I opened my eyes slowly as to not let all the light in at once. "Fuck." My head was pounding. How much did I drink last night? I got out of my bunk and went to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror. My eyes were red and puffy and I could tell I had been crying. Something definitely went down last night. As I went to walk out of the bathroom I bumped into Tony. "Good Morning." I smiled. He walked right past me and closed the door behind him. What just happened? I walked into the kitchen area where the guys were sitting. Mike threw his hands up in the air "There's our heavyweight champ!" I rolled my eyes "What are you talking about Mike?" Mike opened his mouth to explain but Jaime interrupted him "You beat the shit out of Tony's ex!" I looked at Vic and Mike for confirmation, they nodded their heads. I opened my mouth in shock. "Is..is she okay?" I stuttered. I heard Tony's voice from behind me "She has a broken nose and had to get 9 stitches, how does that sound to you?" I turned around to face him. "Tony, I'm ...I'm so sorry, I was wasted I didn't know what I was doing, I honestly can't even remember what happened. He scoffed "And do you honestly think that makes everything better?" I looked down "No, of course not bu.." "Whatever" he mumbled as he went to sit down. "Tony..." he ignored me. I couldn't deal with him not talking to me. "TONY!" I yelled. he stayed silent. The room began to spin, I felt tears begin to fill in my eyes. I turned around and ran into the bathroom, locking the door behind me. I buried my head in my hands. Now I knew why I had been crying.

About half an hour later the bus stopped so we could get some food at a quickie mart. I stayed in the bathroom, I wasn't hungry. I heard the bus door open and close but then I heard Vic's voice. "Tony, wait, we gotta talk about last night." Tony sighed. "I know what Naomi did last night was fucked up, but so is what Marisol said to her. If I were her in that situation I would have done the same" Tony spoke, " Yeah except when she found out Marisol was my ex she didn't even wanna talk to me, all she wanted to do was drink more. It made me feel like shit that she couldn't just come to me and trust me. And, she seriously hurt her. But more importantly, she hurt herself." There was a pause. I kept listening, what was he talking about? "When I came back on the bus, she was in her bunk clawing at her arms, crying, saying how sorry she was." He took a sharp breath in "She was bleeding" I looked down at my arms and saw raised red marks. Tony continued "I held her until she finally passed out." I heard him sit
'I'm scared dude. I'm scared for her, because she does these things. I don't want to lose her, I mean, I just got her after two years of waiting. And it just pisses me off so much that she would wanna fuck it up over my ex. And It scares me that the only way she thinks she can get forgiveness is by hurting herself." Vic sighed "You need to talk to her man. She needs you." Tony was silent. I heard a clap "Well, I'm starving, wanna get some grub?" Vic asked "Yeah, go ahead, I'll be right behind you." Tony said. I heard the door open and close again and then footsteps moving towards the bathroom door. There was a knock "Naomi?" he waited for a response, but I stayed quiet. "At least let me know you're okay." I heard a flicker of panic in his voice. I lightly tapped on the door and he let out a sigh of relief. I heard him sit down on the other side of the door. "Om's I...you really fucking freaked me out last night. Not just what you did to Marisol, but what you did to yourself. It pisses me off that you couldn't just talk to me and trust me. And what you did to yourself? Om's when I first met you at one of our shows, you told us that we were the reason you stopped self harming. I can't deal with the thought of being the reason you start again." I stayed quiet for a second. "Tony, I didn't know what I was doing, I lost control." I glanced down at my arms again. Tears began running down my face. "You're not the reason, I probably..." My voice cracked "I deserved it." Tony suddenly stood up "Open the door, right now" I hesitated "NOW!" he yelled. I opened the door and he rushed in, wrapping me in his arms. "Promise me you'll never hurt yourself again,promise me." I looked down "I..I can't make that promise." He grabbed me by the chin so I was looking right into his eyes. They were filled with tears. "Promise me Naomi." he repeated.I built up my courage and cupped his face in my hands "I promise Tony."