What If I Can't Forget You (Sharpen Your Teeth & Bite As Haed As You Want Sequel)
I'll Burn Your Name Into My Throat
Josh Franceschi's P.O.V
My heart ached for her. Everyday seemed like such a chore. Listening to her cry. Listening to her sadness and hurt. I couldn't bare it. A month had passed since the end of Warped and she hasn't gotten over it. She hides herself away but that would have to change. Today we leave for Paramores World Tour. I couldn't see anyway this could end well as she would have to see him tomorrow. Oh there she goes again. Her routine is; wake up, cry, get coffee, cry, listen to depressing music, cry then go to sleep. I haven't seen her eat in days.
Hayley, Taylor and Jeremy decided to move to California into the house that Chad and Hayley bought a few months before they split up. Chad let her keep it. Taylor asked us to stay here with them while we were in Cali anyways. We decided there was no reason why not to but I ended up with the room next to Hayley. Which is hard for me because I try to help and she pushes me away then I have to listen to her cry. There have been countless nights I've ended up crying just by what I can hear from her. She was truly heartbroken.
I climbed out of my bed and grabbed my bags. This tour would either be good or horrble. I hope not the lather one. I took my stuff down stairs and was greeted by Max, Jeremy and Taylor. "You ready man?" Taylor smiled. "As I'll ever be" I replied. "Do you think she'll cope?" Max asked with a sad look. "We hope so" Jeremy tried to smile. It pained us all to see her like this but that's love. My heart literally broke for her when Cara turned up at the party. I shook my thoughts away in time to hear Hayleys bedroom door open then slam shut. We all looked at each other then heard her drag her suitcase down the stairs. She finally appeared and dumped it down infront of her. She looked up at me first and weakly smiled. "You ready for this?" I asked. She didn't say anything... just nodded.
I picked up her suitcase handle and my own and dragged them outside. She followed behind me along with Max, Jeremy and Taylor. When we got outside I seen Dan, Matt, Chris, Ilan and Justin all sitting with their own luggage around the porch. Hayley threw herself down onto the grass, face down. I sighed and sat down next to Dan. "This is going to be hell" I whispered. "If we could have swapped buses, her life would be easier but no. Stupid tour managers" Dan said angrily. "She has to deal with seeing him all day, every day" I sighed. "I hope to god he doesn't bring Cara or I swear I'll punch his face in" Dan groaned. I nodded, with a slight laugh. Suddenly, two buses pulled up infront of the house. "This is it" I said standing up. I looked at Hayley and she looked up slightly then buried her head in her arms again.
Hayleys P.O.V
This was it. The buses were here and I would finally have to face my fear. Everyone began to walk over to the buses and I knew it was time for me get up but my body refused to budge. Eventually, I slowly stood up and looked for my bags but they weren't there. The guys musta gotten them for me. Turning on the spot and heading towards my bus. As I got closer everyone poured out of the bus. Tony... Mike... Jaime... and then Vic. My heart stopped when our eyes met and he looked at his feet. I continued walking towards them.
"Hayley!" Jaime screamed, he pulled me into a hug and spun me around. "Jaime, I've missed you" I whispered into his ears. "I've missed you too" He said into my ear. He let me go and Tony pulled me in for a hug. "Turtle" I said. He kissed the top of my head and let me go. Mike pulled me in for a hug and then quickly dragged me on the bus away from Vic. I was so grateful. We sat down on the couch in the longue area. "Hayley, she's here" He whispered and looked towards the bunks. I closed my eyes and sighed. "Best begin to act like I don't care" I muttered. Jeremy, Taylor, Ilan, Justin, Tony, Vic and Jaime all climbed onto the bus. Everyone began to do their own things. I decided to go to my bunk and listen to music. I closed my eyes and my mind took me back to that horrible night.
Flashback.
"Hayley, come back" I heard someone shout. I didn't stop. I ran until my legs couldn't move anymore. Eventually I fell to the ground in tears. I felt arms around me and lift me up. I looked to see who it was and it was Josh. I held onto him and cried. "Don't take me back" I begged. "I'm not, we're going to hotel" He whispered.
We walked into the hotel room and I ran to the bed and climbed under. I couldn't care less anymore. My life was falling to pieces. Josh climbed in and hugged me. "How could he?" I cried. "Hayley, think about it... she is clearly around 6 months pregnant, this was before he even knew you" Josh whispered. I looked at him. "Does that make a difference? He's gonna go have a baby with her, he doesn't need me" I cried more. He just rubbed my back and hugged me. I was grateful. He done that until I blacked out from exhaustion.
End of Flashback.
I shook the thoughts and looked at my phone. It was 12am. I climbed out of my bunk and walked down into the kitchen, I was rubbing my eyes as I walked in. I walked over to the fridge and pulled out a water bottle,. As I was taking a sip something caught the corner of my eye and I turned to see someone sitting in the darkness. I jumped backwards and dropped my water, spilling it all over the floor. "Shit" I muttered as the coldness swam around my feet. The figure stood up and grabbed a towel. They began to mop up the mess and I bent down to help them. The moonlight caught the persons face and I jumped back when I seen those familiar brown eyes stare into my eyes. It felt like hours passed while we looked at each other.
We both slowly stood up and not a word was said. He stepped back and then left the room. I sighed and then the tears began to fall. I couldn't do this could I? I couldn't live with him for 9 months. I especially couldn't live with him when his new girlfriend is having his baby. I slid down the counter and cried.
"Hayley?" I heard Tony whispered. I looked up and seen his eyes filled with hurt. "Vic told me you were crying so I decided to come and see if you were okay" He whispered. I looked at him and cried more. He sat down infront of me and hugged me. "Come on now, don't cry" He said soothingly. "She's here... she will be parading him around" I choked out. "Look, you have your reasons why you don't wanna talk to him but you have to speak to him and find out his side... I promise, it'll make you understand more okay" He whispered. I nodded. "For you Turtle okay... I'll try" I said softly. "Come on, let's get you sleep. We have a show tomorrow" He grinned. "Yeah we do" I smiled. He held his hand out for me and pulled me up. He pushed me in the bunk area and then towards my bunk. I climbed in and turned to say goodnight to him before laying my head down and falling asleep. Maybe, just maybe... I could do this.
My heart ached for her. Everyday seemed like such a chore. Listening to her cry. Listening to her sadness and hurt. I couldn't bare it. A month had passed since the end of Warped and she hasn't gotten over it. She hides herself away but that would have to change. Today we leave for Paramores World Tour. I couldn't see anyway this could end well as she would have to see him tomorrow. Oh there she goes again. Her routine is; wake up, cry, get coffee, cry, listen to depressing music, cry then go to sleep. I haven't seen her eat in days.
Hayley, Taylor and Jeremy decided to move to California into the house that Chad and Hayley bought a few months before they split up. Chad let her keep it. Taylor asked us to stay here with them while we were in Cali anyways. We decided there was no reason why not to but I ended up with the room next to Hayley. Which is hard for me because I try to help and she pushes me away then I have to listen to her cry. There have been countless nights I've ended up crying just by what I can hear from her. She was truly heartbroken.
I climbed out of my bed and grabbed my bags. This tour would either be good or horrble. I hope not the lather one. I took my stuff down stairs and was greeted by Max, Jeremy and Taylor. "You ready man?" Taylor smiled. "As I'll ever be" I replied. "Do you think she'll cope?" Max asked with a sad look. "We hope so" Jeremy tried to smile. It pained us all to see her like this but that's love. My heart literally broke for her when Cara turned up at the party. I shook my thoughts away in time to hear Hayleys bedroom door open then slam shut. We all looked at each other then heard her drag her suitcase down the stairs. She finally appeared and dumped it down infront of her. She looked up at me first and weakly smiled. "You ready for this?" I asked. She didn't say anything... just nodded.
I picked up her suitcase handle and my own and dragged them outside. She followed behind me along with Max, Jeremy and Taylor. When we got outside I seen Dan, Matt, Chris, Ilan and Justin all sitting with their own luggage around the porch. Hayley threw herself down onto the grass, face down. I sighed and sat down next to Dan. "This is going to be hell" I whispered. "If we could have swapped buses, her life would be easier but no. Stupid tour managers" Dan said angrily. "She has to deal with seeing him all day, every day" I sighed. "I hope to god he doesn't bring Cara or I swear I'll punch his face in" Dan groaned. I nodded, with a slight laugh. Suddenly, two buses pulled up infront of the house. "This is it" I said standing up. I looked at Hayley and she looked up slightly then buried her head in her arms again.
Hayleys P.O.V
This was it. The buses were here and I would finally have to face my fear. Everyone began to walk over to the buses and I knew it was time for me get up but my body refused to budge. Eventually, I slowly stood up and looked for my bags but they weren't there. The guys musta gotten them for me. Turning on the spot and heading towards my bus. As I got closer everyone poured out of the bus. Tony... Mike... Jaime... and then Vic. My heart stopped when our eyes met and he looked at his feet. I continued walking towards them.
"Hayley!" Jaime screamed, he pulled me into a hug and spun me around. "Jaime, I've missed you" I whispered into his ears. "I've missed you too" He said into my ear. He let me go and Tony pulled me in for a hug. "Turtle" I said. He kissed the top of my head and let me go. Mike pulled me in for a hug and then quickly dragged me on the bus away from Vic. I was so grateful. We sat down on the couch in the longue area. "Hayley, she's here" He whispered and looked towards the bunks. I closed my eyes and sighed. "Best begin to act like I don't care" I muttered. Jeremy, Taylor, Ilan, Justin, Tony, Vic and Jaime all climbed onto the bus. Everyone began to do their own things. I decided to go to my bunk and listen to music. I closed my eyes and my mind took me back to that horrible night.
Flashback.
"Hayley, come back" I heard someone shout. I didn't stop. I ran until my legs couldn't move anymore. Eventually I fell to the ground in tears. I felt arms around me and lift me up. I looked to see who it was and it was Josh. I held onto him and cried. "Don't take me back" I begged. "I'm not, we're going to hotel" He whispered.
We walked into the hotel room and I ran to the bed and climbed under. I couldn't care less anymore. My life was falling to pieces. Josh climbed in and hugged me. "How could he?" I cried. "Hayley, think about it... she is clearly around 6 months pregnant, this was before he even knew you" Josh whispered. I looked at him. "Does that make a difference? He's gonna go have a baby with her, he doesn't need me" I cried more. He just rubbed my back and hugged me. I was grateful. He done that until I blacked out from exhaustion.
End of Flashback.
I shook the thoughts and looked at my phone. It was 12am. I climbed out of my bunk and walked down into the kitchen, I was rubbing my eyes as I walked in. I walked over to the fridge and pulled out a water bottle,. As I was taking a sip something caught the corner of my eye and I turned to see someone sitting in the darkness. I jumped backwards and dropped my water, spilling it all over the floor. "Shit" I muttered as the coldness swam around my feet. The figure stood up and grabbed a towel. They began to mop up the mess and I bent down to help them. The moonlight caught the persons face and I jumped back when I seen those familiar brown eyes stare into my eyes. It felt like hours passed while we looked at each other.
We both slowly stood up and not a word was said. He stepped back and then left the room. I sighed and then the tears began to fall. I couldn't do this could I? I couldn't live with him for 9 months. I especially couldn't live with him when his new girlfriend is having his baby. I slid down the counter and cried.
"Hayley?" I heard Tony whispered. I looked up and seen his eyes filled with hurt. "Vic told me you were crying so I decided to come and see if you were okay" He whispered. I looked at him and cried more. He sat down infront of me and hugged me. "Come on now, don't cry" He said soothingly. "She's here... she will be parading him around" I choked out. "Look, you have your reasons why you don't wanna talk to him but you have to speak to him and find out his side... I promise, it'll make you understand more okay" He whispered. I nodded. "For you Turtle okay... I'll try" I said softly. "Come on, let's get you sleep. We have a show tomorrow" He grinned. "Yeah we do" I smiled. He held his hand out for me and pulled me up. He pushed me in the bunk area and then towards my bunk. I climbed in and turned to say goodnight to him before laying my head down and falling asleep. Maybe, just maybe... I could do this.
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12/6/13