What happened?” I asked, looking at him straight in the eye. I had to know why he did what he did to me. He didn't answer me, I tightened my grip on his arm. “Tell me?” “Alright, but not here. Come little sis, we'll walk and talk.” Finally; he was going to open up to me. We headed out the hotel, taking a casual walk. It wasn't long till he opened up. I really wish I hadn't pestered so much, the hurt in my brothers eyes as he spoke really broke me. I didn't know what to say or do. Do I turn and run? Do I stay? A surge of anger ran through me. Mike had continued walking, he soon realised I wasn't stood next to him. As soon as he turned around, I spun around and ran. I did nothing but run, I didn't know what else to do. I reached the hotel, running through it, up the several flights of stairs, pushing people out of my way, not caring what they thought of me. I didn't even stop when I reached Tony's room, I ran straight in, slamming the door. “Please tell me it's not true.” I managed to get out through my unsteady breathing. He gave me a questioning look. He was playing dumb. “You and Mike, is it true?” My voice rose, I shocked myself at how quick I managed to shout at him. “Who told you?” his voice stayed quiet. “No-one. I figured it out. Why him?” I stood back as he got up from his bed. He shot me a look, he didn't want to talk about it. “You better hope Vic never finds out.” With that I walked out, making sure the door slammed as hard as possible. I froze on the spot when I saw Vic & Jaime stood outside. I gave a small smile before heading down to my own room. I buried my face in the pillows on my bed, screaming into them. I stayed in that position for a good hour before 3 soft knocks rang through my room, followed by Mike's voice. I didn't answer him, I didn't even look up when I heard the door open and shut. This was all my fault. If I'd of just been constantly good with Tony then Mike would never have been dragged into all this and this would never of happened to him. “Claire? It wasn't anyone's fault you know.” his voice soothing as he lightly stroked my back. “Why can't we have a normal life?” I mumbled into the pillow. I turned over, letting out a heavy sigh. “Just forget about it, I have.” his smile was weak, I would go as far to say it was a broken smile. He's broken, they broke him down. “That's why I did what I did to you. I couldn't have you witness that.” His arms wrapped around me, pulling me into a tight hug. Nothing, I mean nothing at all would ever make me forgive Tony for all this. I don't think I'll ever forgive myself for getting us into this whole mess. We sat there in total silence, that was until Jaime popped his head in to see if everything was okay. We told him I was feeling a little home sick. Well Mike told him that, I just sat there staring at the floor. I was broken once again, my brother was broken and no-one suspected a thing. I checked the time, it was getting on. “Go on rockstar, go amaze your fans.” “I'm not going unless you come watch me play.” a cheeky grin spread across his face. “Mikey, I love you and everything but ther---” “You're coming.” I nodded, there was no use arguing. He wasn't going to leave me alone. I knew that. This whole trip so far, apart from my little walk earlier, he hasn't left my side. Vic & Jaime have put it down to us being in a different country, oh if only they knew the real reason he wouldn't leave my side. *** I was sat backstage watching them rock the stage, the vibe in this place was amazing. The crowd were singing loudly, the guys played their hearts out as usual. There was nothing better than seeing them doing what they loved. By them I mean my brothers. They looked so happy. But tonight, Mike didn't. While Vic made his speech, I could see Mike looking a bit distracted, agitated even. Just as Vic came to an end, Mike got up and walked backstage, straight past me. I hurried after him; calling his name but he ignored me, kept walking away. “Mike, will you please slow down.” I shouted. Still no response, before I knew it we were back at the hotel and in his room. He was sat at the bottom of the bed, on the floor. “Talk to me?” “I thought I would be able to forget it but I can't.” his voice no higher than a whisper. “It's going to be hard, it's still fresh in your mind. What's going on inside that head of yours?” I sat myself in front of him, trying to get some clue from him about his actual feelings. “He wouldn't get off me.” His voice cracked, wiping away the tears from his eyes he shook his head. I did the only thing I could think of, I leant closer pulling my now broken brother into a tight hug. How on earth was I going to explain this to the others? Well Jaime and Vic. There was something else though, both Tony & Mike were hiding something from me. Once I managed to calm my brother down, I went out on the balcony to make a phone call. I wanted to know the full truth, there was only one person I'd get it from. Jack

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Just a couple more chapters left now :)