The party is in full swing, everyone is drunk and going crazy, being the only one sober is hilarious. Weirdly they play some kind of rap, but i have no idea what it is.
Sitting in my bunk on my phone just thinking. Tony hardly knows anything about me, he says he loves me but i'm afraid that he won't like the real me. The me that hurt herself when things got tough and tried to end the life that my parents regretted making. I don't want any of this to end.
"Come on Syd, don't be a party pooper!" Jaime smiled at me bouncing around. I put my head in my hands and tried super hard not to cry. I felt Jaime sit on the end of my bed and put his hand on my back.
"What's up Sydney? Do you want me to go grab Tony?" He took my silence as a yes, but before getting up and leaving he kissed the side of my head and gave me a hug. I heard him walk off and then chattering just before Tony arrived. His voice was low and gentle.
"What's up baby? Come here" I moved my hands away from my face and could only imagine the black smudged mess my face is by now. Tony is considerably bigger than me so i had to look up to face him. He already looked disapointed and sad, I couldn't tell him his girlfriend is a depressive who knows she doesn't deserve anyone like him. We sat there in silence while i tried to make my words come out right.
"Tony" I sobbed and he looked at me with his beautifull eyes concentrating hard on what i was about to say. "I feel that you don't know me, I really don't deserve you and I think you should find somebody that can really give you what you need..." I was speaking so fast I'm surprised he heard any of it.
"Woah where has all this come from? I know everything I need to know about you, you're perfect and perfect for me no matter what you think." I started stroking my wrist that was all bumpy from my scars to give him an idea of what I was talking about without saying anything. He looked down and suddenly caught on to what I meant.
"Oh Syd" He took the place of where my hand had been and held it and raised it to his lips. "This doesn't matter anymore, I'm gonna make your life better, our life is gonna be crazy but it'll be worth it. You're worth it and if you think i'm letting you go, well than you're pretty stupid" He laughed. He layed down on my bed behind me and pulled me from behind and turned me round so I could lay down beside him. I did. He rested his hand on my waist and kissed me, perfectly as usual and pulled me closer. His hand slid down further but then he pulled back and laughed. "If only they weren't here, Do you think they'd notice?" Tony asked. He better be joking.
"Yes!" I laughed. "Not now, don't you want to go back to the party?" I asked him getting of subject.
"No, i'm happy here with you. Forever."
Somehow we managed to fall asleep with all the noise. I woke up extremely close to Tony, he felt so warm and I wanted him so much. Just when the time is right. The bus was quiet so I assumed that the party was over and everyone had passed out by now. Still staying in Tony's embrace I searched the end of my bunk for my phone. 11:30. Already? Jeez. They had a show tonight too. All my fidgeting woke Tony up. He moaned and yawned.
"Sorry" I apologised quietly.
"It's okay, I woke up to you. If it was Jaime i'd kick his ass" he laughed still sleepy. Sweet.
"So what do you wanna do today, seeing as it's gonna be just us today."
I couldn't think of anything.
"Fine, a day of surprises.How's that sound?" Perfect but i answered by kissing him.
After we go up and had got something to eat. I went to change my clothes. I put on the nicest clothes I had . A black dress with safety pins and skulls on it and my Toms. I curled my hair and did all my make up before I heard somebody else rummaging around in the kitchen area. I walked out to see if it was Tony. Nope Mike. Correction hungry Mike. "Did we eat all the lucky charms?" I searched the other side of the room and found them on the table and handed them to him and he just ate them out of the box.
"Love you Syd!" He said filling his mouth with cereal.
"Love you too Mike!"
"You look gorgeous by the way, Tony taking you out?" He winked.
"Maybe" I shouted walking off to find my gorgeous and perfect boyfriend.