*Tonys POV*

I left the guys in the house and stormed out into the street. I cant believe how stupid I am, having Rhiannon in the house when I knew Emily would be back any second, Jaimes right, I am an asshole and a stupid fucking prick. I stop in my tracks and punch the wall beside me, getting weird looks from the people walking past. My punches become weaker as my angry slowly turns into sadness. I realize theres a bench a few feet away from me. Tears begin to stream down my face as I drag myself over to the bench and sit down. I rest my head in my hands and cry. I do nothing but cry. I've lost Emily for good this time. I dont know a good thing when I have one. Rhiannons nothing compared to Emily, why am I so stupid. 'Excuse me' I look up and see a young girl, maybe about the age of 14, looking at me 'Are you Tony Perry?' I nodded, not being able to push words past the sobs
'I just wanted to let you know, you're incredible and my inspiration. I dont know why your crying but if it makes you feel any better, you've saved my life' She sits down next to me and rolls her sleeves up, revealing scars in every direction and a few fresh, sore looking cuts. This only reminds me of when Emily first told me about her self harm and I begin to cry harder. ' I'm sorry ' The girl says before she wraps her arms around me. I hug the girl back, it feels nice to have someone comfort me for once, even if I dont have a clue who they are. 'I hope nothing too bad has happened'
' I've just made the worst choice of my life ' I pull out of the hug, I look at her face, taking in her features. She has glasses and nose ring, a little acne on her face too and her hair is red, she reminds me a lot of Emily when I first met her. 'So whats your name?'
'Im Emilia but I prefer to be called Emily' Well, what a coincidence
'Well then, Emily. Im glad I've help you and I presume, Pierce The Veil has too' She nodded ' Im happy you've found something to keep you sane and to stop doing this' I ran my hand over her wrist. How could someone so young do this to themselves? Barely starting life and already shes been damaged, the worlds a cruel one. 'Tony, can I ask you whats wrong?'
'You might be a little to young to understand' I sigh but her eyes begged me to go on ' I made a stupid mistake and lost the person I love and when I say mistake, I mean a massive one'
'Well, you cant take back whats already happened but you could show her how much you love, do something big and romantic. Get a load of balloons and paper and write every reason you love her on a piece of paper and put them in the balloons then blow them up and fill her car with them so when she has to pop them all, she'll find out just how special she really is to you. Write her song or do something no one ever has for her, make her feel wanted and loved. Show her she's appreciated and the only thing you need. Mistakes can be forgotten. She obviously loves you back and loves hard to fall out of.' I look the girl in the eyes, taking in everything she just said. Damn, if only I was that wise at 14. 'Well? Why are you still sat here?'
'Give me your hand' She looked puzzled but did as I asked, I pulled a pen from my pocket (what, you never know when you'll meet a fan who wants something signed!) and wrote my email address down on her hand. 'If you ever need someone to talk to, just email me, I reply as soon as I can' I gave her another hug before I stood up to run off 'Tony'
'Yeah?'
'Thank you and good luck!' I smiled at her before running off in the direction of the only place Emily would go when she didnt know what to do.
*Emilys POV*

'Oh Emily' Rebecca said, pulling me into her arms, allowing me to cry into her. 'I thought right. didnt I?' I nodded and began to cry harder. 'Im going to rip his dick off and feed to my cat while he watches' She joked, trying to lighten the mood but it didnt work.
'They did it in our bed, the bed I have to sleep in. I feel sick and used and worthless and...' I couldnt finished my sentence as sobs over took my body
'Lets go inside and watch horror movies and eat ice cream and talk about everything, OK, sound good?'
'Well, it sounds better than crying' We both laughed a little. Rebecca passed me a tissue to sort out my eye make up, which was now half way down my face. I changed into pyjamas and curled up on the sofa while Rebecca was setting up the movie and grabbing the ice cream and spoons.
About half way through the second movie, my eyes began to feel like weights, which I allow to close and let sleep take over me
*Rebeccas POV*

By the end of the second movie, I could hear soft snores coming for Emily. She looked so peaceful and beautiful, even if an hour ago she had mascara half way down her face, shes still beautiful. I've always had some kind of feelings for Emily, like more than a best friend kind of feelings but I've never really admitted them till now. I've seen this girl in her worst times and in her best times, she's made my life better in so many ways, I'd probably be in the grave if it wasnt for her. Shes such a strong person, always has been and always will be. I wish she was happy, with me. Dont get me wrong, I was happy to see her with happy with Tony but I'd always wanted her to be happy with me. I was pulled from my thoughts when a knock came at the door. Who's coming round uninvited at 8:30? I stand up and walk over to the door pulling it open 'Tony....' I sigh
'Is she here?'
'Do you think Im going to tell you if she is or isnt?'
'Please, I made the biggest mistake of my life, even bigger than leaving her for 5 years. Im a stupid twat and I know I dont deserve her now but please, just let me explain myself'
'Shes not here so I dont kn...' I was cut of by Emily
'Shut the door, Im cold' Tony gave me a disapproving look and pushed past me into the living room. 'What are you doing here?' She tried to make her voice sound strong but failed.
'I've made the biggest mistake ever. I should never had listened to Rhiannon at the reunion and I should never had taken advice of the internet.' He stopped talking as his phone buzzed in his pocket, he pulled it out and his face dropped
*Tonys POV*

I checked my phone to see it was a text from Rhiannon.
From: Rhiannon x

You're a fucking dick Perry. I knew I shouldnt trust you, you should never trust a guy in a band yanno, their all DICKS. I never want to see you again. I hate you, fucking asshole. And dont think you're fans wont know about this, Im going to play holy hell. Dickhead.
' I never wanted Rhiannon, I dont even know why I thought I did. You mean everything to me Emily. I cried in front of a 14 year old fan over you and if it wasnt for her, I dont think I'd have the strength to be saying this to you right now. You inspire me to write music Emily, do you know a few of the songs are about you? You've always been the only thing thats keeping me alive, even when I left you. I've never felt like this about anyone before. Its always been you and no one else. Im so sorry I ever did this to you, no one deserves to be treated like this, especially you. If you told me now you never want to see me again Id completely understand, just hear me out. I love you, like Im in love with you and I dont think I'll ever forgive myself for what I've done' I look down at my hands, which are beginning to bruise and scab over, the feeling only beginning to come back 'Without you Im nothing, I cant feel without you. Im lost without you. Please. I love you more than anything in this world, you're the only thing that makes me want to get up every morning and face this shit hole called the world. Please Emily, Please'

She doesnt say thing, she just sits there and looks at me, tears tumbling down her face. I try to read the emotions in her eyes but I cant, there is no emotion. 'Tony...' She stands up and touches my face, wiping the tears I didnt even know where there away with her thumb. My hand moves up and holds onto her wrist as we look into each others eyes. 'I'm sorry...' She looks away from me and lets her hand fall from my face and her arms wrap around my waist, my arms subconsciously wrap around her neck. 'Im sorry....' she repeats again, whispering into my ear. 'Goodbye...' She lets her grasp on me go and looks me in the eyes before walking upstairs. I couldnt move, I couldnt breathe, I couldnt think. I didnt know what to do. My legs began pulling me towards the front door and onto Rebeccas front porch 'Im sorry Tony' Was all Rebecca said before she shut the door. I remembered the look on Emilys face before she walked away. She looked more beautiful than ever, her skin with its soft glow, her eyes that couldnt be described, her soft, pale skin. I've lost her, I've lost my best friend, my lover, my rock. I've lost everything.

Notes

Lucky you! I've updated twice today!
This chapter is really emotional, is it ok that I cried writing this? Meh, I dont care
I dont even understand how I managed to make this so emotional, Im normally the big tough girl who doesnt get emotional easily but I dont know what happened here. Im guessing this has deeper emotions in it them I meant but its turned out amazing. only about 2 more chapters now until the end of this part. Man, its gone quickly. Im enjoying this part of the story so much but Im just way too excited to write then next half! Thanks for reading!

Emily x