Yes, Now, Of Course You Can Stay Here
Can You Feel My Heart?
Your eyes fluttered open, and closed immediately due to the fluorescent lights that hung above your head. You gave your eyes a few seconds to adjust, and you realized where you were. Everything came rushing back to you, you let your thoughts get the best of you. You gave in. You raised your left arm up, and stared at the white bandage that started around your thumb and continued to the crease on your arm. You sat up in the uncomfortable hospital bed, and looked over at the clock on the wall. '3:07 AM' You examined the room with your eyes until your eyes reached the boys. Three of them were basically laying on top of each other. Then Tony was huddled up in a small chair. You slid silently out of the bed until you felt the cold tile under your feet. You were taken back by how dizzy you were. Clinging to the bed helped you steady your balance until you could go on yourself. You made your way to the bathroom, did your business, and crept out of the bathroom. It was almost pitch black in the room after you flicked the light off. You felt your way to the bed, but ran into a steady figure. It was Mike.
"Molly, why are you out of bed?" He whispered.
Mike, I'm fine. Really." You said "Can we just go down, and get some coffee?"
Mike gripped your arm, and led you down the hallway. He explained Jaime, and Vic's bravery. You both arrived at the cafeteria, you sat down at one of the tables while Mike got the coffee. He sat down beside you, and sighed.
"Why?" He said sympathetically. "Why did you do this to yourself? We all love you so much. But not in the way that Tony does. I've never seen Tony adore a girl like this. He loves you more than anything. He threatened to take his own life after all of this happened. None of us had ever seen him like that." He said.
"Wow, Mike, way to make me feel like an ass." You said. "I didn't know it was possible to love someone so much until I met Tony. You don't understand Mike. You don't understand how it is to live in my mind. Everything just got the best of me. I'm scared to get close and I hate being alone. I long for that feeling to not feel at all. The higher I get, the lower I'll sink.
I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim."
"We can't dwell on what has happened. We can move on. Tony easily forget about everything once he sees that you're up and moving. Just fucking pinky promise you won't do that to yourself again. Ever. I don't care if how late or early it is. Just come find me if you ever feel the need to do that again. We can't loose you." Mike looked up at you, and stood up from the table. He lifted you from your seat, and carried you back to the room. He laid you on the bed, and helped you under the covers. You fell straight asleep.
When you woke up, the boys were still in the same position they were in before. It was only eight AM. You heard the door open, and the nurse brought you a bagel, and a bottle of orange juice. She changed your bandage while making small talk with you. She gathered the trash, and slipped out of the room. You opened the orange juice, and took a drink. Tony wrestled in the chair, and you saw his eyes slowly open up. You couldn't help, but stare at him. He looked at you, and his eyes grew wide. A smile crept on to his face. He leapt up from his chair, and engulfed you in his tattooed arms. He kept whispering how happy he was to see you breathing. Tears were streaming down both yours, and his cheeks. All the boys began to wake up, and they were all equally as happy to see you. Mike kind of just stood in the background with a smile on his face. You were released from the hospital, and Tony carried you into the tour bus, and laid you in his bunk before climbing in beside you, holding you closer than ever before.
"You have no idea how much I love you. I love the way your stomach raises as you breathe in when you're sleeping. I love the way you put hot sauce all over your french fries. I love the way you get into a movie, book, or a song. I love the way you sing along to Hall & Oates when were driving to the next venue. I love everything about you. I never want to be apart from you until the day that I die. I will never change my mind. Please don't ever hurt me again." Tony said, never taking his eyes off of you.
"I vow that I will never leave you again. I vow that I will never hurt you again. I vow to always love you no matter what."
"Molly, why are you out of bed?" He whispered.
Mike, I'm fine. Really." You said "Can we just go down, and get some coffee?"
Mike gripped your arm, and led you down the hallway. He explained Jaime, and Vic's bravery. You both arrived at the cafeteria, you sat down at one of the tables while Mike got the coffee. He sat down beside you, and sighed.
"Why?" He said sympathetically. "Why did you do this to yourself? We all love you so much. But not in the way that Tony does. I've never seen Tony adore a girl like this. He loves you more than anything. He threatened to take his own life after all of this happened. None of us had ever seen him like that." He said.
"Wow, Mike, way to make me feel like an ass." You said. "I didn't know it was possible to love someone so much until I met Tony. You don't understand Mike. You don't understand how it is to live in my mind. Everything just got the best of me. I'm scared to get close and I hate being alone. I long for that feeling to not feel at all. The higher I get, the lower I'll sink.
I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim."
"We can't dwell on what has happened. We can move on. Tony easily forget about everything once he sees that you're up and moving. Just fucking pinky promise you won't do that to yourself again. Ever. I don't care if how late or early it is. Just come find me if you ever feel the need to do that again. We can't loose you." Mike looked up at you, and stood up from the table. He lifted you from your seat, and carried you back to the room. He laid you on the bed, and helped you under the covers. You fell straight asleep.
When you woke up, the boys were still in the same position they were in before. It was only eight AM. You heard the door open, and the nurse brought you a bagel, and a bottle of orange juice. She changed your bandage while making small talk with you. She gathered the trash, and slipped out of the room. You opened the orange juice, and took a drink. Tony wrestled in the chair, and you saw his eyes slowly open up. You couldn't help, but stare at him. He looked at you, and his eyes grew wide. A smile crept on to his face. He leapt up from his chair, and engulfed you in his tattooed arms. He kept whispering how happy he was to see you breathing. Tears were streaming down both yours, and his cheeks. All the boys began to wake up, and they were all equally as happy to see you. Mike kind of just stood in the background with a smile on his face. You were released from the hospital, and Tony carried you into the tour bus, and laid you in his bunk before climbing in beside you, holding you closer than ever before.
"You have no idea how much I love you. I love the way your stomach raises as you breathe in when you're sleeping. I love the way you put hot sauce all over your french fries. I love the way you get into a movie, book, or a song. I love the way you sing along to Hall & Oates when were driving to the next venue. I love everything about you. I never want to be apart from you until the day that I die. I will never change my mind. Please don't ever hurt me again." Tony said, never taking his eyes off of you.
"I vow that I will never leave you again. I vow that I will never hurt you again. I vow to always love you no matter what."
@meghnn
7/28/13